First Bleach story ever! Yay! So I kind of like Hinamori and I thought she deserved to have a different light shed on her. This is the result. Hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I am not artistic enough to be able to draw this.
Hinamori is not as blind as Aizen and the others believe. Quite the contrary. Her innocent, doe-like are always dancing about, not nervous but observant. She sees many things, especially when no one thinks she is looking. Like Aizen's lips barely moving as he summons up his illusions as he approaches, or the way his smile never reaches his eyes. She sees the way he talks to Gin and Tousen, reading the traitorous words on his lips as he tells them of his success in charming her with his illusion or words of secret meetings and dark plots.
Yes, she sees, but Hinamori also hears. Her taicho is the one who breaks his own illusion over her. She has come to deliver a message when she overhears him, Gin, and Tousen discussing how to best use her under the illusion. His hold is shattered and she regains her senses. She hears the trio's low whispers concerning future things, dark things that scare her. When Aizen "dies", she hears the quiet scoff of Gin at the sight of Aizen's "body" and knows that Aizen is alive, somewhere.
Yet, she does nothing, and that, perhaps, is her downfall. The girl does not report the men. Instead, she watches and listens as she lives a lie, much like the trio of men living their lies. The young shinigami plays the charade of a shy, demure, love-struck girl who is infatuated with her taicho. And when he "dies", she becomes the depressed and mourning heart-broken girl.
She plays her role well, knowing Gin and Tousen are watching, listening, waiting to see if Aizen's illusions are still in effect. Then, sometime before she reads her taicho's letter, she realizes that her pretending was a bit too easy to pull off, but she thrusts the traitorous thought aside. But when she reads Aizen's letter, she realizes that somewhere along the way a part of her stopped pretending and started believing. With an anguished cry, she races to find Gin and Hitsugaya, her Shiro-chan.
And contrary to popular belief, when she screams and lunges at the young captain, she is not angry at him but at herself. She is anguished over her own lack of diligence that allowed Aizen, her dark, plotting taicho, to gain a foothold in her heart. And when she charges at Shiro-chan, it is not her intention to ill him but to enrage him or to make him careless enough to kill her, to end her shame for her because she cannot do it herself.
Yet, her plan fails. The only other option, in her opinion, is to visit Aizen, because she knows where he is; she heard it. When she sees him, she is mesmerized by him and breathes out "Aizen-taicho-sama." In her mind, she knows that her usefulness has run its course and that he will kill her for it. So she smiles. Even when his zanpakto makes contact with her fragile body time and again.
Yes, Hinamori saw and heard, but in the end she did nothing because along the way she lost her heart. It was at the end that she realized such emotional illusions could only be built on existing emoitions.