A/n: Hey! Please R/R! I've only posted a poem on this site (which I would appreciate if you all r/r) and I've always loved Remus and Sirius, but it's only until I came on this site that I ever considered them as a slash couple. So I decided to write one. Enjoy! Oh, and this is going to be a continuing series…. Marauders' Era… the death of Lily and James…. Modern Era… It would be helpful if you read the other stories. This is the second sequel to "Sirius & Remus – Marauders Era". No, I have not begun to write "Sirius & Remus – the death of James and Lily/Azkaban" yet. It will come soon enough.

Warning: This story will most definitely contain slash! If you're a homophobe and/or just don't like that sort of stuff…. turn back now!

Disclaimers: I do not own characters in this fanfic… all belong to J.K. Rowling and Warner Bros. Except for one… Stacey... she's mine, lol…

Spoilers: Prisoner or Azkaban and Goblet of Fire… would be very helpful if you read those…

Chapter 1

Remus Lupin was sitting in a chair in his house, reading a book. It had been over a year since he resigned from Hogwarts, and he hadn't been able to keep a job for more than a month. The transformations made it very hard for him.

Remus was just reading quietly and peacefully when he heard a hard knock on the door.

He set his book down, and went to get the door. When he opened it, he was shocked when he found a very haunted, tired, and wet looking Sirius.

Obviously he was exhausted from his journey, because as soon as Remus had opened the door, Sirius had fallen - too tired to stand any longer. Remus caught him and dragged him to the couch. Remus was strong, but not strong enough to lift Sirius, even now. He dragged him to the couch and laid him down, trying to make him as comfortable as possible. He got him some blankets and covered him up. Then he went into the kitchen, got a cool washcloth, went back to Sirius, kneeled down next to him, and started to dab his forehead.

When Sirius woke up, Remus was leaning over him, dabbing his forehead, care and concern in his eyes. He's every bit as beautiful as I remember, Sirius thought.

"Remus, I –" Sirius began.

"Sh." Remus said, silencing him. "Don't talk. You're exhausted. Wait until you gain your strength back a little."

"Remus, Dumbledore –" Sirius began again.

"Sh." Remus said, silencing him again. "It doesn't matter why you're here right now. You're in terrible shape. You can tell me why you're here later, when you have your strength back."

Sirius nodded. "Ok."

Remus continued to dab his forehead until Sirius fell into a peaceful slumber.

When he woke up, Remus was not anywhere in sight. He looked for him, and then Remus came down from upstairs. "Sirius!" he said. "You're awake!"

"Yes." he said. "I am."

"Feeling better?"

"Yes." Sirius gulped. "Dumbledore sent me. He told me to lie low here for a while. He said to get in contact with the old crowd, you know –"

"Yeah, I know." Remus said. "Ok. We will do that, I promise, but later. Not now."

"Ok." Sirius was still too tired to argue with him.

"Alright." He said. "Would like something to eat? Or drink? You must be starving."

"Yeah, I am. Food and Drink would be great." He replied.

"Ok. I'll be right back. I don't have much, but I'm sure I have something you can have."

"Right now, I think I'll eat anything," said Sirius. Remus just chuckled at him as he went into the kitchen.

Sirius looked around the living room. Remus sure hasn't changed much, he thought. His house looks the same from the last time I was here. And that was a good many years ago.

Remus returned with a tray full of food and drink in hand. Sirius' eyes bulged and he licked his lips as he imagined how good that food would taste. He rarely got a good meal anymore.

"Here." Remus. "I thought this would satisfy you good enough."

"Yes," Sirius said happily. "It will. Thank you."

"Anytime, Sirius." Remus said.

They sat there in silence for a while, neither one know what to say to the other.

He's just as beautiful as I remember him, Remus thought, if not more. Even with him being so thin, and what all those years in Azkaban have done to him… His heart was beating so fast, he was sure Sirius could hear it. I can't believe, Remus thought, after all these years… I'm still madly in love with him. His heart began to ache with desire. It's not fair. Why should I feel this way? Why can't I not love him anymore? He looked at Sirius. Why can't I not love you, Sirius Black? Why must you torment me so? It's not like Sirius really betrayed his friendship or anything. It wasn't that. It was just that… after all these years Remus realized that he still loved him. Even if Sirius had betrayed Lily and James he would still love him. Remus sighed. Oh, well. He probably doesn't love me anymore. No… I know he doesn't love me anymore. Why should he? All these years apart…all those years in Azkaban… he doesn't. He doesn't.

At the same time, Sirius was thinking along the same lines. I can't believe he's still so beautiful, he thought. I mean, sure, he's lost some weight, and looks a lot older than he should, but… I still think he's the most beautiful thing in the world. He sighed; wishing his heart beat would slow down. After all these years, Sirius though, I'm still head-over-heels in love with him. His heart and body began to ache with desire and heartache. Why didn't I get over you when I spent all those years in Azkaban? He thought. Why? I thought I did. I really did. I thought I got over you. I was wrong, though. Now that I'm near you again and don't have Peter to think about, I realize I'm still in love with you. Why must I continue to love you, Remus Lupin? Why must you always torment me? Why can't I get over you? Why? He sighed heavily, as he finished his food, and looked at Remus. You don't love me anymore, he thought. Why should you? After what you thought I did? You don't love me anymore… but I how I wish you did. But you don't… you don't.

A/n: Well… hope you like it! I know this is very angsty and sad, but it'll heat up, I promise. It's also going to be very fluffy in some parts as well.