A/N: Here's a Snily One-shot I wrote! :) ENJOY!
I love you
Dear Lily,
I love you so much, Lily. And... that's why I have to let you go. I really don't want to... but... since I love you so much... I have to.
It hurts me so much, seeing you being happy with Potter. I'm... jealous of him. I want you to be happy with me, not him. I... am so stupid. I am the stupidest person ever. I gave up being around with you... just because of that stupid Potter boy.
How did he make you fall in love with him? You always used to hate him...
Why did you forgive him, and not me? I know what I said was terrible... But... I really tried to apologize to you... Lily. I thought that I would always be the only one to understand you!
I was always so selfish! I wanted you to myself! I didn't want anyone EVER to take you away from me.
And Lily... I was so selfish... I did so many terrible things... Just because I missed you so much.
I wanted to look into those green eyes of you and smile... but I couldn't! I couldn't look at your son... who looked so much like James... That's why, I only ever looked into his eyes.
But it hurt so much, Lily. When I looked into his eyes... I saw you there! But... then I'd look at his face... and I'd see... James.
Lily, I'm so sorry! If I knew you were going to die... then I wouldn't have joined the Dark Lord. Actually, I probably still would of, I won't lie to you. Not anymore. Everyone was always pressuring me to become a Death Eater.
I hated so many people... Neville Longbottom. If he had been chosen... then Lily, you wouldn't have died! Why did the Dark Lord have to choose your son? WHY?
It's because I love you so much, that I will try and continue to be strong for you, to live in the good side for you.
Lily, as I held you in my arms, for one last time... I was so sad. I was doing what I had always wanted to do... yet... you were dead. DEAD! Lifeless, in my arms. Your beautiful face... all covered up in my tears.
Lily, I've only cried three times in my life. The first time... was after I called you a Mudblood... The second time... was when you were there in my arms, dead. And the third time... was when I died. I died, looking into your eyes, Lily. Your beautiful green emerald eyes, that I will never forget.
Even here, in heaven, I doubt that you will forgive me.
I haven't yet gathered the courage to go up to you and ask you to forgive me one last time.
I'm scared... I'm scared, Lily to see you happy with James again.
I'm scared.
I'm sorry, Lily.
I love you, and thanks for just... being there, Lily.
Severus Snape
A/N: Hope you enjoyed! R&R, F&F and PM! :) This was written for the HP Potions Competition (Drink of Despair), Quidditch Position Challenge/Competition (Beater), Girls Scout Cookie Competition (Thanks-A-Lot) and Hogwarts Classes Category Competition (Potions).