SORRY
I'm sorry I can't be all he was
I'm not brave
No matter what
I'm not selfless
Under all the cockiness
I'm not confident
And vulnerable
At the same time
I'm not the one who accepted you unconditionally
Instantly
I'm not the one who risked everything for you
Month after month after month
I'm not the one you forgave
After he betrayed you
I'm not the one who held you
When you were scared and scarred and young
I'm not the one who held your hand under desks
Risking being called a girl by James
I'm not the one who spent quiet mornings in the hospital wing
When you weren't even conscious
I'm not the one who loved you
First
I'm not your mate
I'm not him
And I'm sorry
The feelings aren't made up, but the scenario is, thank the Gods. Yet another example of me living vicariously through fanfics.