Chapter 1 "broken"

Chapter 1 "broken"

I walked out of his house, slowly, rain was falling hard and cold but as it hit me it's cold didn't compare with the one I was feeling, even the tears that were falling from my eyes were cold, I was broken inside; he punished me because of my past, a past I didn't choose, a past I was forced to live and a past I was trying to recover from. A past that proved me once more that no matter what I do or where I run to it will always hunt me.

As I reached the silver gate, I couldn't hold it anymore so I let myself fall and threw up and cried even harder, I couldn't even tell him, the look in his eyes, the words, the harsh words, he wouldn't even…., it's not worth it, so I slowly got up, slowly opened it and took one last glance at the house, that was my home for eight months, tomorrow is Christmas day and here I was once again, alone and broken, more than I ever was.

I had nowhere to go now, I couldn't possibly go to them I wouldn't want to jeopardize their relationship with him, they were really good friends, friends I thought I could call mine too, the friends I never had; I reached the bus stop and sat there, the streets were empty do to the heavy rain, the cold was starting to get to my bones. I waited for like half an hour before getting up and starting to walk again away from him, my heart, my life, my love, my absolutely all. Yeah, I am blindly in love with him.

After walking for a few hours, my feet were hurt and sore, I was very tired and cold, I found a small hotel I could pay for a few days until I decided what to do, and I needed to do something fast, in a few months I wouldn't be alone, and I couldn't live here or be miserable when the time comes.

I walked into the room, I needed to change and to eat I needed to wash him away from my skin because I couldn't erase him from my memories he practically raped me today, I knew something was off with him today; I slowly took off the wet clothes and open the hot water and as I felt it on me I began to cry, again, remembering everything he said, the way he treated me, the way he looked at me, disgusted, like I worth nothing, like was I less than a dog.

When I got off the shower, and looked at myself into the mirror, everything change so fast, a few hours ago, I was waiting for him, he was on a business trip out of the city, he was arriving today, I was scared because of the storm but he made it before it completely hit us. I was so happy to see him, I was going to tell him what I thought was going to be good news, I prepared something nice for dinner and also prepared myself for him, I wanted to make love with him and stay in his arms all night but he was different, he took me roughly, rougher than before, hurting me but I thought he was just aroused but all he was furious.

My eyes were red, swollen and looked empty, I saw a tear rolling down my cheek, and then another, and another, and there I was crying again, as I replay what happen today, he was so cruel, he reduce me to nothing after I was so whole again. I clean my face, got dressed and ate what I order and went to bed, I wasn't cold anymore, physically cold at least.

I love him so much, in so little time he became that big part of me, the light at the end of the tunnel I needed, I felt complete when I was with him, after being alone for so long, he came and everything was OK, but now, today, tonight, everything went down the drain.

I slowly felt my eyes closing, I needed to rest, and maybe in my dreams I wouldn't feel a thing of what happen today.

Hi, I recently found my inspiration to write again and decided to re upload this story again, starting with a complete different chapter. I hope you guys feel what I wanted to reproduce here. And I also hope you like it, any suggestion, corrections, anything will be welcome as always.

the chapters that were first uploaded will be revise and maybe a few things will change.

and one more thing, the phrase "less than a dog" it's just the typical phrase people use, I have nothing against dogs, I absolutely adore them.

thank you so much for reading my story, i'm hoping to continue with the other ones too, see ya..

LBR