Author's Note:Okay, so I said I wasn't going to start another story up until another one was finished, but this one is sticking with me. I'll start off by saying that so far this season, the town of Stars Hollow has made me feel depressed. Well, not everyone-mainly the whole Luke/Lorelai/...Christopher angle. I'm sorry to anyone who likes him, but he really does get under my skin. What is it with my girls (aka Lorelai, and Meredith (from Grey's Anatomy)) falling for the obviously overly sweet overly...annoying(okay, so Finn (again, from Grey's Anatomy)) was kind of cute but anyway, I ramble...
Basically, this story is set later on this season. Unfortunately, and for the story's purposes, Lorleai remained with Christopher. Although (and I won't go too far into detail)-None of the spoilers down that road will be used. They're engaged (for now...don't throw things at me). Rory comes home as much as she can, but Logan's still in London (The whole Rogan thing will be featured, but this story doesn't center around them. It's more of a Lorelai-centric story, with Luke of course as well).
Anyway, I guess the rest will explain itself, but I'm not sure as to how long this will be. I haven't seem every episode, being as I started watching a few seasons back. With that said, if you have any ideas at all, I'll gladly accept. Thanks. With that said, Read and Review, please!
Disclaimer:I am in no way affiliated with the show Gilmore Girls (If I were, things would be way different.)So-please don't sue.
Lorelai sat on the front steps, finding herself lost in her thoughts. She stared up at the night sky, wondering how it was that things came to this. She thought back to what had happened just hours before, on that same porch:
"I'm sorry,Chris.I just...I can't."Lorelai said, watching the expression on his face.
"What are you saying, Lor?You don't want to marry me?...I thought-"
"I know.I know.It's just-Rory...The Inn...I just-"
"So you're backin down?After this long?"Christopher asked. They had been engaged for several weeks, as he had proposed on their trip to Paris. "If you didn't want to marry me, couldn't you have said so?"
Lorelai watched him, watched the look in his eye. It hurt to know that this was hurting him, but at the same time, she knew it was what she had to do. "It's not that I don't want to marry you.It's just too soon."
"Too soon?"Christopher asked, before realizing what Lorelai had meant. Smiling, he let out a laugh and turned towards the street. "Too soon.You're still not over him, are you?Even after he hurt you?"
"That's not what I meant, Chris.I just think that things are moving fast...too fast. Like-a car going down the highway fast.And that's just-"
"I get it, Lor, I get it. But can you atleast keep the ring?You don't have to wear it.But Lorelai?...This doesn't change anything for me-"
"It does for me, okay?Don't call...Don't...write.I just-I need some time."Lorelai said before running inside.
"Mom?"
Lorelai turned towards the door to find Rory standing in it, looking half asleep in her pajamas. She had come home for the weekend, but it became clear to her by the look on her mother's face that maybe the visit would have to be longer.
"You okay?"She asked, sitting on the step next to her.
"I...broke it off with your father."She said, staring down at her ringless hand. She had made the decision to let Christopher keep the ring, so she didn't have a reminder.
Rory, nursing a cup of coffee pretended to look surprised. "You did?...May I ask why?"
"Because.Because of Me...Because of You.Because of-"
"Because of Luke?Mom, don't use me as an excuse here. I mean, sure, I am your daughter which means that you have a certain right but..."Rory let her sentence dangle. "It's Luke, isn't it?"
Lorelai felt tears-stubborn tears-filter into her eyes. "I don't know.I don't know what i'm supposed to feel. In the past year I've been engaged to two men and broke it off with the both of them.What does that make me?"
Rory took a sip from her coffee, thinking about how to answer. "It just means you have trouble staying in one place. You're not a bad person."
"I didn't say that.I just-"For the first time since Rory came outside, Lorelai looked at her. "There's coffee and you didn't tell me?"
Rory could tell that she was trying to change the subject, but decided to play along none the less. "I just made some.I couldn't sleep, and Logan said he would call so I figured it would keep me awake."
"How is Logan, anyway?"
"I haven't heard from him in a while. I got a letter a week ago, but it was kind of bare. But he ended it with 'I love you, I'll be back to visit again soon'. That's good, isn't it?"
Lorelai sighed. "Yeah.I really want some coffee.Is there any left?"
"Despite your desperate attempt to change the subject...yes."Rory said, standing up. She went into the house and quickly returned with a cup for her.
"Mmm...''Lorelai said, breathing in the aroma. "Soo..."
"So...Luke...Christopher...What are you going to do?"
"I have no idea.Are you sure this doesn't make you uncomfortable?"
"It's fine.I'm more worried about you."Rory replied.
"Me?Worried about me?..."Lorelai laughed, trying desperately to hide the fact that clearly, she wasn't her normal self.
"Mom?"
"I don't know.Okay?...I just don't know. It didn't feel right, so I broke it off. He-Christopher...he asked me why I said yes in the first place."
"And you said..."
"I just said that I didn't know.That it was too soon."Lorelai replied, taking a sip from her coffee. Rory watched her mother, watched the expression on her face and wondered what she could be thinking.
"Too soon?"Rory said. "Too soon as in-"
Lorelai coughed, signaling she wished to speak. "Too soon as in Luke soon...too soon as in too fast soon. Too soon as in every other way possible. He was smothering me. Luke never smothered me. Luke gave me space to think-which yes, at times wasn't what I wanted but...but he's Luke. It's what he does."
The wind picked up a little, sending a soft rustle through the trees. Lorelai found herself distracted, not knowing what to do. What was someone supposed to do in her situation? She broke off her engagement because she wasn't sure, and yet she wasn't sure about the reason why she did it. The truth was-she knew why, but she had trouble admitting it to herself.
"What do I do?"She asked Rory after several minutes of silence.
"I think you should decide."
Lorelai snorted, jostling the coffee in her hand. "Well, that's the best I ever heard."
"Thank you."Rory replied, hoping it would cheer Lorelai up. "I do my best."
"I was being sarcastic."
"I know.But you love me...so...you can thank me."
Lorelai frowned. "For what?"
Rory sat up on the step, locking eyes with Lorelai. "For telling you what I think you should do. I came to visit...but after I'm gone again, these help sessions with be confined to five minute phone calls and criptic IMs late at night. I need to know that you can handle this before I leave."
"Did I ever tell you how smart you are?"Lorelai asked, feeling a smile grow on her face.
"You might have.But you can tell me again if you'd like."
Lorelai put an arm around her daughter, resting her head on her shoulder. Closing her eyes, she sighed. "I think there's something I have to do."
"Oh?"
She lifted her head, staring out at the driveway where, just weeks before, she had broken Luke's heart. She felt the guilt, mixed with a pang of heartache ring through her. "I have to talk to him."
"Him?Him who?''
"I have to talk to him."She said, turning to go inside and grab her shoes. Rory quickly followed suit.
"Whoever this him is-he better be a night owl.It's eleven thirty at night, and um...most people are asleep."
Lorelai, knowing it was chilly, decided to slip on a coat. "I have to do this. I'm going to do this."
Rory nodded, finally understanding where her mother was going. "Are you sure?"
"I'm sure.I just-it's eleven thirty at night, and I'm making a trip to say hi.Is that okay?"Lorelai said, a pout visible on her face.
"I'm sure that if he hears what you say, it'll be okay."
"What I'll say...I-I haven't even thought about what I'll say.Rory, what do I say?I mean, I'm not asking you because I think you've been in this position. I'm saying it because I am literally making a trip at almost midnight to have a talk to someone. To have a talk with someone that I haven't exactly talked to in a while-and all I have to say is 'hi' ?"
Rory had her phone in her pocket, and just as Lorelai finished speaking, it began to ring. Staring at her mother, then at the phone that was now in her hand she sighed.
"You should get that...it's probably Logan."
"It is."She said, kissing Lorelai on the cheek. "Good luck."
Heading to the door, Lorelai nodded her head to say thank you. "'Cause God knows I'll need it."
So that's the first chapter. Short, I know. But the next one will be longer, this one is sort of a prologue. I wanted this sort of talk to happen between Lorelai and Rory, and I think it worked. As for the whole Logan calling thing, it was the boost Lorelai needed to actually make it out the door. Yes, she's headed to Luke's and yeah, it's supposed to be eleven something at night. It just seems like a very Lorelai thing to do. Anyway, let me know what you think, it's my first stab at writing a GG fic, so I wasn't sure how it's turn out. As always, if you have any ideas as to people you'd like to see, or things you want to see happen, let me know.
Thanks for reading!'