Alright, so this isn't one of my best stories...it's pretty bad. I'm sorry guys...well read and review...if you want to. Enjoy!
"The fear of death often proves mortal and sets people on methods to save their lives, which infaillibly destroys them" –Joseph Addison
You cry every night without me.
I see you scream into your pillow and curse the truck that hit me.
I'm sorry I left.
You've lost the gleam in your eyes.
Now, they're filled with pain.
You stare off into space, ignoring the world around you.
I can feel your pain.
I can see your sorrow.
Every morning, every night, I watch you.
You're dying inside, I can just tell.
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You're beginning to push away the people you need most.
Your pillows are soaked by the time you wake up in the morning.
Every day, you lock yourself in your room.
You don't go to the store anymore.
You say it reminds you too much of me.
My funeral is this weekend.
I hope you go.
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You went through your book last night.
Tears fell from your eyes as you looked at the songs we wrote.
You trashed your room as you sobbed.
Eventually your parents came in and calmed you.
I watched you, wishing I could take all of your pain away.
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You're getting worse.
Last night you took a razor and sliced your wrists.
My funerals today.
You didn't go.
Instead, you ran through the streets, screaming at everything that reminded you of me.
An IHOP (1), since my favorite food was pancakes.
A guitar shop, since I was in the middle of teaching you guitar.
Even a yellow balloon a young girl was holding, since you knew my favorite color was yellow.
People looked at you funny when it started raining and all you did was drop to your knees and cry.
I wish you would've come.
To say one last goodbye.
It's okay though.
I could see how much pain you were in.
I cried all morning as I watched you.
It kills me to know I'm the cause of all your pain.
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Things are getting better.
You don't stare onto space anymore.
You actually have a genuine smile on your face.
Sometimes you look at the guitar I gave you.
Those are the nights you cry.
Most mornings your pillows are dry.
I'm happy for you.
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You are almost back to normal.
Your pillows are dry when you awake in the morning.
You listen to people when they talk to you.
Your eyes have their usual glow.
I'm glad.
You cleaned out all of the things I ever gave you.
Packed it away in boxes.
Donated it.
My heart broke as the Goodwill truck drove away.
I wanted you to move on, but I didn't want you to forget me in the process.
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Years later you seem fine.
You forgot who I am.
Last time my name came up, you said "Austin who?"
Your new friends laughed and said "The loser you wrote songs for."
"Oh yeah, I think he had a crush on me. How lame."
Tears poured out of my eyes at the sight of you making fun of me.
I thought we were best friends.
You know I loved you…I still do.
And after my death, you let your friends call me a loser?
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You've moved on entirely.
I need to let you go.
Since I left you, your personality changed.
You went from the sweet, considerate girl
To an arrogant, self-obsessed, cheerleader.
You forgot all about Trish and Dez.
I hate the you you're become.
I begin to watch you less, horrified by the actions you make.
I've stopped watching you all together now.
I've stopped waiting for you to one day come by my grave.
People say death can change a person.
Looking at the way you act now,
I'd say they were right.
Well, that's it! Like I said, it's not very good. Hope you guys liked it though!
~GleeLover4321