Yuruginai Shinrai
By ShiraiHime
Disclaimer: If I owned it,Kanda would make it his daily life's goal to screw Allen into the mattress.
A/N:Nothing much to say,so uh,here we go!xD
1—Begin
Glass shattered,breaking into millions of tiny pieces,some cutting into his skin,but he didn't care,as long as he got away from that.His grey eyes,usually filled with joy,were now crazed,as he continued breaking all the mirrors in the room. He huffed,it wasn't enough,there were just too many,all of them had that on them. That horrible,nightmarish figure that haunted him.
'No matter what,you can't escape'
He fell to the floor,screaming words of denial,covering his ears as tears started to leak out of his closed eyes,falling down his pale cheeks. He didn't want to see him,didn't want to hear him,didn't even want to know he existed.
Suddenly his door opened,voices shouted his name,and hands reached out to him. He opened his eyes,a little blurry from the tears and from shutting them too tight. He looked at his hands and feet,they were covered in cuts and bruises. His arms were taken,and he was pulled up.
And all was black.
"How is he,Komui?" Lavi asked,glancing from the sleeping boy to said scientist,"He's fine,Lavi,it's just a few cuts and bruises. But he can't return to his room as we're afraid he'll break anything else and hurt himself even more." Both of them stared at Allen,whose face,hands and feet were all bandaged. He looked tortured,even in his sleep. Lavi sighed in frustration.
"What's wrong with him Komui?I've seen his sleeping face before this-it was peaceful. But look at it now.." he trailed off,knowing the scientist got what he wanted to say. Komui placed a hand on Lavi's shoulder,"Maybe it's stress.He has been going through a lot lately,with the whole fourteenth thing and General Cross going missing." Lavi absently nodded. Komui sighed,Lavi had always taken a liking to Allen,only in the brotherly sort of way though,everyone knew that.
"It's best we leave him be," Komui said before he removed his hand and walked to the door. Lavi nodded and followed suit after a few seconds.
Right after they walked out,Allen opened his eyes, tears streaking down his cheeks when he did. He wanted to tell them,but no one would believe him,they'd just think he was a freak,just like when he was younger. The one person who didn't think he was a freak is gone,and that person may have just used him for his own benefit.
He closed his eyes,a sad frown set on his lips.
No one will ever understand.
That day,when Kanda walked into the cafeteria,he didn't expect to hear hushed conversations instead of the usual annoying loud chatting. When he walked over to Jerry to order his meal,even the usually overly-cheerful chef looked somber. He got his food and sat at his usual secluded table.
When he was halfway through his meal,Lavi plopped himself across from him,completely uninvited. He was about to shoot a threat at him when Lavi stopped him.
"Kanda,did you hear what happened to Allen?"
Kanda raised an eyebrow,"I'm taking that as a no," Lavi said,sighing,"It's better you see for yourself," "Why would I care to see what happened to the Goddamned moya-" "Don't fuck with me,Kanda!I know you care for him,and I care for him too,right now he needs us to be there for him!" Kanda was shocked at the sudden outburst,Lavi was serious,he was only serious when he used 'Kanda' instead of 'Yu-chan'.
"Think about all the times he was there for us,and when he suffered for us when his Innocence got taken away!" his volume got louder,and nearly half of the cafeteria's occupants were staring at them. But Kanda didn't care about that right now.
"He lost his Innocence!?" Lavi laughed bitterly,so unlike the hearty laughs he always gave out.
"Yeah,a while ago, but you don't care now do you?" Lavi stood,"You know what?Fuck this,if Allen has no one else but me,then fine,make him hang on to someone who's not allowed to feel!" and he trudged out of the cafeteria,leaving a dumbfounded Kanda.
As much as he kept saying he didn't care for the beansprout,Lavi was right,deep down,he did care,a lot more than he should. But he couldn't,so he set up a barrier and made sure the beansprout hated him.
But after hearing Lavi's rant,that barrier seemed to have lifted slightly,as he felt the need to know of Allens 'losing his Innocence' and the current problem.
That evening,he decided to go visit him.
Uhm,I kind of like how it turned out xD Sorry if it seems sucky to you all though..Oh God,after I edited this I realized how magically short it was -cries-
Reviews please! It'll make me more motivated to write!Any suggestions and constructive criticisms will be greatly appreciated!But please,be gentle,I just started writing.
Mindless flames will be used to burn Leverrier to ashes.
-ShiraiHime