The snow was just beginning to fall. The fight was going to be soon. Normally this would make even me ecstatic, today, no. I was going to give up my life, for people who I didn't like, for people who didn't like me. I was going to all the same. I was ready to be done with this life. I had already loved, and that got me nothing but grief and agony. There is nothing more for me.
Are you okay I heard my little brother Seth say. Fine. I said bitingly. I know he hurt you, but there's still hope, maybe you'll-
There is no hope we're going to die today there no time to get over him. No time to find some one else. No one could replace him. I loved him and he hurt me.
For once in his short life, he shut up.
Silence. Sweet silence.
I decided just to go wait in the woods. Maybe it'd get over quicker that way. I ran as fast as I could to the forest behind the clearing. Somehow it still smelt like burnt vampire from June, yuck.
I sit and think of the happiest thing I can think of. Hope. Seth told me about hope a few minutes ago and I couldn't get it out of my mind. What if I did imprint, what if someone imprinted on me, what if I entirely forgot Sam and went my own way, fell in love the way people were supposed to, what if I- the thought was cut off by another wolf's though. Usually they didn't interrupt my reverie, but now, it was different. What the hell is going on! What's happening to me! Followed by a string of yelling profanities.
A new wolf. We had gotten a few of those; they came to our pack by nature, naturally they would follow the alpha. Jake sent them all to Sam's pack though. His official excuse was that he had no experience dealing with new were wolfs but I could read his mind, he just wanted his pack smaller; 5 was enough.
I was the only one in wolf form; Seth had changed back a while ago. Stay calm I said who are you, and where are you?
I'm on the Makah reservation. My name is Ethan Uley. Oh first I'm turning into a giant monster and now I'm telling imaginary strangers in my head who I am.
Uley, I thought, how are you related to Sam? I asked. Already running to the Makah reservation to help him.
More profanities went through his head Sam who's Sam? Ethan asked.
Oh forget it. I said, not wanting to detail who he was, don't worry, your not a monster, you're a werewolf. I'm one too. Try to stay away from the people, I'll be there soon. I was already half way there.
Werewolf? What? Can't they just take me to the asylum already?
This happens to Quileute people around our age when there are vampires around.
Vampires? There are no vampires!
There are a whole bunch of them in forks right now.
No what I mean is vampires don't exist! Werewolves don't exist!
Ethan, I know this sound insane but it's true. Try to calm down; being so freaked out only makes it last longer.
At that point I was at the Makah reservation. Where are you? I'm at the Makah rez.
But before he could answer, I saw him, and gravity moved