I Feel Bad

Jacob's POV

Bella left to be with that leech, my Bella left. I couldn't understand why I didn't go after her, why I didn't fight harder to keep her.
I should be out in that driveway
Stoppin' you
Tears should be rollin' down
My cheek
I'm not cryin because I lost her, I don't know what is wrong with me. I don't get it.

And I don't know why
But I'm not fallin' apart like I usually do
And how the thought of losin' you's
Not killin me

I feel nothing now all I feel is numbness, I miss her, but I can't cry over her. Maybe my body is trying to tell me something.

I feel bad
That I can stand here strong,
Cold as stone
It does not hurt to be around Charlie or hear her name countless time, but I really wish I did. Hurting means I'm still human that the beast has not taken me over. I don't want to become like stone… like a vampire.

Seems so wrong, I can't explain it
Maybe it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb, baby I hate it
I feel bad
That I don't feel bad

I don't get it, I keep thinking that its going to hit me that she is gone for good, but its been almost a year and I haven't lost it yet. What is wrong with me?
I could let myself be angry over
Wasted time
And sad about just throwin' love away
Yeah, I almost wish my heart
Was breaking
But I can't lie
All I want to do is turn the page

I go out with countless girls, and even gone home with a few of them. I don't understand why I can, I just become someone I'm not when I am around girls and I never stay with them over a night.
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong,
Cold as stone
Seems so wrong, I can't explain it
Maybe it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb, baby I hate it
I feel bad
That I don't feel bad

Every day I pray that I can finally cry over the loss of Bella Swan, but that relief never comes.
Bitter, alone
I just feel it's time - time to
Move on
I just gotta move on and on and
On and on – yeah

I will finally get the release I have wanted, I jumped over the side of the cliff. I felt tears fall down my face as I slipped into nothingness. I had finally moved on.
Maybe it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb
Oh baby, I hate it
I feel bad
That I don't feel bad
No, I don't feel bad

Goodbye Bella

Like i have said before i am warped! what do you think?