Writer's note I noticed that nearly all rated R fics are Kyoru or Yaoi. Where are the Yukiru's? I love Yukiru's. So I have taken it upon myself to try and write a decent lemon type thing. Actually, I've never written one before so I'm not sure how it'll turn out. If you guys like this I'll continue. My goal is to try and make this believable because, I mean, how often do you see good lemons? They're so about the sex, no one cares how they get there and its usually written horribly. Hopefully, this will not become like that. Enjoy!!





Tohru opened her eyes and yawned. Where was she? It was already dark outside. Suddenly she remembered, she had fallen asleep in front of this tree at the park. The book she had been reading lay open beside her as she struggled to sit up in the grass. She saw Yuki coming toward her.

"Honda-san?" Yuki called surprised. "What are you doing out here?"

"Oh Yuki-kun," Tohru replied. "I was reading and I suppose I fell asleep."

"What were you reading?" he asked kneeling down beside her. She handed him the book and he laughed a little. "So you want to learn how to garden?"

"Well, it's just that," Tohru said blushing. "I just wanted to learn more about it, since you love it so much."

Yuki looked at her seriously for a moment. "I was worried when you didn't come home after school. Its really not safe for you to be out here at night."

"I know. I'm so sorry. I just completely lost track of time and..."

Tohru broke off as Yuki leaned forward and kissed her on the lips. He pulled away quickly. "I'm sorry," he mumbled quickly. "I don't know why I did that." What was he thinking? Here, he was supposed to be the one protecting her, and yet he couldn't even control his own desires.

"I... I..." Tohru stammered blushing fiercely. She looked down and her voice became quiet. "I didn't mind."

Yuki looked up at her surprised. "Can I..." he began slowly. "Can I kiss you again?" Tohru just nodded, not saying anything. With the moonlight shining down on her face, he leaned toward her again and their lips touched. This time he didn't pull away and neither did she. They stayed that way for a moment, enjoying the warmth and tenderness of the kiss.

Finally, Tohru broke away and looked down at the ground, her eyes beginning to water. "I can't do this," she whispered sadly.

Yuki looked at her in panic. What had he done? He should never have behaved this way. He should have just taken her home like he originally planned and never given in like this. "I'm... I'm so sorry Honda-san," he murmured. "I wasn't trying to .... can you forgive me?"

"Yuki-kun," Tohru said quietly. "Do you think you could ever love me?"

"What do you mean?" he asked confused.

"I can't do this anymore," she cried tearfully. "I never know what you're thinking. You're always so kind to me, but you're nice to everyone. How can I know how you really feel?"

"Honda-san," Yuki moaned putting his hand on his forehead. "I know, I know I'm never clear about how I feel. But, I'm just..." he trailed off and looked away. "I'm just afraid. I don't want you to push me out of your life."

"Why would I do that?" Tohru asked placing a hand on his face. He gazed deeply into her eyes, and felt his cheeks grow hot. She couldn't help but a smile a little. "I'm supposed to be the one whose afraid. You're too... too wonderful."

Yuki eyes became pained as she said those words. How could she say such sweet things about him. How could she smile such a beautiful smile at him like that. How could he ever feel worthy of such things? "Honda-san," he whispered. "I do love you."

"You don't really," Tohru said quietly. "I'm the one who's in love with you."

"You don't believe me?" Yuki asked cocking his head to the side.

"I should," Tohru said shaking her head. "My mom always taught me to trust the people I love. But... but I think I'm too scared of being hurt to believe you."

"So we both love each other, and we're both afraid of being hurt," Yuki mused. "This night keeps getting more and more interesting." He really couldn't believe it. The girl that had broken the defenses around his heart, the one who had fascinated him, captured him, actually felt the same as he did. "I want to show you," he said quietly. "I want to show you my feelings."

Tohru nodded, and Yuki smiled at her nervously. Could he really do this? He rested his hands on her shoulders and inched his face toward hers. "I love you," he whispered as he kissed her gently. "with all my heart."

Feeling as if her heart would burst, she returned his soft kisses. Slowly, his tongue entered her mouth and she felt it roam over her own. She could taste him, and it only made her longing for him grow. If only this moment could last forever. All she really wanted was to be with him.

Yuki was no longer thinking. Instinct drove him to what he was doing. As if detached from his own body, he watched himself run his hands down Tohru's back, and up again over her shoulders. She sighed and leaned her head forward, resting it on his chest. Yuki placed a hand on her head and ran his fingers through her hair. He inhaled deeply, taking in her scent. Tohru looked up at him and kissed him softly on the chin. She began to unbutton his shirt, slowly, one by one, till she had undone every single one. Trailing a finger down his chest, she leaned forward and kissed his pale skin.

"Tohru...." Yuki murmured as she left a trail of warmth down his body.

"Yuki-kun," she said finally, her eyes tearing up again. "I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I want to be with you and only you forever."

"That's what I want too," he replied quietly. He hugged her tightly and changed into a mouse.

Tohru picked him up and laughed lightly, her tears still running down her cheeks. "You're so cute."

"But this is why, it can't work," Yuki sighed. "I can't do this to you. You need someone who can hold you, who can embrace you and keep you warm."

"No Yuki-kun," Tohru said pressing his furry body against her cheek. "I need you." Suddenly, Yuki changed back, and stood before her naked. She looked away embarrassed. "I'm sorry," she mumbled as he pulled his pants on. "I have to admit too. I almost wished you would make love to me.... but I feel so dirty now, like I've done something wrong."

"Do you really want that?" Yuki asked quietly. "If that's what you wanted, then I would too."

"But why does it feel so wrong?"

"Come on," Yuki said pulling her up. "Let's get out of here. We'll talk more when we get home."

Tohru nodded and followed him out of the park.







Writer's note oops no real lemon here. Have to wait till the next chapter. My goal is to get about five reviews though, so as soon as I do, I'll update.