DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS IN THIS STORY, at least so far. I do how ever own the MP3 player that inspired me to write this (well the music inspired me)
many people will probably ask about this later so I'm going to address it now; the title has NOTHING to do with the story, its just a combo of the title of the first song and artist of the second. plus it sounded kinda cool. . . anyways, please enjoy and review; it really does help me write.I know a lot of people say that but it does.
As I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling I started to wonder what life would be like if things had gone differently. If they hadn't left, if I hadn't decided to come back to this place… well after fixing it up from those retarded Erasers destroyed it. Would we all be happy? Would we still be on the run? Or would the still have left at some point, leaving me on my own, with no one to talk to?
I reached over across my bed and turned on my Ipod docking station, turned it on shuffle and lay back down.
Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life
Why did I come back here? Back to the place where this all started?
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
Well that's true in some ways. I don't have to keep track of everyone now; that's Fang's job now.
Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life
I don't need them. Why the HELL am I laying here wishing they were back here with me! All they did for the last year and a half I was with them was push against me. They didn't want me as leader; no they wanted Fang as leader. Even Angel.
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever
I'm not going back, I'm going to take them back. They hurt me too much, they told they didn't need me, didn't want me so that's what they get.
And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
Stay that way; I don't need any of you.
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away (Well I used to)
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone
You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore
I couldn't stop my mind from playing through thousands of memories; Angel's first after we got out of the school, learning to fly, finding out that Iggy and Nudge liked each other. Those were the good ones; I didn't want to review the crappy memories but I did anyway. Fang and I fighting over nothing, Fang breaking his promise causing the guys to leave for the second time, the flock telling me I was a bad leader and choosing Fang over me. Me leaving and trying to find a place to live, and have enough money; oh wait that's right that was only before I remembered that I had the MaxRide card.
BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!
GOD! OK I'LL GET UP! I slammed my hand down on my unneeded alarm clock; time for work. As I stood up to get ready for work I heard a very soft thump above me. Seeing as this is a single story house AND I'm the only one who lives here; something or someone just landed on the roof. I walked down the hallway as silently as possible; I could give Fang a run for his money now. Once I reached the front of the house I opened one of the skylights and jumped up onto the roof. But what I wasn't expecting is exactly what I saw.
Please review and let me know how I did. for some reason I have a hard time writing Maximum Ride fanfics but not Twilight fanfics.
SONGS USED:
Broken by Seether feat. Amy Lee
Gone Forever by Three Days Grace