Hello! This is a giftfic for bkwrmnlvnit aka Kitt! :) So this is for you! For being great person and great friend! *glomps* When I thought about what I could write for you..this popped in my head! :)
Written from the Joker's view.
Sorry for any grammar errors...written on tablet.
I hope you like it! Enjoy!
"Father wants us to start up a circus!"
"Waaa?""What?""Huh?"
When children hear the word 'circus, they think of clowns, cotton candy, merry-go-rounds, tricks and treats.
To be more precise, they think, they only know one word associated with the word circus. That would be... fun.
That is what a circus simply is, right? A show to entertain adults, wonder the children, show hidden talents of people. The circus was so very fun.
When the Joker was young, the circus sounded wonderful. He always heard his friends talking about it when it would come to town.
"Hey! The circus is here!"
"I wish we could go,"
"Yeah, me too."
Where ever he went, when he saw a circus sign plastered on a wall, his mind said one word...Fun!
If the Joker had to describe it now, it would be painful.
To see those adults laugh cheerfully with those fancy coats and dresses, while not knowing the true hardships and pain in the world. Those adults were the ones who stared at him in shock and disgust while he got punished for stealing a loaf of bread. These people just looked at them while him and his family huddled underneath a ripped blanket from the freezing rain. Now, he was entertaining them. He didn't hate them.
It was just painful.
Then to wonder those children with twists, twirls, flames, lions, and flying knives. He wanted to show them what a circus was about, what a circus should be about, full of simple fun.
Of course life was never that easy.
He had to take them away, away from family, innocence, faith, and love. Then lead them to death.
It was painful to deceive those children into seeing beauty in horror. They clapped their small hands with glee at blood, they twirl to the sound of pain, and all they saw was white snow softly falling while they got splashed by bloodshed.
Children should be innocent,
They shouldn't have to see what he had to see and live with.
His mind didn't agree...
"Why do you feel pain for them?"
They are just children.
"So? You and the others saw worse, been through worse when you were children."
I don't want that to happen to them!
He could hear the voice scoff in his mind,
"Then they will grow up normally, you know. They will become those adults who just stare while a poor young boy gets beaten for trying to feed his family! "
Shut up!
"Do you really want them to become like that?"
Silence.
"This isn't a circus you used to hear about in those stupid fairytales. It isn't about stupid fun. This circus is different. You know what happens to those children? You refuse to accept it!"
You are wrong.
"You know I am right. Just do it quickly, and you won't feel a thing. No guilt, no pain. Do what Father says."
Y-yes...
"Hey, Joker!"
"What is it, Dagger?"
"Beast thinks the circus is boring. What do you think of it?"
"Ah..."
"Joker?"
Joker grinned, "The circus is fun."
"Ahah!" Dagger shouted into one of the tents to their left, "Told you, Beast. Even Joker agrees."
"Idiot! " They heard Beast shout back.
The Joker laughed on the outside but on the inside...
Do what Father says...
"I am glad you understand. "