1OK SO I JUST HAD A GREAT IDEA FOR A STORY SO NOW I WILL BE WORKING ON FOUR STORIES...all at the same time.. Yeah... I know... I'm crazy... but what ever...
DISCLAIMER: no... I don't own them and every time you make me say this... I die a little inside...
Nikki: ok ok so I know someone is going to have an issue with the fact that I have four incomplete stories that I'm trying to update all at once.. But hey, I like a challenge... and when I get an idea I have to start writing, and I got an idea while watching TV and studying for my finals tomorrow... so I stopped everything and grabbed my laptop...
So here I go... ok?
Wishes of Love and Trust...
Losing my Mind?
Love... love is when you give yourself whole-heartedly to someone... when you give them your heart and you just prey to God that they don't break it...
The hanyou was so very confused... He knew that he was once very much in love with Kikyou... and though she is dead... he still loves the shell that walks around the Earth... but then there is Kagome.. He didn't love her... but her did like her, and being the rather ignorant hanyou that he is, he didn't see any issues leading them both on til he discovered who he was truly in love with...
The miko... the living miko that is... recently turned 19... she gave up everything to help Inuyasha four years ago, and she'd do it again... the confused girl wanted nothing more than to help find the jewel that she broke... but what had kept her by his side for the past four years... she couldn't even answer that if she wanted to... she was a very lost little miko...
Sango walked into Kaede's hut and saw Kagome sitting there, alone...thinking... "Kagome, Inuyasha wanted me to come get you he said we have to leave again.." she received no answer "Kagome... you deserve someone who loves you for who you are, and who's just as nice as you..."
"I know" she whispered "lets just go..."
They got up and walked out to meet the rest of the group. And they departed the relatively safe village, and all was seemingly calm until...
"INUYASHA... I SENSE A DEMON WITH JEWEL SHARDS... ITS HEADED RIGHT FOR US..."
A giant Caterpillar like bug with glowing green eyes rushed towards the group of friends...
They all fought and were winning easily then Kagome positioned to fire a sacred arrow right towards its abdomen, where she had sensed the shards... as the arrow pierced its stomach it growled out "I curse you bitch..." then the Caterpillar exploded in a wave a greenish purple goo and yellow and black flesh... everyone dodged it except for Kagome...who got completely covered in the muck... She managed to crawl through it to get the jewel shards before she fainted...
Later she woke up, she'd been washed and put in her pajamas and wrapped in a blanket... most likely by Sango.
She had an absolutely splitting headache. She slowly sat up and stared at the fire, then at her friends... she all the sudden felt worried for no reason and a voice played trough her head 'thank Kami she's awake, she's been out for hours...' the voice sounded like Sango, but Sango wasn't talking... then she felt warmth a caring but what went through her head didn't make her feel warm 'ok she's awake... good now I can go... I don't think Kikyou will wait for me much longer...'
Inuyasha got up "I'm... going to go scout the forest and make sure that its safe to be here..."
"Inuyasha... Osuwari... OSUWARI!!"
Kagome felt herself becoming angry and confused..'what the fuck was that for?'.. something weird was going on...
She looked at Inuyasha but he was still in the ground.. he couldn't have said that... 'what's going on?'Then she felt something else... pure contempt for ones self... a voice growled through her head 'what an idiot half breed even his human wench could tell he was lying'
The voice sounded oddly familiar... 'why would he choose something dead over a living person... that's just stupid... humans are disgusting, but if he is going to choose one... the obvious choice is that wench... I mean that...Kikyou is made of clay... what a moron... I mean...that girl... is gorgeous... for a human that is...'
Kagome looked around for the source of... what had she been hearing?... thoughts?... ok she searched for the source of the thoughts...
Her headache was getting worse... it was hard to deal with all their... thoughts and feelings... she was so concentrated on not passing out from her splitting headache that she didn't notice Inuyasha get up and sneak away...
'Poor bitch... she'd be better off if she just forgot that hanyou even existed... too bad though... she should find someone else to follow like a puppy...'
'I don't follow him like a puppy' she thought as she got up and bent over to pick up her bag... but as she was bent over she froze in place...
'What is that bitch wearing' on of her hand immediately went to her ass... she was wearing her pajama shorts... and they were definitely short... she grabbed her bag and quickly stood back up... 'pity' she went and sat down searching for her Advil a blush very obvious on her face...
"What's the matter Kagome?" Sango was worried... she knew... she could feel it
"Oh nothing... I just have a headache" she pulled out a small bottle and a canteen of water... "yes, I found it..."...
"Found what Kagome?"
"My headache medicine" she pulled two bluish-green pills and closed the bottle... She popped the pills in her mouth and chased them down with water...
Sango simply nodded...
Kagome laid down resting her head... she knew who's thoughts were running through her head... but she didn't feel like confronting him at the moment... she liked listening to him thinking of her... it was calming as she tried to rest so her headache slowly lessened... but why was HE thinking of her...
She just laid there listening to random thoughts about how stupid all of them were... and how much he hated Inuyasha she kept sensing pain then self contempt for letting him acknowledge his own pain... she listened to him for what seemed like forever... his voice made her calm..she couldn't explain it... she should be terrified... but once she realized that everyone was asleep and Inuyasha wouldn't be back for hours if not til the morning...she slowly got up her headache was almost completely gone she walked a few feat into the forest and looked up into a tree
'If you don't move, the bitch wont see you... she's just a human...'
"Come down... I'm not an idiot... I've known you were up there for a while now..."
He sighed and hoped down, slightly stumbling when his full weight hit his legs but he quickly regained his composure...
She bowed... "Sesshomaru"
He nodded "why didn't you tell the others I was here... if you truly knew I was here you should have raised the alert"
"I know your hurt Sesshomaru... I can sens...I mean...I can see the blood seeping through your clothes..." she lied... she couldn't tell him that she could mysteriously hear thoughts "what happened Sesshomaru..." she cared about everyone... even if she didn't like them...
"It's none of your business miko... why should you care... you should be worried that your mate left to be with a dead bitch..."
"Sesshomaru... I care about everyone... and so you are going to tell me what happened and I am going to help... as you said.. I am a miko... and further more I AM NOT Inuyasha's mate... nor do I plan to be..." she resisted the urge to yell knowing that it would wake her comrades...
"I was attacked... and I don't want your help... I doubt you could help me anyway..."
She smirked and pushed him to the ground... she planed on him landing on his back and her quickly forcing him to let her help him...but he grabbed her arm as she pushed him, causing her to land on top of him... he grunted in pain and she blushed like crazy...
'She's trying to be careful not to hit my wound...' he looked at her. 'She looks good from this angle... for a ..human that is...'
Her blush increased as she put her hands on either side of him and lifted herself up and sat on his waist just below his stomach... if you were just walking in.. It would look like she was straddling him... she looked at his stomach where he had bled through his shirt... trying to ignore... his thoughts...
'Looks like she's used to being in that position...'
She got redder... if that was even possible... "I'm going to help you, cause I'll feel like shit if you bleed to death" she said as she undid his shirt and opened it to reveal a huge cut straight across his stomach... it was really deep...
Sesshomaru just grunted and looked away...
"Sesshomaru... don't move... I'll go get my supplies..." she ran faster than he thought was possible and came back with a ghastly looking yellow bag
She sat beside him and pulled out various supplies...
'Pity... I liked her better in the other position...'
Her blush returned as she felt his slight arousal and heard his thoughts...
'Damn miko... she shouldn't affect me like this... its only because of my wounds... I'm just weaker from my wounds... I don't find her attractive... damn... not working...' he thought trying to regain composure...
She opened a bottle of hydrogen peroxide.. And a rag... she drenched the rag in the smelly liquid... "Sesshomaru this might sting a bit..." she cleaned the wound and watched him try not to wince... "I'm sorry Sesshomaru... it'll clean the wound and fight off infection... that way you can heal faster..." as she finished she watched the wound foam from the hydrogen peroxide... this time the demon lord did wince... she apologized again "I'm sooo sorry..."
She then grabbed disinfecting/pain soothing cream and gauze and cloth and medical tape... once the foaming stopped she poured copious amounts of the cream into her hand and whispered "this should help with the pain and help prevent scaring..." Sesshomaru merely nodded...
'I would hate to see such perfect skin scarred...' she thought
'Why does she care so much about me'
'Why do I care so much?... he's the enemy...'
After she finished with the cream she cut a piece of gauze into a shape larger that the cut and placed it over the wound. She used the medical tape to secure it in place... "Sesshomaru-sama... could you stand up please... I need to wrap this cloth around your-" he stood up before she could finish... she blushed as she walked closer with the bandage like cloth in her right hand, she reached her arms around him and pulled in around him and closed it in front towards the side securing it with more tape... she stood there staring at it... still uncomfortably close to him... "I'm done Sesshomaru..." but neither of then moved
'She smells really good... like cherry blossoms..'
Kagome blushed and looked up at him...
(((random fact... I just left my computer for two hours to watch From Hell with my sister... I ate banana pudding... so I'm a bit hyper and sugar high-ish... so if it's a little random... sorry...)))
"Inuyasha's coming... go back to your friends and sleep... do not tell him you helped me... for it was, after all, unwanted... and I do not feel like being judged by a half breed..." when he moved she saw him wince... 'his wound must still hurt'... she thought as she pressed a finger to his stomach... "trust me" she whispered her finger glowed and she smiled... it would heal within an hour...
"Why not do that in the first place, miko?"
"Cuz, it makes me a bit..." her knees gave out and Sesshomaru caught her "...dizzy" she said as she slowly walked back to camp she turned "your welcome... ice lord..." she smiled and continued to her camp which wasn't far at all and quickly got into her sleeping bag... she heard Inuyasha and she pretended to sleep...
'Fucking bitch... makes me go all the way there just to see her and all we do is talk... blah blah blah... how do I know you love me... blah blah blah... kill Kagome... blah if you wont kill Kagome, then I at least want to join your group... I don't trust you with that whore... blah blah blah... meet me tomorrow... how am I supposed to tell them that... 'hey guys my dead girl friend is going to join our group now...' that'll go great...'
Kagome was upset... but she decided to sleep it off and approach it tomorrow that was until she heard a growl from Inuyasha... 'I smell Sesshomaru'... 'shit I thought he left... fuck' Inuyasha started sniffing around to find the source of the scent... the he looked at Kagome and sniffed... he kicked her lightly in the side to 'wake her up'
She sat up and rubbed her eyes... "hmm, what do you want Inuyasha... it isn't morning yet.."
"Don't play with me bitch... what were you doing with my brother..."
"Inuyasha, what are you talking about... we haven't seen Sesshomaru in months... you know that..."
"You smell like you just got back from being all over him..." he sniffed her entire body "your whole body smells like him..." he looked down "your WHOLE body smells like him Kagome.. What were you doing while I was gone...?" 'She even smells like him down there... what the fuck...'
'Fuck from when I was sitting on him... fuck fuck fuck... I don't even know what to say'
"Whore..."
"Well Inuyasha, where did you go... you look dirty like you were rolling around in mud... or maybe it was clay..."
"Don't change the subject bitch... I don't need you... your just a shard detector... and Kikyou could do it if I wanted her to... so tell me the truth or leave..."
"I didn't do anything with your brother... especially not what your thinking..." she walked towards the forest.
"Where do you think your going bitch?"
"To see Kaede.. Not that its your business anyways..."
With that she left knowing that they hadn't really traveled that far...
Once she was far enough from camp she looked around and whispered.. "Sesshomaru... Sesshomaru... I know your still nearby..." He jump wordlessly from a tree...
"I'm guessing you heard what happened..."
"Yes..."
"Well I need to ask you a favor"
"Which is?"
"I was wondering if you could take me to the village outside of Inuyasha's Forest... I'm still pretty tired... and I can't ask Inuyasha... I don't want him to know why I have to see Kaede..."
"Fine" he lifted her up and flew towards the village "why do you need to see the miko?"
"Something's wrong with me..."
He looked away... "Which is?"
"I've been hearing other people's thoughts Sesshomaru... and feeling their feelings... and my head hurts because of it... I want her to make it stop..."
"I see"
Soon they landed and she walked into an all too familiar hut with Sesshomaru in tow...
"Kaede... I'm sorry its so late... but I need your help"
"What's wrong my child..."
--Insert crap about the demon and "I curse you" and thoughts and headaches and Inuyasha basically telling her to leave... and shit like that here– ((basically everything that's happened so far))
"Ahhh... my poor child, you've been cursed to be an empath... lets check my books and scrolls I'm sure we can find something"
They searched for hours and found that she could do one of two things...
"Kagome.. Unfortunately... there is only one real cure... you could just live with it... and hope that the constant intrusions into your mind don't destroy you... or you... have to find a mate..."
Kagome's jaw dropped... "how would a mate... change anything?"
"Well... not just any mate... you have to love each other and the forces that take place during the.. Mating will over come the curse that is placed on ye..."
"FUCK"
"Kagome..." Kaede didn't know what to say... "I'm sure you'll find someone..."
"How long... do I have"
"Depends how long you can handle the pain..."
Kagome turned towards Sesshomaru "Please take me back to my friends"
He nodded and they left the hut. He lifted her up and they started to fly...
"You'll be fine... Inuyasha will mate you and it'll be like nothing ever happened"
"No Sesshomaru... I don't love him... and he doesn't love me.. I heard him thinking about how to tell us that he didn't really need me and Kikyou was joining us..."
She started to cry and buried her head in his chest... she soon fell asleep. He wrapped his tail around her for warmth because she was still wearing shorts and a t-shirt...
'She's really scared... Inuyasha is going to make it worse... at least she has that human wench to comfort her...' he thought... knowing she was asleep and couldn't hear him...
H approached the camp.. His brother wasn't there so he walked over to the demon slayer saying simply "take care of her" he placed her on her sleeping bag and flew away.
Sango was just going to let her sleep... that is till Inuyasha arrived with Kikyou in his arms... he put her down and went over to Kagome... "Kagome... wake up"
She rolled over and mumbled "hmm not now Sesshomaru... we can't be there yet..."
"Bitch..."
She shot straight up "oh.. Hi Inuyasha" she tried to sound innocent...
'Goddamn bitch has been with my brother... going to Kaede's my ass...'
"Where the fuck did you really go Kagome?"
"I went to Kaede's..."
Inuyasha slapped her "Don't even try to lie to me I can smell my brother all over you"
"Take a better sniff dumbass..."
He did and was shocked... he smelled Sesshomaru... Salt water... fear and Kaede...
Everyone was at a loss for words... except for the clay bitch...
"You were worried she'd be upset but look she already moved on to your brother"
"That's not true... I needed to get to Kaede's as soon as I could and he was there and and he got me there faster..."
"And why did you need to see my sister so quickly?" the clay bitch spoke harshly...
"That demon we killed cursed me to be an empath... I've been able to hear everyone's thoughts and feel their feelings since yesterday when I woke up... its been giving me splitting headaches and I needed help..."
Sango interrupted the attack on Kagome "What did she say Kagome..."
"That I can live with it and hope that it doesn't... destroy me... or I can find a mate whom I love and who loves me and the bond will break the curse..." she started to cry
"Oh Kagome" Sango hugged her
"Sango... I'm gonna die aren't I??"
Kagome felt anger and turned to kikyou...
"How long did it take you to make that up... don't you see, Inuyasha... she was probably fucking your ass of a brother and needed to lie so you didn't throw her out on her ass"
"He's a half demon you dumbass... if I wasn't a virgin anymore he'd be able to smell it..."
"Ugh... you bitch... don't talk to me like that"
"Sorry I forgot... I shouldn't be mean to an old clay hag... tell me... what's it like to be made of dirt? The sex must suck... mm suck... I'm sure you know all about that"
"At least I'm getting some..."
"Yeah cuz you're a WHORE!"
"Inuyasha doesn't complain..."
"Yeah... cuz he knows that no one else would fuck him"
"STOP YELLING... Kagome is in trouble.. What should we do?"
Kagome fell to her knees "I don't love anyone Sango... I'm gonna die... who wants to enter a relationship with someone who could die... no one is gonna wanna get to know me..."
It was silent for a moment and Kagome got up... "I'm going to take a bath"
She grabbed her bag and started to walk when she realized Sango was planning to come "Sango... I think I need to be alone... your worrying is enough to drive me crazy... thanks though..." she walked silently away and found the lake... she changed into her swim suit and jumped in...
'Absolutely breath taking'
"Ugh... Sesshomaru... come out..."
"Grrr Wench..."
She could tell he was kidding... which was weird for Sesshomaru...
"Did you need something Sesshomaru?..."
"Hmm, I was going to check on the situation with your empathy..."
"Well the clay whore said it was a lie and that I was obviously sleeping with you... what a dumbass... like you'd ever sleep with me... last time I checked I was still human..."
"Indeed"
"Ugh"
"What"
"You and your 'I've got a stick up my ass' attitude..."
"Watch it, I've killed people for such insolence..."
"I bet you have... you kill for a lot of pointless things..."
'Bitch... she isn't aloud to be gorgeous and strong and ugh... fuck she can hear me...'
She ignored it and dived back under the water... she reemerged and said "Hey Sesshomaru... come here..." she walked towards the edge of the bank to meet him... without warning she placed her hands on his shoulder and it glowed in moments his arm was back. She released his shoulder and stared at his eyes... his perfect golden eyes, she'd always thought that he and Inuyasha had the same eyes... what a fool she'd been... his eyes were absolutely captivating...
She was very tired and felt herself leaning against Sesshomaru for support, but she never stopped looking at his eyes... and then it happened... no one to this day knows who started it.. But they were kissing... she wrapped her arms around his neck as she grew even more tired but they didn't stop kissing... they were frozen there... in time for those moments. Kagome's head no longer hurt... she looked at the golden eyes that were looking deep into her soul... he wrapped his arms around her waist... they broke the kiss and just stayed like that for a while, both confused, both shocked...she laid her head on he's chest... then they heard it...
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING KAGOME!?!?!?!?!?"
Her head was suddenly throbbing and she passed out in the Youkia's arms...
She woke up the next day to shouting... one person shouting at a very calm and collected demon..
"What the fuck were you doing with her?!"
No answer
"Why the fuck are you still here"
No answer
The demon got up and walked over to Kagome... and thought...'cover your ears and clear your mind... focus on a happy memory and take more of your headache medicine' he handed her the yellow bag she always carried around.He pitied the girl...not only was she a weak human, but she's cursed and his dumbass brother was bringing a dead girl to be his mate...
She nodded as Sesshomaru turned back to Inuyasha... "I suggest you take care of this girl... she isn't well, as I'm sure she told you... calm down.. She can feel your anger... how would you feel if that miko died? Or would you just block it out and fuck your whore... filthy half breed..."
Kagome's eyes watered... Sango rushed over and helped her up leading her away from the camp and anger and worry and bitchiness (you know... from the clay whore)
"Kagome are you feeling better?"
She nodded
"Kagome... Inuyasha was shouting something about you and Sesshomaru kissing, what happened?"
"I don't know..."
"Did you kiss him?"
"No"
"Did he kiss you?"
"No"
"Well, if you guys kissed... someone had to start it"
"I don't know... I fixed his arm and then we were kissing and then there was yelling and then it was dark" she looked to the ground... "I don't know what happened Sango.. Ok?"
'Poor Kagome...'
Kagome sighed and began to sing under her breath... "They are one person, they are two alone, the are three together, they are for each other..."
"Are you glad you kissed him?"
"I don't know... I just know that for those moments... all the pain stopped..."
"Just be careful ok?''
Kagome felt a pain in her stomach... 'crap... I must be starting my period soon... that sucks ass'
"I have to go back and get my bag..."
She and Sango walked into the campsite and both the demons heads turned towards her...
'She's in heat... fuck...' Sesshomaru's voice rang through her head
She was confused... "Sesshomaru could you come with me for a second?"
He nodded and followed...
"Sesshomaru... heat? What does it mean?"
"Well... its usually the prime time for a bitch to get pregnant..."
"Why is that 'Fuck'?"
"Because... the scent it causes... attracts demon males, triggering... their...primal urges..."
"Wow that is Fuck..."
Sesshomaru's eyes became speckled with red... "Kagome we should go back to the others..."
She placed a hand on his shoulder "what's happening?"
"I'm sorry Kagome..."
He looked scared...
"Run...please... run far and fast"
But it was too late, she didn't get away in time... his eyes were red... she was pinned to a tree and about ready to cry...
"Sesshomaru stop... please"
'Maybe its like when Inuyasha changes...'
"Sesshomaru...Sesshie... please" she never stopped looking in his eyes... "Please listen..Its Kagome... please I'm not mad just please listen..." his eyes had specks of gold again. But he gripped her arms, drawing blood... she didn't know what to do so she leaned up and pressed her lips to his and watch as his eyes changed back, and she pulled away...
She ran back to the camp and tried to pretend it didn't happen... 'well he tried to warn me...' she thought desperately trying to ignore everyone's worried looks 'gah.. My life sucks... how the hell can I find a mate...?
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