a.n. : this isn't exactly a fanfic, just random thoughts that are going through my head that I realized would fit Suze's thoughts on Jesse as she was sitting by his bedside at the hospital in Twilight/Heaven Sent. anyway...let me know what you think!
All I Ever Wanted
All I ever wanted since this whole mess started was to fall into his arms and stay there, and have him say, whisper in my ear how much he loves me, how important I am to him...tell me he needed me like I needed him...have him say he was never going to leave me...have him make me feel like I never had to feel fear again.
All I ever wanted to do was to lock him in my own embrace for as long and as tightly as possible...to cry into his shoulder and let out all the pain I kept hidden from him... to tell him I still loved him, and I always will...to let him know he's the only one in my heart...and to tell him how much I missed him.
All I ever wanted was to hold him close and never let go...to feel safe and secure and accpted in the warmth of his love...to drink in every detail of the sight of him, and drown in the depths of the truth in his eyes...to lose myself, even for just a litle while, in the private world he and I shared, where nothing could hurt me and no one else mattered but the two of us.
All I want is to have him here by my side every minute of everyday for the rest of my life. All I'm ever gonna want is to have him stay and never let him leave. All I've ever wanted was to give myself, my heart, my love and my life to him.
All I ever wanted was him.