He was gone, he was dead, he left me. He said that I would be his one and only love. He took those words to his death bed, He had only died about one week ago, almost two. Life is so much harder without him. Much more harder than I ever thought it would be. I miss him so much. I loved him, and he loved me. I know he did because he did almost anything for me.
He had lung cancer from smoking so much. He also took pills that weren't prescribed for him. Antidepression pillls most of the time though. He also encourged me to never ever smoke or do drugs. I knew better than that in the past, but now a days I did everything that was bad for me.
I poped five pills into my mouth. I now know why Liam took these pills all the time. It made you feel like you were floating in the air. Not a care in the world. I needed to keep myself in a delusional state, so the memories wouldn't be able to leave me. But the pictures started to fade. I grabbed the orange pill bottle with a shaking hand. I don't really know why my hand was shaking, but I was to fucked up to care.
I poped the cap open and took another pill to my mouth. That wasn't enough though, so I poped another two in my mouth. I was starting to lose feeling. My eyes slowly closing and everything turning black. My body falling through air. And my breathing starting to slow down.
I smile to myself, maybe I will finaly be reunited with him, with Liam. I hear a voice trying to call me back to reality but I was just drifting off into my fantisy world. I was to much of a travesty. I needed to get away from this world. Liam was all that mattered to me and I don't know how to live without him. It would always be Liam and Aubrey forever. Nothing more, nothing less.