A/N: The first song, 'The Other Side Of The World' doesn't belong to me, but to KT Tunstall. I mussed up the pronouns though. The second song, 'Lonely Girl' also doesn't belong to me, but to Sandi Thom. I had to change the pronouns and whatever to fit in though, so it's now Lonely Boy…
'Why do I have to be like this? Why do I have to be the one who is born into this family?' I asked myself over and over again. 'I want to be normal! I don't want to be the host to a homicidal maniac that happens to look like an angel! I want to be able to have friends without endangering them! I want to be NORMAL!'
Over the sea and far away
He's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But he's cold inside
He wants to be like the water
Yet another day at school, yet another day of hiding from everyone, just observing everything. I didn't need to go. I had learnt all this stuff by the time I was seven.
All the muscles tighten in his face
Buries his soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water
Actually most of what I observe is just one boy. My little fire… I love him, I know that. But he'll never be interested in me as anything more than a friend. It pains me to say it but that's all there ever will be between us…friendship. He has the older Harada sister to love and be happy with. Seeing him happy makes me content but I wish it was I making him happy, not Harada-san…
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see
You're the other side of the world to me
Slowly I'm disappearing, not being me anymore. I have to hide everything from everyone. Daisuke comes up to me and I immediately hide any emotion that was previously in my face. I just hide, even from someone who considers me to be their best friend. The person that's in the most danger. But I have to avoid, I have to hide.
On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along
Slowly, Daisuke leaves me. He slowly needs me for less and less, now Dark and Krad are gone. I used to me his line that he held onto to help himself. I used to be the shoulder to cry –well, not exactly, but you get my drift- and now I just sit there, wanting happiness and being ignored.
The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see
You're the other side of the world to me
I want to be able to help him and to have him help me in return. But now he leaves me alone as much as the others do. I wonder what he feels for me now…just another person…just one that happens to have had a homicidal manic in his head.
Can you help me
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore
School's out and I've no work. I go down to the river and sit. Sometimes I draw, but most of the time I just sit and watch the water flowing next to me. Many people notice me and watch me. I send them a glare and they leave. I have no-one now, I want to be alone.
I sometimes see him down by the river
The water dances on his skin
And he captivates you with his eyes
But he'll never let you in
And in the dark he lingers
Like a tear without a soul
I have on-one to help me. I've only had people look after me, because of my family or they want the all the money that I inherited. I just want to find someone I can spend happiness with but now I know. There's no point, no-one will ever want me.
And oh what a lonely boy
Trying to find his way in this mixed up messed up world
And I've seen so many faces just like his
So many broken hearts in the world
And oh what a lonely, what a lonely boy
I can't spend my afternoons by the river now. The weather is unpredictable. It's cold outside now and I can't help but feel saddened. I've lived all my life in the cold. All I want in my life is warmth, but now that little warmth I had is fading. I only just realised now, warmth love happiness. I want happiness with someone I love. They will give me warmth. But now I know I will never get it.
Lately he's been watching the weather
The weather doesn't know what to do
Cos sometimes when it's cold outside
That's when he's feeling blue
I see through the sadness
Deep within his soul
All he wants to have is someone he can love
To make him whole
I want somebody to help me when I need it, someone to help when they need it. The only person that ever gave me that is fading from my life. The only person I'll ever love has now broken my heart. Friendship just isn't enough for me. I wish it was.
And oh what a lonely boy
Trying to find his way in this mixed up messed up world
And I've seen so many faces just like his
So many broken hearts in the world
And oh what a lonely, what a lonely boy
I wish somebody actually liked me for what was inside the cold, icy outside, not somebody who wanted me for my looks. The first person do that I love, but I have to let them go to where they are happy.
Isn't it incredible, oh isn't it regrettable
He found sweet love, but then he let it go
And I've seen so many faces just like his
So many broken hearts in the world
I want somebody to love, to stay with me…I'll never get that comfort…I'm destined for a life alone…
And oh what a lonely, what a lonely…
And oh what a lonely boy
Trying to find his way in this mixed up messed up world
And I've seen so many faces just like his
So many broken hearts in this world
I'm destined for a life alone…
And oh what a lonely, what a lonely boy
And oh what a lonely, what a lonely boy
A/N: This is so much sadder than I normally write… I heard the songs and they were perfect for it, so I wrote it. I hope you like my first attempt at a sad fic…
Extra A/N: I've sorted out the pronoun trouble, thanks to WaterSpirit1 for pointing it out to me