Hello everyone, I normally don't like songfic but this came to me as an inspiration. I wrote this a little differently than most songfics I've read so I hope you enjoy it. If you like this little write go check out my other longer fanfics and don't forget to review:) I now present What's Left of Me. Song- Evanescence my immortal
Katniss POV
Peeta where have you gone?
I'm so tired of being here suppressed by all my childish fears. You have left me physically but emotionally you have stayed. If you have to leave me physically I wish that you would just take your memories with you, because you're presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. How long will it take till I admit that I love you? Your sandy blonde hair dusted with flour, the strong arms that used to protect me. Without you I feel vulnerable.
Your scent of freshly baked bread still firmly remains on your pillow. My tears continually flow staining your pillow. I refuse to leave our bed dwelling on what's left of you. Here I lay where we used to sleep convinced that if I close my eyes hard enough I won't wake up. The same bed where we shared the same nightmares of the games; the dreams that haunted us throughout the nights. When you would cry I would wipe away your tears. When you would scream I would fight away all of your fears. My body stiff and numb from the pain, but I'm afraid that if I should move everything will disappear. District 13 drags me to their hospital dosing me with medication. But they don't know that no amount of medication can erase my memory of you. They are convinced I should forget about you. I will not let them taint my memories of us no matter how painful they are.
These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase. Every time I lay down to rest your face now haunts my tortured dreams. I feel myself slipping into despair everyday I'm not in the comfort of your arms. I remember your voice that once chased away all the insanity in me. People visit time from time giving me the usual.
"I'm sorry for the loss.
He's gone Katniss, move on.
The world needs you...Mockingjay."
What they don't know is I still cling on to the pearl you gave me on that beach. I cling on to my pearl as it were a life.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone, but though you're still with me. Where are you now when I need you the most? What happened to our promise that bound us together? I'm here screaming your name as it's the only word I know anymore. They put me in restraints from hurting myself. I want to end it. Everyone is leaving me. Gale no longer visits me, Prim to afraid, my own mother. I've never felt this way before; everything I do reminds me of you. These days feel like hell without you. Where is my boy with the bread? If you leave me with so much pain because of your absence I wish you would just leave; because you're presence still lingers here. I'm bound here by the life you left behind. I will find you Peeta. A promise is a promise, always and forever.