Dear Esme...
Today I made my final decision to send you a letter. I figured even if you and the rest of the Cullen's hate me I should write a goodbye to the only true mother I ever met. I know the chances of you reading this is minimal and if you read it and laugh... well I guess I deserve it.
It's true I had Renne but she wasn't a mother to me, she didn't look after me the way you did, she abandoned me as soon as she could. Then Edward bought you in to my life and I found it so hard to let you be a mother to me even if I knew in some way you were the best Mom I met. But then you did the same as Renee... You left me.
I don't blame you, If I was you I would leave me. I'm just a plain human who knew that having vampire's 'love' her would one day hurt her because she would ever fit in. But for some reason I felt protected by you all, like you might actually care for me and how I feel. The way a family should make there children and brothers or sister feel.
When Edward told me the truth and left me in the forest I realised that the family I found were the same as my biological family. I cried out for Edward... My big brothers Jasper and Emmett. My sisters Alice and Rosalie and for my newly found parents... You and Carlisle. I found myself back in my room three months later catatonic, I believe is what they called me.
In a week Charlie is going hunting again and I am going cliff diving. At least thats what I will say... really I am going to jump off that cliff to kill myself. I wanted to say bye to you momma. I loved you and as much as I want to deny it knowing you will be laughing in my face for this letter I still love you.
I tried to carry on for Charlie and to let you know I would live for you. I rode motorbikes with strangers to heard Edwards voice... A Cullen voice... I built bikes with a shape shifter and rode them till I fell and hit my head off a rock to hear him... But now I have lost that voice again and I know I cant live without him. Without all of you.
I have been trying to protect everyone I love for so long... Maybe not always from supernatural influences but from themselves. Now Victoria is back, she wants to avenge her dead mate. She wants to stop the pain she feels... The loss of a mate. She will hurt people I care about because of me. If I am dead this wouldn't happen. You wouldn't have had to leave Forks to find a new home and start again so soon because of me.
I am sorry for sending you this letter knowing I was just a pet to you, a mere distraction to cause you and your family fun. I got your address off the internet ... Bye Mommy.
Love Always
Isabella Marie.
Isabella signed the letter with tears dripping solidly down her cheeks. She planned to write a goodbye letter to each Cullen and send them all. The only problem? She knew she sounded pathetic and needy as they wanted. But she couldn't bring herself to hate them.
They were her family and she would rest in peace knowing she said her final goodbyes.
As she drove to the post box she was about to post the letter when she kissed the back off the envelope and whispered to it 'Im sorry Mommy... I wished I was strong like you and I know they said your power is to love unconditionally but now I doubt it. You hated me but I love you." With that she posted the letter and began the tedious drive home.
AN: So what do you think guys? Should I carry on or not?