Hello everyone... That's all I really know what to put on the authors note if there is anything after this sentence, well that's because I probably typed it up whenever I thought of putting something more in this note, and most likely days later from when I actually typed this... LOLZ I has a question to all my readers out there, if I typed up my stories, the ones that are my characters in it, would you read them? I mean, I was just curious, but since I'm writing the stories, I'd like someone who'd read them. Oh and I was thinking of doing a drawing for this story, whatcha say? Oh and sorry to all my readers that I haven't posted or updated any stories in like forever. So after a long time away, I decided to upload a lot of like no tomorrow. I hope you guys like that though, Oh and I also rewrote this one story I wrote on paper, being stupid, I rewrote it on another piece of paper instead of my iPad which was right next to me. Yeah... I'm weird.
Warning: people might be out of character(I don't really know! When I typed this warning I was still typing the story), damn is mentioned quite a lot in this, there is quite a bit of swearing (a lot), Grell and Ciel actually are friends, Ciel is called Alice through out this story and has been called 'she' and 'her', you might feel sad, *mumbles* if you were a true CielxSebastian fan and had feelings... Ahem, excuse me (LOL)... Um... What else... *Thinking face is on* Ahh! I can't think of anything else!... Oh well. ~^w^~
Disclaimer: I will never in a million years own Kuroshitsuji or alice in wonderland.*this means Grell is in the flashback, this means Druitt is in the flashback*
"Damn it, where did he go! First he runs off, then bloody ignores me while I'm trapped in this damn place," I rambled to myself as I continued to walk through wonderland. "Why is this place so damn big, I will never know!" I yelled through the silence of the I walked my mind wondered to what the Viscount Druitt and Grell asked me when I was trying to find Sebastian.
Flashback~
"But my lady, why chase a rabbit of all things? Its unladylike."
"Because...Well I... It does signify, now stop spinning me!"
"Oh desperately longing for him."
"No I just..."
"I'm curious, out of all the creatures in wonderland, why are you searching for the white rabbit?"
"...He's my butler, I merely want my servant back."
End flashback~
It hit me, the real reason why I wanted to find Sebastian so desperately.
"It's because... I love him," I whispered to myself as I stopped walking. "But the damn demon wouldn't feel the same, seeing as he runs away every time I catch sight of him," I sighed bitterly while I looked at the ground.
Everything was quiet throughout the weird forest for a while before thunder boomed through the air, causing me to flinch from the sudden noise. Looking up into the sky, I saw as grey clouds started to form together while light flashed through the sky. As thunder boomed again, droplets of water started to fall down, hitting me in the face as more water started to fall from the sky. Soon everything was covered with the water while I broke out running, fear written all over my face as the rain started to pour down. I've always been afraid of thunder storms, even when I was little. I used to sleep in my mother's and father's bed with them because I was scared. Now, I'm not scared of thunder storms anymore... I'm now terrified of them. The storms bring back memories from that time, on my tenth birthday and even a couple months after that.
I hate the thunder storms as well, I can't stand remembering the moment when my parents died, the manor burning down, when those despicable men took me, tortured me. Now it's raining hard... I'm still outside. Breathing heavily as I ran, seeing my breath in the air from the sudden cold downpour, the first thing that came into my mind was Sebastian, but I don't know where he is right now. And doubt he'd care seeing as he left me alone in this bloody place!(Okay well maybe not alone because of all the other creatures here, but you get my point) As the lightning flashed brightly through the sky and the thunder booming through the air, I trip over a rock I didn't see in my way.
"Argh!" I said with a thud as I skidded forward on the ground, getting mud all over my clothes and me. "Damn it!" I cursed under my breath as is started to pick myself off the ground only to wince in pain. Looking at my arms, I noticed that I had scrapes on my elbows and upper left arm. "Great... Just what I needed," I said sarcastically to myself as I stood up, just to fall back on my knees in pain. "And on top of that, I twisted my ankle. What's next!?" I shouted and, as if on que, thunder boomed loudly causing me to jump.
Lightning was soon following that as it flashed brightly, lighting everything around me for a moment. I yelped unexpectedly while I scooted backwards until my back was up against a tree. My hands were on my head while my knees were against my chest tightly as I started to shake uncontrollably. Tears that I tried so desperately not to let fall, fell anyways down my face, like the water that landed on my face. Every time that the thunder roars or the lightning flashes, I either jump, whimper slightly, or both, but mostly both.
My eyes were tightly shut as the tears kept falling down with the rain. I was truly pathetic right now and I was glad Sebastian wasn't here to see me his way, I just know he'll never let me live this down. And yet... I wanted him to be here with me, I needed him to be with me right now. He's the only person, demon, I could ever truly trust, and he's the only one I can be comforted by. Becoming more and more soaked by every passing second, the storm rages on like there's no tomorrow.
Soaked, terrified, injured, and bleeding, I wanted nothing more than my faithful butler to be with me. Clenching my hands with my hair between my fingers as the storm raged on, I jumped when I heard a twig snap in the distance along with foot steps hitting the muddy ground coming closer to me. Opening my eyes slightly as I looked up, only to see a dark figure standing over me, with an umbrella, looking down at me.
"Who... Who are-" Flash of lightning interrupted me, causing me to close my eyes again and lower my head again as I continued to shake.
I heard the man sigh lightly before I felt a pair of warm arms wrap around me, lifting me up into his arms, holding me close. He had a familiar feeling to him, like I was safe in his arms no matter what happens. His presence felt a lot like... Like... Sebastian's. Unintentionally, I brought my hands down, clenching his jacket, I pressed myself closer against his chest. I heard a soft chuckle emit from him before he started to walk. Opening my eyes slightly, I looked up to see my butler, Sebastian, carrying me. Glasses were on his face as bunny ears were on top of his head. I closed my eyes again and just breathed in his scent, he smelled of black licorice and a hint of cinnamon. I loved the way he smelled. After about a couple minutes of walking, I soon heard the sound of a door opening and light suddenly shined in my face as Sebastian shut the door.
"Really Alice, what were you doing outside in that storm?" Sebastian asked sighing. Why everyone thinks my name is Alice instead of Ciel is beyond me, but it's a lot stranger when Sebastian calls me that. "Honestly, Alice, you could of gotten sick if you'd stay out there. You're already soaked to the bone," Sebastian said kindly as he placed me gently on the couch before leaving and getting me a change of clothes.
"It's your fault, you know," I retorted. "If you hadn't run off like that, leaving me alone in this damn place, I wouldn't be in this bloody mess."
"Oh but excuse me, Alice, I had to get somewhere and I was already late. How was I supposed to know you wanted my attention," He smirked placing the button up long sleeve t-shirt beside me on the couch.
"Don't be ridiculous!" I shouted as I stood up quickly. "I kept shouting your name but you bloody ignored me, you stupid demon-" I fell down on to my knees as I remembered from intense pain coming from my ankle, I couldn't stand on it. "Damn ankle," I hissed, placing a hand on top of it.
"Alice," Sebastian said kneeling down in front of me as I looked up at him. "Allow me," He said gently before carefully lifting my ankle up and examining it. "I'm afraid you dislocated your ankle."
"Is that all... Wait! Dislocated, I thought I just twisted it!"
"No, you definitely dislocated your ankle," Sebastian sighed before looking into my eyes. "This will hurt, but please bare with me. I'm going to put ankle back in its rightful place," I took a deep breath before I answered.
"Get with it already," I said as harsh as could manage at the moment.
"Yes, young Alice," He said before putting my ankle back in place, which, need I remind you, hurts like hell. "There, I'll go get some ice while you change clothes." He smiled as he got up and walked into the kitchen. Somehow I managed to get changed out of that outfit and into the shirt Sebastian gave me to wear, though it was quite big on me. As Sebastian walked out of the kitchen with a bag of ice, I rolled up the sleeves so my wounds don't dirty the shirt.
"Put this on your ankle, it will help with the swelling," He instructed, handing me the bag as he got the first aid kit out and started to clean my scrapes.
I could already tell that my stay in this place, would be a long one.
It's been almost a week and a half since I met up with Sebastian again and realized that I love him, but I can't help but feel like he doesn't feel the same towards me. I mean, he acts as if we're just close friends and nothing more will come out of it. And sometimes he's so absorbed in his work, of some sort, that it's like I'm not here at all. I feel alone most of the days I've been here. I recently found out that Grell finally got together with William and has given up on Sebastian. But there's this one person I'm concerned about, her name is Hannah, I saw her one day while Sebastian and I were on a walk. She kept looking at him with longing, but I'm not going to hand him over to that bitch without a fight. So here I am, sitting on the couch in Sebastian's house helping Grell pick out an outfit. I swear, every minute I stay in this place, I turn more and more like a girl, but thank god I haven't acted like one.
"So which do you think is better, Alice?" Grell asked holding up the two dresses. "The red with black ruffles or the black with red ruffles?"
"Well... Considering that you love the color red, I'd go with the red dress and heels but don't forget to wear-" I was cut off by a knock on the front door. "I'll get it," I said getting up from my seat and answered the door. "Hello-Ahh!" I opened the door only to have the door slammed in my face as Hannah barged inside.
"Sebastian, let's go on a picnic!" She shouted as her tail swished back and forth, did I mention she was a dog?
"Excuse me," I slammed the door shut. "You just smack me in the fahking face with the door when you barged in uninvited, Hannah."
"Well your face did need a transformation, so you're welcome, Alice."
"Bitch please, Alice's face is just perfect, not a thing wrong with it. On the other hand is yours," Grell said standing behind me.
"Yes, yes, I know already. My face is gorgeous," Hannah bluntly said brushing back one of her bangs.
"Are you kidding me!? Have you looked in the mirror lately!? You're ugly as hell, looks like you need that transformation more desperately than Alice," Grell said laughing as I smiled evilly. "You're just jealous of her beauty."
"As if!" She shouted as Sebastian walked into the room.
"What's going on here? Why are you all yelling?" Sebastian asked.
"It's nothing bassy, just Hannah here slammed the door in Alice's face and then proceeded with insulting her," Grell said calmly, placing a hand on my shoulder.
"Is this true Hannah?" He asked looking at Hannah.
"Don't tell me you believe them? They obviously planned this on me to make me seem mean. I would never do something so cruel," Hannah said in an innocent voice as she looked Sebastian in the eyes. "You have to believe me."
"I'm not going to choose with side I agree with. Hannah I believe you because you're my step-brother's fiancée, but I also believe Alice and Grell because they're my friends."
"But will you go on a picnic with me?" She asked lifting the basket up.
'This is the part where you say no to that bitch, because you don't have time,' I thought to myself. He's always telling me that we can't hang out because he is busy. The only other person that knows about my feelings for Sebastian is Grell, and most likely Will.
"A picnic you say?" Sebastian sighed.
'Say it! Damn it!' My inner voice yelled inside my head.
"Alright," My eyes grew wide with shock as I heard his answer. "Does Claude know you're asking me?"
"Of course he does," Hannah smiled as I hung my head. (Yeah right! XD)
"Where did you have in mind?"
"I was thinking maybe the-"
"I'm going for a walk," I said loudly, interrupting Hannah's sentence. I opened the door and walked outside, slamming the door behind me. Tears brimming my eyes as I started to run away from the house.
"What was that all about?" Sebastian asked as Grell walked up to him.
"What the hell, Sebastian!" Grell said back handing him across the face. You have no idea how she feels! You hardly notice that she's even around and hardly spend time with her. Yet you put everything down and decide to go on a picnic with that witch of a girl. You don't know how much you hurt her by doing that, if you were a true man you'd go after her!" He picked up his stuff and started to leave as well. "And by the way, it's going to rain, bitch."
"No it's not!" Hannah yelled as he left. "Let's go Sebastian," She grabbed his arm only to to yanked out of her grasp. "Sebastian?"
"I'm sorry Hannah, but I'm busy," Sebastian then ran out the door as thunder boomed through the air.
'I am such a fool for thinking that he'll love me in return. I would have been better off not even meeting him, then I wouldn't have to go through this pain.' I ignored the thunder and lightning as I kept running while tears fell uncontrollably down my face. I don't know where I was running, but I don't think I really cared as long as it was away from him.
As Sebastian ran through the woods trying to find Ciel, memories from when he was Ciel's butler came rushing back into his. He remembered everything, from when he first met Ciel to when he had killed the angel. He remembered every time he had master's is master when he was kidnapped, every time held held his master tightly to his body as he cried into his chest from the nightmares that woke him up or the thunder storms scaring him. He remembered that in the years that he had been with the young mast, all the time he has spent with him, he had grown to love the young Earl more a than he ever should. Feeling a deep regret in his heart, he started to run faster towards his master while he screamed his master's name in hopes of finding him.
"Ciel!"
I am so weird, but don't judge me, I tried my best to make this awesome, and YES I KNOW Sebastian is an asshole in this chapter, but we all still love him. Oh Sara, if you are reading this, please review and tell me if you like it. Please review, they are always welcome.
Also! Review if you think Grell was badass in this chapter!