DISCLAIMER/ I DO NOT OWN VICTORIOUS OR IT'S CHARACTERS.

Darkness everywhere. I Jade Freaking West are surrounded by darkness. My childhood wasn't all sunshine and rainbows like my friends, No I had a tough childhood. My dad only cared about my brother since he is the man, he is the one that will hold the West's name and be the CEO of the company after my dad. And why can't I be? Well that's an easy question. The answer is , Drum roll please… I am a worthless piece of shit just like my mother. Yeah that's what my dear old dad always tells me since I was just a little kid. I don't know what have I ever done to him but apparently I did something really bad to make him act that way towards me. Oh no wait a minute IT WASN"T ME, IT WAS MY FUCKING ALCHOHOLIC MOTHER. She used to drink alot and sleep around when she was still married to dad. One day I came home and she was lying on the floor, I thought that she has passed out, I was pretty much used to it. I went to my room and left her there, I was 8 years old at the time. When Jason my brother who was 15 back then came home, he discovered that she wasn't passed out but in fact dead.

I know kids should cry and feel bad when their mothers die but I didn't feel that way toward her. In fact all I felt for her was resentment. She is the reason why my dad hates me, she was never there when I needed her and one time she showed up at school to pick me up and she was totally wasted and made a fool out of herself. The kids started to make fun of me because of her and that's how I met Cat. She stood up for me. Ofcourse all of you are thinking how in the world would Cat stand up for me and why would I even need her to stand up for me. I am Jade Fucking West. I am the Ice Queen. But that's now, back then I was just a kid. I was actually a shy kid and I needed Cat. Yes Cat might be ditzy but the truth is she is super smart and super protective of her friends and she is my bestfriend.

You are probably wondering how did I become the Ice Queen who is everyone afraid of. Well lucky for you I am going to answer that question. When Jason turned 16 he wanted to go to an elite boarding school, I don't remember its name. I was 9 at the time. So it was just me and dad which sucked, because as you know he hates me and the only person who cared about me was Jason. He always asked how am I? and when I am sick he is the one who takes care of me but then he left to stay at some STUPID FUCKING SCHOOL. And beginning from there that's how the Ice Queen begun to exist. I found solace in horror movies and novels away from my father. I started to stand up for myself and beat people and threaten them with scissors. The next thing I know I was being feared by everyone and started hating everyone. Well except for Cat ofcourse.

When we were 14 Cat befriended two boys Andre and Robbie. It took some time but they grew on me and we became a group. We were always together at lunch, always hanging out going to the movies and such and also having each other backs. The same year Beck came and asked me out. Ofcourse I said no, he thought every girl at school were drooling over him but well except for me and Cat. Me because well, he is not really my type and Cat because she likes Robbie but she doesn't want to break his heart because she has fear of commitment.

Fast forward two years from now, Beck and I are dating but it's more like fake dating. We are each other beards and yeah Beck is gay. Believe me it was a shock for me too. We had a deal if one of us find his/her significant other we will break up but for the past 2 years no one really caught our eyes well for Beck someone did but he is straight or atleast that what we think. I mean Andre every week is with a different girl so he might be in the closet. But Beck doesn't want to take any chances. He doesn't want to lose his bestfriend.

One day I was walking through the door of Sikowitz class, and I find this chick rubbing on my boyfriend. Yes he is not my real boyfriend but we had a deal that I will keep the girls away from him by acting like a really crazy jealous girlfriend. I mean I will definitely be a jealous girlfriend if it was real but with Beck I don't get jealous. So anyway, I walked up to them and said "Dude, why are you rubbing on my boyfriend" while sending her a glare. When she looked at me with her wide coffee eyes. My face softened. It's like she put me under a spell or something and then she stuttered " I-I spilled coffee on him so I was just trying to get it off but apparently I only made it worse. I'm so so sorry I will totally buy you a new one" " Chill no need at all" Beck said. I just kept staring at her. No one ever made me feel this way. And now I felt like I need to know this girl.

Two weeks after Tori's first day, we became close really fast. I have never trusted someone that easily but deep down I knew that she is totally worth it. I saw darkness everywhere but when she entered my life the darkness started to go away and now I can see some of her sunshine. With her I am not scared of being happy. I feel safe. I told her about my family, about my father, mother and brother. She didn't judge if anything she said something that made my heart double flip in my chest " All of that is in the past. I know I wasn't there back then but now I am in your life and I care about you alot and I will never leave you. You Miss Jade West are stuck with me for the rest of your life" at this moment I knew that I want her to be mine for the rest of my life.

A month has passed and still I haven't told her that I am gay and that I like her. I am not scared of anything. So why am I scared now? I mean Tori is the sweetest thing ever and she will definitely not make fun of me but I am afraid of the rejection.

Sometimes I get angry at her, she thinks it's for no reason but I get angry because she flirts with people that are not me. There was that guy called Ryder he asked her out and she said yes but it turned out that he was using her to get a good grade so I smashed his car windows and set the tires on fire. No one messes with my Tori.

After 5 months , I have decided that it's time to tell her and that's what I did. When I told her that I am gay she was totally cool about it but when I told her that I have liked her since I saw her and that it kills me to see her with anyone else. She stood there shocked and to be honest I freaked out so I ran out of her house, got into my car and just drove around. She kept calling me but I was too scared to answer. After that I parked my car near a park and got out and sat on one of the swings to think.

Few hours later still freaking out on the swing , I have decided to call her back so that's what I did. After two rings she answered with one sentence and then she hung up leaving me shocked just the same way as I left her but at the same time smiling like an idiot. The sentence was " I have liked you since I saw you too"