So, this is my first story here on FanFitction so try to be nice to me and the story!

I've always been irritated by how The Golden Lilly ended, so I wrote this today. Love xx

I do not own the first part or the characters (I wish I did though) only our Queen B Richelle Mead does!

"Why?" he asked. "Because it was the closest I could get to doing this."

He reached out and pulled me to him, one hand on my waist and the other behind my neck. He tipped my head up and lowered his lips to mine. I closed my eyes and melted as whole body was consumed in that kiss. I was nothing. I was everything. Chills ran over my skin, and fire burned inside me. His body pressed closer to mine, and I wrapped my arms around his neck. His lips were warmer and softer than anything I could have ever imagined yet fierce and powerful at the same time. Mine responded hungrily, and I tightened my hold on him. His fingers slid down the back of my neck, tracing its shape, and every place they touched was electric.

But perhaps the best part of all was that I, Sydney Kathrine Sage, guilty of constantly analyzing the world around me, well, I stopped thinking.

And it was glorious.

At least, it was until I started thinking again.

My mind and all its worried and considerations suddenly took over. I pulled away from Adrian, despite my body's protests. I backed up from him, knowing mt eyes were terrified and wide. "What... what are you doing?"

"I don't know," he said with a grin. He took a step towards me. "But I'm pretty sure you were doing it too."

"No. No. Don't get any closer! You can't do that again. Do you understand? We can't ever... we shouldn't have... oh my God. No. Never again. That was wrong." I put my fingers to my lips, and though I would wipe away what just happened, but my mostly I was reminded again of the sweetness and heat of my mouth against mine. I promptly dropped my hand.

"Wrong? I don't know, Sage. Honestly that was the most right thing that's happened to me in a while." Nonetheless, he kept his distance.

I shook my head frantically. "How can you say that? You know how it is! There's no... well, you know. Humans and vampire can't... no. There can't be anything between them. Between us."

"Well, there had to have been at some point," he said, attempting a reasonable tone. "Or there wouldn't be dhampirs today. And what about the Keepers?"

"The keepers?" I nearly laughed, but no part of this was funny. "The Keepers live in caves and wage campfire battle over possum stew. If you want to go live that life, you're more than welcome to. If you want to live in the civilized world with the rest of us, then to not touch me again. And what about Rose? Aren't you madly in love with her?"

Adrian looked way to calm for this situation. "Maybe I was once. But it's been... what, nearly three months? And honestly, I haven't thought much about her in a while. Yeah, I'm still hurt and feel kind of used, but... really she's not the one I'm always thinking about anymore. I don't see her face when I go to sleep. I don't wonder about-"

"No!" I backed up even further. "I don't want to hear this. I'm not going to listen to any more."

With a few swift steps, Adrian stood in front of me again. The wall was only a couple inches behind me, and I had nowhere to go. He made no threatening moves, but he did clasp my hands and hold them to his chest while leaning down to me.

"No, you will listen. For once, you're going to hear something that doesn't fit into your neat, compartmentalized world of order and logic and reason. Because this isn't reasonable. If you're terrified, believe me – this scares the hell out of me too. You asked about Rose? I tried to be a better person for her – but it was to impress her, to get her to want me. But when I'm around you, I want to be better because... well, because it feels right. Because I want to. You make me want to become something greater than myself. I want to excel. You inspire me in every act, every word: you are the most beautiful creature I have ever seen walking on this earth. And you don't even know it. You have no clue how beautiful you are or how brightly you shine."

I knew I should break away, jerk my hands from his. But I couldn't. Not yet. "Adrian-"

"And I know, Sage," he continued, his eyes filled with fire. Fire for me."I know how you feel about us. I'm not stupid, and believe me, I've tried to get you out of my head. But there isn't enough liquor or art or any other distraction in the world to do it. I had to stop going to Wolfe's because it was too hard being that close to you, even if it was all just pretend fighting. I couldn't stand the touching. It was agonizing because it meant something to me – and I knew it meant nothing to you. I kept telling myself to stay away altogether, and then I'd find excuses... like the car... anything to be around you again. Hayden was an asshole, but at least as long you were involved with him I had a reason to keep my distance."

Adrian was still holding my hands, his face eager and panicked and desperate as he spilled his heart before me. My own heart was beating uncontrollably and his eyes filled with fire and his breathing was as heavy as mine. His words had made me realized what I wanted, and deep inside I knew that it was what I've always wanted.

"I don't want you to keep your distance," I breathed and lifted my lips to his.

A part of him must have been surprised, because it took him a second to response to my kiss. But then his grip on my hand loosened and his hands trailed their way up to my cheeks. My hands found his hair and I pulled him even closer to me. My back hit the wall and a deep moan escaped my throat and into his mouth. The sound must have brought him back to reality because he broke the kiss and leaned back. I could still feel his breath against my skin.

"Do you realize what you are doing?" he said while stroking my cheeks with his thumb. I nodded.

"I do. You were right", I breathed "This is the most right thing that's happened in a while. Probably the most right thing that has ever happened in my life. I know that I would be sent away to be re-educated for even thinking what I'm thinking, none the less doing what we just did. Everything I feel about you, about Jill and Eddie, even Angeline is insane and goes against everything I've ever believed in. But it feels right, like this is the place for me. A place filled with warmth and people who actually care for each other, believing in each other. But the best part have been you since the beginning. At first I just felt sorry for you. I know no one are as messed up as you were without a reason, I mean I would know. Still, I cared about you from the beginning. Even tough my fear of you and the others blinded me, I was unable to see my deepest thoughts. But I am never, ever going to regret taking my sisters place for this mission. Because if I hadn't, I wouldn't have met you." His eyes were greener than I've ever seen them. His breathing was as heavy as mine and his hands felt like fire on my skin.

"Good God you're amazing", was the only thing he said before his lips were pressed against mine again. This time we both knew what we were doing and it was more passionate and fiery then before. His hands where on my hips and mine was still pulling his hair. Adrian opened his mouth and traced his tongue over my lips. I parted mine and our tongues fought for dominance. His hand rested just below my butt and without warning he lifted me off the ground and spun around. I wrapped my legs around his waist and slightly bit his lip. My action made him groan and as if it was even possible, I was even more attracted to him. I didn't realize where he was headed to until my back hit his bed and the silk in his sheets tickled my neck. I broke away for him in lack of oxygen and his lips trailed down my neck. He was everywhere, on my lips, on my neck, on my arms. All I could feel was Adrian, and I never wanted to stop. So this is what love feels like, a little voice in my mind said.

"Oh good God", I moaned when his tongue circulated around certain a spot behind my ear and I felt him smile against my skin. He trailed his kisses down my collarbone and up my cheekbone before our lips connected again. My hands were now at the hem of his shirt and I could not resist the need to touch his well defined chest, but his shirt was in the way. I collected the fabric in my hands and tossed it over his head and out in the room. His lips where on my collarbone again and seemed to be irritated with my shirt, because seconds later it was on the floor. His lips kissed their way to the top of my breasts and the tickling, yet erotic feeling made me buckle my back and pressing my chest against his mouth.

"Sydney. Sydney wait", he said, pulling away from me.

"What? Did I do something wrong?" I asked nervously, suddenly feeling embarrassed and urged to cover myself.

"No no no, you're perfect. I'm just not sure if I will be able to hold back if we go any further. I don't want you to have any regrets later on. We'll have time for everything we want later, no rush", he said looking into my eyes with the most piercing look I've ever seen in a mans eyes.

"I want this. I want you." I said without hesitation.

Next part will be up this week I think, but it's 2.40 AM here and I'm getting up at 9, so I should sleep. Review please!

Updated: 24 February 2014