So this has been sitting on my harddrive for like...two or three years. It's horrible, it's crap, but I'm posting it anyway because I don't have the heart to throw it away. It was written during one of my lows so yeah...not really christmasy, but I'm not feeling real christmasy at the moment. And I probably should have posted it on the 23rd, but I'd have forgotten by then XD
A Special Day
Hello?
Somebody out there?
I don't want to be alone anymore…at least not today.
Today is a special day and nobody should be alone on their special day! But I am alone…always alone. Too dark…
He trapped me here. It's been too long for me to tell the exact time. I tried not to let the darkness get to me, but there's so much! It was hard to endure.
But I was hoping He'd let me out today. Just today though – I would never ask for much. He let me last time…
Oh, how I'd love to see my sister again, I bet she's really growing up. He told me once, a long time ago that she was part of a new family now, that she didn't need me to ruin her life again. I'm so happy for her, that she has people who love her. It's so much better for her now that I'm gone…
I'd like to see my brother again too, but He never talks about him. I don't know if he's all right…He doesn't really like him, I'm not sure if He'd do anything about it…
He hasn't spoken to me for so long…I've forgotten what His voice sounds like…I've forgotten a lot of things since the darkness took over.
I've forgotten their names and their voices. I've forgotten how I even came to this dark place. I've even forgotten my own name.
But I remember something's. There was a golden pyramid once, I think I wanted it. There was a white-haired boy too, with a golden ring. I think I remember liking him. And I remember what today is because it's a special day! At least, to me…
I don't think He's going to let me out this time. Maybe he's even forgotten about me. He says that everyone has forgotten that I've even existed. Have I ever existed? Faces are blurry now and names have all vanished.
I don't want to be nothing…does anyone remember me? Am I missed by anyone?
No…He said I was bad. That nobody liked me.
Maybe it's better that I'm here and that I can't remember.
But how I wish I could forget everything!
Hello? Hello!? Can you hear me? Today is a special day! Have you forgotten? Please don't say you've forgotten me too! I want someone to remember!
Silence…that's all I ever hear. Is there even a world beyond this darkness I live in?
Wait…there's that feeling! I don't feel so…incomplete…
/ Happy Birthday Stupid. Now shut up. /
Ah, I knew He'd remember!
At least…
Someone did.