Twilight New Moon... Edward's POV Chapter 1:
I do not own Twilight. I will be using lines from the New Moon Movie Dialogue. All credit goes to the writer of the storied Stephenie Meyer, and to the Movie script writers. I will also be adding some details of my own that was not in the book or in the movie. Enjoy :)
EPOV
It was reaching 6:00 now, it was time for me to meet up with my Bella at school. Oh how I loved the mornings. Especially this morning. Today was Bella's birthday, and Alice was already making a party for her today. I had Alice do a morning update for me, and she said Bella was annoyed because her mom, and dad got her presents. I chuckled. "Alice you know Bella hates parties." I said. "So don't be surprised if she is kinda sarcastic."
"Oh Well... We are having a party for her anyways." I looked at Carlisle, but he just said. All I could do was shake my head. I knew Bella would put on a brave face for Alice, but inside she would cry because it wouldn't be a regular day. No day was ever a regular day when her and I were together, but he insisted that everyday was normal, just heightened by my presence. My Bella's birthday was definitely a day to celebrate, but she would fight me on that every chance she got.
"Let Alice go ahead with her plan. I mean I am sure Bella can last one party." Carlisle said, defending Alice. She smiled in her triumph as I just glared at her. I wanted to make my Bella happy on her birthday, not upset her... but we all knew, no one could be upset with Alice for long.
"I wish Bella would let me give her a gift."
"What do you mean Edward?" Carlisle, and Esmé asked.
"She says that she doesn't need presents from me, because me being with her is enough." Esmé smirked.
"Well I think that's sweet." Esmé chimed.
"I guess."
"Edward. Bella only wants you. She doesn't want anything else not even anything that you are willing to give her." Esmé reasoned with me. I nodded my head and got in my car. I wanted to go alone. I pulled in a bit after Bella got there. Shocking. I saw Bella talking to Angela, Mike, Eric, and Jessica. She took three pictures of them. I could over hear her say something.
"Hey can I take a couple of pictures. My mom wants me to put together this scrapbook full of memories."
"Oh yeah sure!" Mike said. Then I jumped out of my car and I saw that her friends could see me so I put my finger up to my lips, so that I could scare her. I instantly wrapped my arms around her and she jumped. She turned her head and we kissed each other.
"Bella why don't you get in the picture with your friends. I will take some."
"Ok." Bella got in between Angela and Eric. So that didn't make me feel so weird since he was with Angela. Then Angela skipped over to me.
"You get in some with Bella lots of different poses. Love. Come on." Mike watched intently as I wrapped my arms around her waist and put my chin on her shoulder. "Good. Good. Good." I could swear that Angela took pictures of us all together in different poses. One, Love. Two, Group. Three, Bella, Me, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmet. Four, five, Six, Bella with each friend. (Four, Bella with Mike and Jess) (Five, Bella with Eric and Angela.) (Six, Bella with Jess, and Angela.) Then Bella took her camera back. I kissed Bella, and I heard her friend Jacob's thoughts.
"Bella some one is behind us that wants to talk to you." She turned around.
"Jacob. Hi. Did you just ditch school?"
"No I am just getting a part for the rabbit. You should really come take a ride when it is done."
"Is it fast?" She asked.
"It is decent." And Jacob broke into laughter.
"I am just kidding." Bella admitted.
"Ok, good." Laughing still. Then that got me thinking. Could this human boy Jacob be better for her than me? "Hey happy birthday. Your dad told mine so. I found this. And I thought of you. It's a dream catcher. It catches bad dreams."
"Thanks. That is actually really perfect right now. Well I gotta get to class, so I... I'll see ya later." Bella and Jacob hugged really fast and we started walking to English when Alice bombarded us in front of the school.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Alice said cheerfully.
"Shhhhh..." Bella hushed her quickly enough to where no body heard her.
"Here." Bella sighed.
"Alice I said no presents."
"But I already seen you open it and guess what you love it. You're gonna wear it tonight. Our place."
"Alright."
"Eeee! Perfect. Ok see you at seven. Come on Jazz." Then Bella looked at Jasper.
"Jasper that was not fair with the mood control thing." He just smirked at her.
"Sorry. Happy... Never Mind." After that Bella and I were discussing Victoria, and what I was thinking during the entire time of saving her. Then I waited down stairs for Bella to get ready. She came down in the dress that Alice gave her that I haven't even seen. It was forest green and had black embroidered flowers on it, and wore a see threw black over jacket, with sneakers, and a bracelet that her mom had given her. She looked so beautiful. Charlie took Bella's camera and took pictures of us, and I took a picture of Bella and Charlie. I took Bella's hand and led her to my car. There were lights around the front trees of the drive. I chuckled when Bella rolled her eyes. We got in the house and Bella yelled at me.
"DON'T LET BELLA IN YET! IT IS NOT FINISHED YET!" I ran Bella upstairs to hide her. Bella suddenly found interest in a painting in the upstairs. It had the Volturi on it.
"Who are they?" She asked still in my arms. I leaned my head sown to kiss her and set her down. Kissing her was so difficult because she of course was not a vampire, so I had to hold back... A LOT.
"That's the Volturi. The Volturi are a very old, very powerful family. I guess their the closest thing to royalty my world has." Bella's eyes narrowed. "What?"
"Is that Carlisle?" She pointed to a spot on the painting where Carlisle was standing.
"Yeah. He lived with them for a few decades. Described them as very refined, no respect for human life of course. Except for the sciences. They don't really bother you if you follow the rules." Bella looked at me confused.
"Vampires have rules?"
"Not very many. Consisting of a rule that is we don't make spectacles of ourselves, and that we don't hunt conspicuously. Unless of course you would like to die."
"Edward. You need to stop talking about that. I couldn't even imagine anyone hurting you like that." I looked at her.
"Bella... the only one that can hurt me is you."
"That is not true."
"Victoria will come for me one day, and Alice will see when she decides that."
"Edward I could help protect you if you change me." I noticed that she was still begging for me to change her.
"Bella,... you already do protect me, love. You're my only reason... to stay alive if that's what I am. But it is my job to protect you. From everyone except my sister." I smiled at her and Alice came running in the room pulling gently on Bella's arm. There was a big cake, a present from each of us, except me of course. As Esmé hugged Bella Alice took a picture and Bella looked a little irritated, so Alice pulled my arm next to Bella and took a picture. I went back to the stairs for a moment, and of course Emmet had to make a joke.
"Dating an old woman, HOT!" I scoffed. Esmé and Carlisle gave Bella their gift, and damn. Bella got a paper cut and Jasper was about to attack. I pushed Bella behind me and she hit the desk to hard. Dammit. I feel bad. I pushed Jasper the other direction causing him to break two columns in the room. Carlisle ran to Bella and grabbed her arm instantly.
"Edward. Go talk to Jasper." I didn't move. "Edward." I turned around towards Jaspers direction. I didn't want to leave Bella, but Carlisle gave me no choice. I entered the room where Jasper was. I looked at him, shook my head and walked outside. Jasper came out ten minutes later.
"Edward. I am so sorry."
"You couldn't control your thirst just once?" I asked calmly. His face turned sad. "Bella is hurt now. I know it wasn't your fault, but now I am realizing something."
"You think it is not meant to be?" Jasper accused. I nodded my head. "But you love her so, I can feel it."
"I love her too much. That's the problem. She is only human, and she does not belong in my world."
"Edward. You two are meant for each other."
"I know, and that is why I must put an end to this before she gets hurt again." Jasper shook his head.
"I know that I am stable yet, but that shouldn't mean that you can't be with the one you love Edward."
"He is right." Emmet said.
"Emmet I can't let Bella live in a world where opportunities are taken away from her. She could life forever, she could have children with someone who can give her all of those things. I can't and I regret making her go threw a love that will break her heart, but I must give her a chance at a normal human life." Jasper and Emmet looked at me confused. Alice looked at me.
"Edward, Bella loves you too much to just let you go. She won't be able to move on. You know that."
"I know, but I still need to give her a chance." Alice looked at me.
"Edward don't do this to her. You will hurt her so much." I looked down to my feet. I looked toward's Carlisle's window.
"I am sorry Bella, but you need to have a chance at a normal life." I thought to myself. I took Bella in my arms and carried her to her car to drive her home. Bella kept trying to reason with me about me changing her.
It was a little after ten, the cold night air was blowing in the windows, making Bella's hair flow in a graceful dance. I was driving her truck, with despair in my heart as I drove closer to her home, which now she had lived in for about a year. It was a quiet drive, neither of us saying much.
The memory of Jasper's thirst getting the best of him, crept into my mind every chance it got. Still haunting me. I didn't want to leave her, but... it was probably the best solution. I would leave, and fade, as if I never existed. I knew this would probably hurt her at first, but would probably be better for her in the end. She could have a whole new future, get married to a human, have children, grow old... but did I really have the strength to leave?
I knew I would if I had to. If it was what was best for her. But... until it comes to leaving her, I would try to put on a brave face... but I wasn't doing so well at it at the moment.
Slowly, the sounds of the world around me began to make their way into my mind again, It was still merely dark and the only sound that could be heard is that of the air blowing into the windows, Bella's beautiful heart beat, her steady breathing, and my -by habit- breathing even though I didn't need the air. Bella then began a conversation with me, breaking the silence.
"At some point something is going to separate us illness, old age. As long as I am human... The only solution is to change me." I was getting frustrated with her constant pleading to become a monster like me.
"That is not a solution! That would be a tragedy."
"Edward... you're not going to want me when I look like a grandma." What the hell Bella? I can't believe that she is telling me this. She is the most beautiful person ever. I flew out of the car, and came around to her door. I opened the door in frustration.
"Bella, do you understand my feelings for you at all?" I asked sternly. Bella looks ashamed.
"If it is my soul your worried about, don't worry about me."
"You should get inside." She really looked ashamed. She nodded her head and looked at me.
"Well... it is still my birthday, so can I ask one thing?... Kiss me?" I gave in immediately. I felt like an idiot, but I could find a way to do this. How to lie to her that I don't love her when I really do. How will I be able to leave and never come back knowing that I loved her. This would be our last kiss. I took as much out of it as I could. I held her face to mine, and kissed her wildly. I moved her from me since she couldn't breathe after a long time. "I love you."
"I love you." I let go of her and walked away into the darkness.
I didn't want to go to the school the next day. Instead I kinda snooped around Bella's room, and found her portfolio, and saw that the picture of me and her that Alice took was folded in half. I took it out, and unfolded it. I knew what I needed to do. I took the CD I gave her, the photos, everything that could bring us back into her memory and put it under the floor boards. I went home after that. "Carlisle I need to speak with you."
"Yes son?"
"I need to leave. All of us do." He looked at me confused.
"Why?"
"Because Bella needs to forget about me. I know what I need to do and she deserves to have a normal happy, human life. If I stay with her I came making her give up things for me. She could have a chance to have children, to be married with a man who won't get thirst for blood. She won't have to say good-bye to her family... there is so much that she would be giving up by staying with me."
"But Edward. Bella loves you dearly."
"Carlisle. Please. I feel this is the right thing to do at the moment, even if I might be having an inner battle with myself, I know that this is what is best. Now I need to go over to Bella's to tell her good-bye." Carlisle looked hesitant, but just nodded his head. I left for Bella's again, I managed to get there just as Bella pulled in.
"Hi." She said as she got out of her truck.
"Just come take a walk with me." I motioned for her to follow me, and I could see in her eyes that she knew something was not right. Bella and I got deep into the forest, but close enough to where Bella would find her way back. "We got to leave forks." She looked at me with her confused, chocolate-brown eyes.
"Why?"
"Carlisle's supposed to be ten years older than he looks,... and people are starting to notice." Bella breathed in deeply.
"Ok, I've gotta think of something to say to Charlie. When you say we..." It hurt me so much on the inside to say this.
"I mean my family and myself." I tried to make little eye contact, so I wouldn't turn right around. She looked like she was gonna cry.
"Edward,.. what happened with Jasper... it was nothing."
"You're right... It was nothing. Nothing but what I always expected, and nothing..." I had to breathe to control my voice, so she would think I was telling the truth. "compared to what could have happened... You just don't belong in my world, Bella." I could see it she was gonna cry. I couldn't bare it, so I looked down.
"I belong with you." I took another calming breath.
"No, you don't." She was protesting. I knew this would happen, but I knew what needed to be done to give her a human life, even if it hurt me to hurt her this way.
"I'm coming." I had to make myself sound really stern this time. I didn't like doing this to her.
"Bella, I don't want you to come!" Oh, no. Edward. Do what you know it right. OH GOD, BELLA'S GONNA CRY! These thoughts in my head hurt.
She said this in the saddest way ever. "You don't want me?" I could hear the tears coming.
"No." My voice trembled.
"That changes things..." Tears started to form in her eyes. "A lot." Her breath was trembling. I wanted to rush to her and soothe her, but this was what needed to be done.
"But if it not too much to ask." I paused. "Can you... just promise me something?" I asked. "Don't do anything reckless. For Charlie's sake. And I'll promise something to you in return. This is the last time you'll ever see me. I won't come back, and you can go on with your life without any interference from me. It will be like I never existed, I promise." I could see she was going to cry. Bella please don't cry. Please. Please. Your making this harder on yourself. Come on, Bella, Love, Please.
"If this is about my soul, take it. I don't want it without you!
"It is not about your soul Bella. You're just not good for me." I hissed.
"Not good enough for you." She snapped back. I felt so terrible.
"I am just sorry I let this go on for so long." Bella was beginning to sob. Please Bella. My thoughts wouldn't stop, but I didn't want them to either.
"Please... Don't leave me.
"Goodbye." Bella began crying instantly. I walked up to her, and kissed her head once, and with a flash I was back at the house. I could hear Bella crying my name over and over. I wanted to turn around, but I forced myself to keep running. I got in to the house, and Esmé tried to greet me, but I just flew into my room, and locked the door, and packed a suit case, and a reasonable about of money.
"Edward are you alright? Is Bella alright?" Carlisle asked.
"I am leaving." Esmé looked at me worried.
"What?" Carlisle asked.
"I want to be alone. I will call in every once in a while." Esmé looked sad to. "I am sorry mom, dad, guys, but I can't stay here another minute. I think I already have broken a heart bad enough today, so goodbye to you all to." I flew out the door, and ran to port Angeles' airport.
"Hello sir, welcome to Port Angeles airport. Can I help you?"
"I need a ticket to Paris, France. School." The man nodded his head once and handed me a ticket. Right after I bought the ticket Carlisle, and Esmé were behind me.
"Edward you don't need to be all by yourself." Esmé reasoned, I didn't want to make a scene, and I wanted to leave as soon as possible, as not to hurt my family either.
"I'm sorry, my ticket is already in my hand. I need some time alone to think." Esmé got sad.
"Ok, then take as long as you need, but please do call us. Here." Esmé handed me a phone.
"Thanks. I can not tell you a certain time, or day that I will call." They nodded their heads.
"Can you at least tell us where you are going?" Esmé asked. I shook my head, and hugged her tightly.
Boarding all gate 9 passengers. "I must go. Goodbye."
After I got to Paris I got a motel room, and stayed there for over half a year. I was life less. Totally still. I didn't remember anything besides Think, hunt, think, hunt, think, hunt. Then in January I had a strange out-of-body experience.