my stomach twists into knots just by thinking about what he did to me...i lay on my bed drowning trapped in my own tortured mind im screaming for help bed trapped in my own tortured mind Maybe none of this is real and maybe i never said yes to him Maybe this was all happening to someone else and i was reading it in some book but the more i think about the more i wish i had a sweet escape im being pulled under and i have no air to scream.
i bit kick and claw but it doesnt change much im lost in my own state of mind as i see your lips cover mine your body pressed against mine i dont even have the courage to say no it hurts it hurts so bad then suddenly youre dumping me on the floor like im the toy you dont want any more i wrapp myself tightly in a ball protecting myself from you. you try and hug asking 'me if im alright but i know this cant be real i know it cant be real me digging my nails down your back or my teeth against your throat it just cant be