Keeping secrets have always been hard for me. People always seems t o figure them out. This secret I have been keeping, is awful. Most people would have told someone, a parent or a friend, but I can't seem to do it. I feel like people would treat me different if I told them, they would always be trying to make up for every bad thing they ever did to me. I have been keeping this secret for a little over 6 months now, and time for me is coming to a close. I feel like someone should know at this point. Right now the hardest decision is figuring out who I can trust the most. For the last week, I have been trying to figure this out, and I finally have come to a conclusion.
I cleared my afternoon for this, unsure of how the emotions will affect me. The whole elevator ride up seemed to take hours, finally the door opened and I took a deep breath, and started walking. When i got to his office I was relieved that he was alone, at least the team wouldn't have to hear this. I opened his office door and walked in. He looked from the file he was reading.
"Can I help you?", he said in his sarcastic voice. Maybe I should just walk out of here right now, and just forget the idea of telling people. No, I need to tell someone,otherwise I never will.
"I need to talk to you, you're the only person I trust enough to tell." His smile immediately changed to a serious face, he knew this was important.
"What's wrong?" I sat in the chair opposite of him. I don't even know how you tell someone this. I don't think that there is really a right way.
" I don't know how to tell you this House, but you have to keep it a secret.O he nodded in agreement, and I took a deep breath. " I went to the doctor six months ago, and he found something unusual in my blood tests. He checked it out, and um..., he said I have an inoperable tumor in my brain. He said radiation wouldn't be worth it. He said chemo would have almost no effect. He gave me a year to live. You are the only person who knows about this. "I looked up at him. He seemed to be off in some other world, trying to process everything. Finally he seemed to come back.
"I don't know what to say, um... " I know what he mean, he just doesn't know how to process this, either do I. But, I have also been hiding another secret, but this one has been a secret for twenty years.
" I can't imagine spending my last six months with anyone but you." He looked shocked.
"What are you saying?" He knew what I meant,[e]}st|r"bably thought he wouldn't ever hear those words come out of my mouth.
" I love you. I always have" he stared at me. Finally after what seemed like an eternity, he spoke. He came and stood next to me.
"Lisa Cuddy, I would be honored to be with you as long as I can be. I love you. " He leaned down and kissed me. At least for now, I have someone to be with.