A/N - I do not own Twilight, as much as I'd like to round Jacob Black up and take him home with me. ;) Stephenie Meyer is wonderful and God bless her for creating such wonderful characters.
"It'll be as if I never existed." He said, and then in an instant, he was gone.
'He's not coming back.' I thought to myself. 'He's never coming back.'
I might as well get over him. He's gone forever. There's this absolutely amazing boy waiting for me, and even though my heart is no longer whole, I can't live my life waiting for something that will never return.
Well, this is it. Look at that smile. I've made him so happy. He can't see that a part of me will never forget him, but Jake, well, he's been absolutely great. I guess I can tell myself that I'm in love with him. I guess I could say that even though Edward will always be a part of my nightmares and have a chunk of my heart, Jake can have the rest. He deserves it after all he's done for me. So, I can sit here and get lost in his dark, luscious brown eyes and know that I'll never get hurt again. Not by him, and definitely not by Edward again. Jake has spent the night a few times. Jake's heard the screams of terror, and all the nightmares that have been caused by his disappearance. In fact, I still remember the night that Jake held me while I cried myself to sleep.
Is he just my best friend now? Well, I'd guess he's a little more than that now. My boyfriend, my other half, my protector, my support, my life, and the reason while I'm still alive and breathing. But 'boyfriend' is the word that Jake takes pride in. I guess it was bound to happen eventually. And, I'm not dating him simply as a rebound guy, because that isn't it at all. I guess I've always seen this coming if Edward wasn't there. Jake has been there for me forever; never straying away from me. He's the best person that I've met, ever. Oh, and if having a vampire boyfriend before wasn't dangerous enough, now I have a werewolf boyfriend. Maybe I'm a little bipolar. Cold and then hot? Yeah, well Jake's pretty hot, physically and literally; every meaning of that word. It's a bit of an innuendo. Maybe that's it.. Bipolar. But, whatever the case, I love Jake and I'm ready to give him the other half of my heart, but I'm pretty sure that he's had it for a while now.