Okay guys, so this story is going to take a LONG time… if you go on my website I said that it's going to have at LEAST a thirdquel… at least… So anyways, I'm probably not going to update this a whole lot right now only because I'm in the middle of WNEMS and later AIALBTY, well, I'm posting AIALBTY later so, yeah. You'll see what that one's about later. So again, the general idea is that this is not going to be updated for a while… sorry!... but trust me, it's going to be worth it(: Anyways, let's just get going because I am TOO excited for this story! (:
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Lauren :)
I wheezed silently through my nose as the cold air whipped against my face. I sighed slowly and looked around at the now calm water. No one was moving, no one was yelling… everything was just, silent.
"It's getting quiet." I informed Jack who was shivering in the water in front of me. He hoisted himself up a little bit in an effort to get warmer, but failed, and sank back into the water slowly. He gripped my hand tighter and let out a breath of air. I watched his breath float in the cold air, then turned my attention back towards Jack.
"I don't know about y-you, but, I am g-going to write a str-strongly worded l-letter to the W-White Star Line about all of th-this." He explained to me. I looked down at Jack, my eyes now tearing up, and realized that Jack and I were going to die. I knew there was nothing we could do anymore.
Nothing.
"I love you, Jack." I told him, wanting to make sure he knew how I felt about him before we both left the earth. Jack looked up at me and frowned.
"Don't you do that," he instructed me urgently. "Don't you say your goodbyes. Not yet, do you understand me?" I winced and then scrunched up my face, trying hard not to let go of my life right then and there.
"I'm so cold." I informed him. Jack pleaded with his eyes to keep me going, to stay strong, but he knew only his strong words would do that.
"Listen, Rose," he said, trying hard to keep me awake. "You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on, and you're gonna make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in your bed, not here. Not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?" tears then started to streak my face continuously and I sighed. I strained to listen to Jack's voice, the voice that would forever ring in my ear, but I couldn't. The cold had made everything feel so gone, so distant, so far, so lost, and it felt like I would never get it back.
"I can't feel my body." I told him, trying to explain in those few words that nothing he could say would change the terrible situation we were in.
"W-Winning that ticket, Rose, was the b-best thing that ever ha-happened to me," Jack explained as he gripped my hand tighter and tighter. "It brought me to you, and I'm grateful for that Rose, I'm grateful. You m-must do me this honor. You must p-promise me that you'll s-survive, that you will never give up, no matter h-how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise." I sobbed again quietly and held his hand tighter. I sighed in frustration and smiled at him weakly.
We're going to make it, Rose, I thought to myself. You're both going to make it…
"I promise."
"Come Josephine in my flying machine, going up she goes… up she goes…" I sang quietly to myself as I stared up at the dark sky. The stars twinkled like little lights and it made me smile. Suddenly, a bright light flashed across the sky. I turned my head and it was immediately shown into my eyes. I shut them tight, almost being blinded, then realized what it was…
"Hello," a man called. "Is there anyone alive out there? Can anybody here me?" I smiled, and actually started to laugh to myself, realizing that Jack and I had made it.
We survived.
"Jack," I whispered as I rolled back onto my stomach to face him. "Jack, Jack there's a boat, Jack. Jack, Jack honey wake up, there's a boat." I looked down at him, still smiling, when my smile faded. The rim of his face was covered in ice, and so was his hair. He was a pale color, his lips blue, and I realized no air was coming out of his nose.
He wasn't asleep…
He was…
Dead…
No, I thought. This is not happening. No, no, no! Not Jack, no, please, Jack! Please, Jack!
"Jack," I said again, now shaking his arm feverishly. "Jack, wake up, there's a boat Jack, please! Jack, Jack! Jack, there's a boat Jack!" I turned my head again and watched as the boat started to float away. His voice was muffled now, and I could barely hear him.
"Heelloo! Iiss aannyyoonnee aalliivvee oouutt tthheerree? Ccaann aannyyoonnee hheeaarr mmee?" I started to bawl. Literally bawl. Jack was dead.
Dead.
The only man that I ever cared about… the only person that had truly ever cared about me… was dead.
Dead.
The only man that I ever loved… the only person that had truly ever loved me… was dead.
Dead.
I laid there crying on some wooden board in the middle of the North Atlantic, and everything came rushing back…
The first time I saw him…
The first time I heard his voice…
The first time we touched…
The first time we actually had a conversation…
The first time I saw his artwork…
The first time he shared his experiences with me…
The first time we laughed…
The first time we danced…
The first time I realized I was in love with him…
The first time I saw him try to fight for me…
The first time I thought, Screw this… I love him…
The first time we kissed…
The first time he saw me naked…
The first time he drew me…
The first time we escaped Lovejoy…
The first time we made love…
The first time I confessed to him I wanted to be with him forever…
The first time I ever doubted him…
The first time I let him go…
The first time I realized he was right all along and Cal was just an "unimaginable bastard"…
The first time I apologized to him…
The first time I saved him…
The first time he went crazy because we had no way out…
The first time I looked up at him and realized I couldn't leave him… I couldn't get on the lifeboat… I couldn't do it… because I loved him… more than my own life…
The first time we ran from Cal…
The first time we almost drowned…
The first time I realized the last place we stood together, was the first place we stood together…
The first time I thought I lost him…
The first time… I knew we wouldn't make it…
The first time… I knew he wouldn't make it…
My eyes opened with a flash… and I realized something… I was alive out there, and I could hear him… And I made a promise…
I promised that I was going to get out of here, and that I was going to go on, and I was going to make lots of babies, and that I was going to watch them grow, and that I would survive, and that I would never, ever give up… no matter how hopeless… and that I was going to die an old, old lady, warm in my bed…
I promised.
I turned back to Jack, tears now pouring down my face like a terrible rainstorm, and gulped.
"I'll never let go, Jack," I whispered before I kissed our intertwined hands. "I promise." I then, with all the strength I had left, took his frozen hand off mine. I held it for a long beat before finally let it slip through my shaking hand. I cried loudly as I watched him fall into the ocean, and for a split second, I wanted to grab him and pull him back up, and that if I wished hard enough, he'd open his eyes and we'd make it out of here together.
But deep down…
I knew that wasn't going to happen…
I cried for another minute and immediately climbed off the board, realizing that if I had waited any longer I would have broke down. The water was actually colder than the night air, and I gasped silently for air. My left arm was completely limp, so I feverishly paddle myself over to the dead man with the whistle with my right. My feet were almost limp as well, so only my feet were kicking me towards him. I, in a flustered state, grabbed onto the board and pulled myself up far enough to shakily grab the whistle form the man's mouth. I pushed it into mine and blew with all of my might, all of my strength. Suddenly, the light flashed in my eyes, and I could faintly see the man at the end of the lifeboat smile.
"Come about!" He yelled. I knew that he was coming, that they were going to get me, but I continued to blow anyways, still fazed from previous events.
I survived.
I did it.
I kept my promise.
AHAHA! That's all you get for now! Did you love it, is it fabulous? I think so, lol(: Anyways, please review! I'm SUPRE excited for this story… but, reminder, I probably won't be updating this for a while… but, review and read anyways! (: