Hi my lovelie cupcakes! I started writing this story...today when I was babysitting and to be honest, I have no idea where I'm going with this. But I didn't want all this writing effort, pfft, I mean time, to go to waste. So I'm publishing it anyways.

It will be a two-shot. Probably. As far as I know.

It will probably either be a two-shot or a three-shot. I really don't know. Also, it depends on the number of reviews. So my cupcakes, please reviews your thoughts on whether it should be a two shot or three shot. I'll do it based on what YOU want. Thank you for reading this! Please enjoy(:

Disclaimer: I don't own GA.

Her gaze followed him with saddened eyes. Currently, a slim petite brunette sat in the corner of a library, her eyes following her secret crush as she watched him hug another figure. She watched behind an open book as he smiled toward the girl and kissed her on her forehead. The girl left and he made his way toward her.

"Hey Mikan," the crimson lad smiled. Yup, it was none other than Natsume Hyuuga, her best friend. He pulled out a chair that was next to her and heaved down tiredly. She dropped the book lower down her face revealing her plump pink lips. The one saddened look in her eyes were now gone and her eyes shielded from all emotions.

"Hey Natsume," she mumbled looking down. She couldn't look him in the eyes at that moment. He looked at her and smiled even wider not realizing her behavior and hooked his arm around her neck.

"Isn't Luna beautiful?" he sighed staring into space. She looked at him momentarily and started to wiggle to get out of his grip, which he wouldn't allow. He laughed and gave her a noogie thinking she was trying to play with him, when in truth, she wasn't. He pushed his glasses up and sighed again.

"She really is…" Mikan trailed off thinking about how Natsume really liked Luna.

Luna Koizomi. The most beautiful girl in school. She was pretty, popular, a cheerleader, and followed by everyone. But to Mikan, she was a bitch. Behind Luna's smiles was a cruel terrifying girl. But she couldn't tell Natsume that because it'd break his heart.

But he was breaking her heart; her nerdy best friend, who she knew was a total cutie under his thick glasses. Natsume was her best friend since age 5. They were always together…and she loved him, with all her heart, but of course he didn't know that because he was too blinded with his love for Luna. Luna confessed to him one day and told him she always loved him, which was hard to believe. To Mikan, it was kind of suspicious that the most popular girl in school loved one of the nerds of the school, but hey, it happened.

Mikan smiled at Natsume who unhooked his arm around her neck. She sat straight and straightened out her uniform and fixed her thick glasses. She watched him as he stared out the window smiling a little smile that was hidden partially by his hand. Her gaze followed his and she saw who he was looking at Luna. She coughed slightly and looked away immediately. Of course he was looking at Luna, always watching Luna.

Gathering her books and papers that were scattered on the table and stuffing it into her book sack, she stood up. Hearing the screeching of her chair, Natsume looked up at Mikan. Her eyes were covered by her bangs but a heartless smile hung on her lips. She turned quickly without a word and walked away quickly without a word. Behind her glasses, tiny droplets of tears were accumulating.

She knew he would never love her, so why did she have to love him?

"Why did she leave so suddenly?" Natsume wondered. He sighed and sunk back into the library chair tiredly. Mikan was acting strange suddenly and he could help wonder why. She didn't talk to him as often as she used too and she just wasn't as fun as she used to be.

It all started a few months ago, ever since Luna confessed to him.

Flashback

They were walking home one day joking around like usual when suddenly:

"Hey Natsume," Luna smiled sweetly. Natsume looked at her in awe because well, she was talking to him. The girl that he always admired from afar was actually talking to him. She looked down cutely and timidly shuffled her feet. "I've always wanted to tell you this, but I've ALWAYS liked you." He didn't notice her quick malicious glance at Mikan but a smile graced her features quickly.

"Really?" he asked hopefully. Luna giggled and nodded. Mikan on the other hand looked down. She looked up and smiled awkwardly and quietly said," Bye Natsume." Her eyes were slightly glassy but Natsume took no notice to them. He was too preoccupied by Luna. He looked quickly as he saw Mikan quickly walk home while hugging her books to her chest.

'Oh well,' he thought,' I'll talk to her tomorrow.' He looked at Luna again and the rest was history.

End of Flashback

But he didn't. He didn't really see her all the next day because when class came and she usually sat with him, she walked in, looked at him, and took a seat at the far corner from him. Then when he tried to talk to her, she'd smile slightly and make up an excuse. It was weird. And he noticed that no matter how hard he tried to talk to her like he used too, she would let him. She was slowly pulling away from him. So instead, he occupied his time with his girlfriend, who he really loved deeply.

He still tried to stay close with Mikan but she just continuously seemed to pull away. And by the way she was doing it, it really made him miss her.

He missed the times where they laughed and made fun of the popular. He missed the times they cuddled with their blankets, drank hot chocolate, and watched movies. He missed the times where they would play at the park like little kids. And he especially missed the times where they would just laugh. Laugh and just hang out. He missed her. He missed his best friend.

She looked in her mirror. She touched it lightly and slid her fingers down it. Why couldn't he like her? Why did he have to be so hung over Luna. Was she really that great?

Mikan took off her glasses that revealed her beautiful caramel eyes. Why couldn't he look at her like she looked at him? She laughed pitifully at herself. She knew why. It was because she wasn't beautiful like Luna and she was popular like Luna and she just wasn't Luna. She looked at herself in the mirror again and examined herself thoroughly.

Beautiful hazel orbs. Long silky caramel tresses. Pale clear skin. A small button nose and pink plump lips. Why couldn't she be beautiful like Luna? She punched the mirror violently and stared at her fist as it bled from the glass shards that shattered. Sobs suddenly tore through her throat as she slumped to the floor slowly.

"Why can't I be beautiful? Why?" she muttered to herself as her lifeless orbs stared into space.

"Mikan!" a voice yelled on the other side of the door. She slowly turned her head to the door and smiled sadly. She knew that voice.

"Yes, Natsume?" Mikan said softly.

"I heard a shatter! Are you okay?" His voice laced with worry. "I'm coming in." She watched as he opened the door and stare at her in horror. He quickly rushed to her when he saw her condition. He took her bloody fist into his hand and took the few glass shards that were in her fist, out.

"Why don't you love me?" Mikan said softly as she watched him carefully tend to her would. He stopped and looked at her.

"What Mikan?" he asked shocked.

"Why don't, why can't you love me?" Mikan said sobbing, she tore her hand away from his and covered her face.

"What are you talking about Mikan?"

"I love you so much. So much and yet, you won't look at me." She stared at him pitifully as a new batch of tears fell from her eyes. "Why couldn't you just look my way once? Just once is all I would ever ask for."

He looked at her with a mix of shock and disbelief, and she giggled. She knew he would look at her with disgust. She laughed and thought, 'Who wouldn't? She was hideous.'

"I'm just joking Natsume." She flashed him a bright smile and picked herself off the ground. She made her way to the bathroom and obtained a wet cloth to fix her wound. First, she wiped her tears though. Then she turned to him with a smile that didn't reach her eyes. "What brings you here Natsume?"

He chuckled not noticing it and said," You scared me there. I thought you actually said you loved me. Wouldn't that be ridiculous?" He laughed and threw his head back at the ridiculous thought. He didn't see her cringe slightly. She gave a forced laugh," I was just thinking about someone. Someone who I love a lot but he doesn't love me back. He doesn't even think about me like that."

Her laugh suddenly turned into sobs and Natsume stared at her with caring eyes. He wrapped his arms around her and whispered in her hair," He's stupid for not loving someone like you."

'That means you're stupid,' Mikan though smiling sadly into his shirt.

"How about we get this mess cleaned up and we go watch a movie? Like old time sake," he suggested giving her a half smile that made her blush.

"Sure."

His breath hitched slightly as he heard Mikan say," Why don't you love me?" He could hear the brokenness in her voice. His heart stopped as he saw her adorable face streaked with tears. Her eyes were glassy and oh so broken that it made his heart ache.

Who did this to her?

He saw fire when he heard that she was talking about someone else. He knew it was jealously because it felt it many times when he saw Luna talk to guys. But why would he be jealous? He smiled and thought,' it's because she's like my little sister.'

He pulled her into his arms to comfort her but he felt a warmth he's never felt as he held her. Brotherly love, he thought again. He whispered sweet caring words into her ear.

Maybe she should give up. That was running through her mind as she sat next to him on the couch.

"Natsume," she whispered to him. He looked at her and nodded so that she should continue," do you really love Luna?" She looked at him expectantly, but she held her breathe, with one last strand of hope hoping that he would say no, even though she knew it was highly unlikely.

She watched him ponder for a while but then he looked at her and smiled.

"Yeah, I do."

And then that last strand of hope she was hanging on too, was cut.

How was that? I hope you all enjoyed it! There will be another chapter coming out eventually. Please look forward to it.

Please be warned I don't like happy endings much. So it depends on my mood on whether this story will come out with either a happy ending or not. My mood and reviews (suggestions).

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-I Am Awkward