title: devil inside.

This is my story. My life. I'm the one who should tell. I'm mai taniyama, bride should be to kazuya shibuya.

rated: T

pairing: kazuyaxmai/naruxmai

Leigh-miyazono: Hello dear readers. loving fan of maixnaru pairing. :)) hope you enjoy reading this story. :)

disclaimer: I do not own ghost hunt. :)

Chapter 1- pain

Mai's POV

I am standing in this white vast open space, No other life is present. I feel at ease. I feel contented here, it's such a nice feeling. This place made me think of all the things I did in my life, is this a dream? This is the first time, I ever had a dream as peaceful as this.

I am Mai taniyama.. I was clumsy, fun loving. hell. yeah. I thought I was never the serious type. Never clever... like he is. My Naru.. My Kazuya...
well. It started as an attraction, I'd never thought I'll fall in love. It never started good. It was a one-sided love. He was unique and extraordinary in every way, in every aspect. He is cold, He is handsome. He's smart. I sometimes wonder if... he was capable of falling in love with another person. not just his job. sometimes he smiles, I'm lucky to catch a glimpse of it, I always wish it was only for me. Selfish it may seem.

I sometimes wonder if it was only for me. I am his assistant. we go on in different cases, dangerous and difficult it may seem, how scary it is I fear nothing, because I am with him, with SPR. I can overcome anything.

He went away. went back in England. He left me with confused feelings and I nearly got crazy. I'm left with this uneasiness. left with If's, buts, what if's. I was so sure that he's the one I love... when he asked me.. I never understood myself for not answering him. for not answering him right away that one question I would've known the answer. He's the one I love. I fall in love with his cold attitude. his tea addiction, his cool personality, his cleverness. his rare smiles. everything. everything about him I came to fall in love.

Then he came back. after 3 long years.

I was not the mai he used to know, at least the physical appearance. I know to myself that I change, I become someone who's smart, a med student. but one thing didn't change in those times... I love him.. I still love him. He came back. He went to my apartment, we talked about the good times, the things we did after he came to england. I was shocked he proposed to me. I cried hard...

but then why? Why do I have this feeling, that I should give him up? I don't understand.

should I give him up?

my love.

should I give up and leave you?

should I?

I hate to see you cry.

why do we have to be like this?

why do we have to go through something like this. are we really not meant to be together?

...

what exactly?

"mai!"

'naru?'

'no mai'

"gene!"

"is that you gene?"

"open your eyes mai"

'it was gene. I know he is. But... I am confused. Why is gene? Why is he telling me to open my eyes? I already am.

"gene, where are you? I can't see in here, I'm awake. What are you talking about?" I looked everywhere for the sign that gene's here but he is no where to be found.

"mai, I want you to follow my voice."

"but gene, I heard you on all direction. Where should I go."

"follow your instincts mai, you need to wake up from this dream you are having from your dream here with me"

"what do you mean?!" I was practically on a verge of panicking, I don't understand why is gene sounding very worried, and what does he mean that I am having another dream from my dream?

"mai, concentrate"

I focused every part of me into finding an exit. Although I don't understand what he is saying, I know I can question him when I get back.

Something begins to sound, like an opening of a door. I looked around and I find the walls opened in half. The other side is black. I can see something... glowing orbs, will-o-wisps? I immediately half run into the side, my instincts telling me to move forward, that it is much safer in there than in this white room. But as soon as I step my foot on the other side, someone grasp my ankle. I looked nervously and was shocked to see. A child. White like that squared room...grinning malevolently at me with those eyes.. those black eyes with red irises.

"where are you going? Mai-chan?" it spoke.

So guys? How was the first chapter? was it good? Or not? Sorry for the mistakes. ^^ anyway. See you on the next chapter.

Reviews would be very much appreciated guys. :)