Chapter 1

Jacobs Point of view

We just stand there and watched. Nobody moved, we just listened und waited. We made the decision 2 days before. They would hunt her till Alaska, until she would be too frightened to return, perhaps she would even forget where to return. They would fake her death so that Charlie wouldn't search her, but he would even be so depressed. But Billy could help him through this time.

Today was the third day, he didn't know how long the transformation would take place, but it must be stopping soon because her heart was slowing down after it had been racing the last 2 days.

Even through her body was dying, this wasn't the hardest part. She was constantly screaming his name. There wasn't a minute she stopped. At first I thought it was because the pain remains her at the pain she felt when he left her, but that was just an allusion he wanted to believe. She screamed for him to save her, to give her comfort and to take her with him.

That was just absurd. All the pain she is suffering is because of him. But if I think of Bella everything relates to him. I needed to accept that and the last two days helped to trust the decision of the pack. They couldn't handle a new born without killing it, her. They didn't want to do that so the other solution was probably the best one.

I went again through the memories of the human Bella, the Bella he loved. But soon enough she would change and I could feel it would coming soon.

Twilight, her heart went slower and slower, so it takes 3 days of pain to become such a creature. Not enough for me, but when I thought of my Love Bella a was kind of glad that it was over. But just now it would finally start. Now was the revenge of three days out of sleep. I was very tired but the moment the last beat of her heart was over I turned into the beta and just followed the orders of the alpha.

Bella's Point of view

When I was bitten by Laurent, the world went black. I just heard some kind of barking but I wasn't able to concentrate. The pain was everywhere, it was just like the moment when James bit me but it was much worse. The first few moments I was still, shocked, until the pain did spread. It developed from my toes till my fingernails and everything in between was in fire. But not my head, my head was some kind of free from the pain. At least the physical pain. In my head where just thoughts spinning around. First about Charlie, who would have to deal with my "death", than Jacob, who I could never see again, and Renee, who hasn't anyone to care for except Phil and he was often gone…But my thoughts went fast to him. I was in our meadow, where we passed some of our happiest times. His sparkling skin was so dazzling, well he was dazzling. His voice, ice-cold and hard skin, his scent…And then I allowed myself to fall into memories, happy memories when I loved him and he still loved me.

Just than I could stop myself crying out his name. It was a burst of my physical and my need to have Edward around just right now. I don't know if it would have done anything against the pain but I would have known I could live with him, with this crazy person called Alice, with my big brother Emmet, the contained Jasper, the lovely Esme and the caring Carlile, perhaps I would even get used to Rosalie. But I would never so, so I screamed his name, begged him to take me back, to take me with him and his Family. I cried desperately after him, perhaps he could hear me?

I don't know how long I lied there but I know it would take three days, three days and the eternity of loneliness will begin.

After an uncountable amount of time I felt the end was near, soon would I be a vampire. It would be even funny to think about the situation, when the pain wouldn't be there. I always wanted to turn into a vampire but always combined with Edward and his family. Now I become a vampire and no one would be interested. I would have to deal alone with this topic.

Just then my heart stopped beating. It was an unbelievable feeling to loose the pain. But this pain was soon replaced by the pain of a lonely eternity, an eternity without Edward.

After another amount of time I decided to open my eyes, it was just like the awaking after Edward left, I needed to go on, I knew that from the stories of Carlile. So I opened my eyes. I couldn't believe what I saw. Everything was so different, so much clearer. My memories of my human life were just so bleary, so unclear. Now it was different. I wanted to explore this new felling, this new way of perception. I decided to get up, would I be as fast as the others or would I still be clumsy, just like my human me? I hoped not. But as soon as I git to my feet in an incredible speed I was sure this was an unnecessary fear. I was fast, incredible fast, and I think even kind of elegant. I wanted to jump, to run, to explore my new me. I could see clearer, hear clearer and smell clearer. So I explored my environment. Just than I smelled something really disgusting, just like wet dog. So I watched carefully around myself and just then I saw a couple of huge wolves coming directly in my direction.

I didn't know what to do so my instincts took over. I growled at them, and snarled my teeth but somehow I knew it would make nothing to them. They where more, more experienced, more prepared, more forceful.

Soon they started hunting me. I don't know how long there were hunting me when I finally realised that they don't want to kill me. They just wanted me out of their area and I could understand that. As a newborn a was certifiably insane, dangerous. But I don't feel like that. I would be a vegetarian, jus like the Cullens. But they couldn't know, in fact I was willing to keep running until they would give up. Even I felt the thirst, the speed I was able to run, and the picture of the countryside flashing by abstracted me.

I don't know how long they were hunting me exactly, but at some point they stopped. I turned to them and for the first time I noticed that the one of the wolves looked kind of familiar. I know this can't be but somehow he reminded me of Jacob. But than they turned around and started to run back.

Now I was alone, I absolutely didn't know what to do now. The most reasonable thing was to go hunting. It was easy to find something to eat and I soon figured out how to eat them. Now was the more difficult part. I have to make a choice what to do now. I was alone, nobody was there to tell me what to do, to give me some help. And once again I chose the most reasonable thing, I would stay out here in the wilderness, far away from civilisation for the next 2 or 3 years, until I was sure to be no harm to anyone, than I would start to go back to civilisation, so I could get used to humans. And than I could think about my future once more.