Ok so this is my first TVD fanfic and will be based on the TV series (YEAH!) as I am totally obsessed and devoted to it. I haven't read the books series (YET) I know bad right? But I do have the first book ready and waiting. So far I'm not amazing at the whole updating regularly thing but I am getting better everyone who reviews will get a shout out on the next chapter btw so please tell me what you think?

I am also thinking of doing Damon's diary from 1864? What do you guys think? Ok well here is Stefan's diary

May 23rd 2009

I sat, staring at a box of my posessions I had left here from my last visit. This was my retreat. A home I knew would always be here so I usually left the important things here with me,

I had been back living in mystic falls only a few weeks back with Zach, he's great company to be around after being alone for so many years since Damon left. I'm suprised Zach even remembers damon, its a long time for a human.

I hadn't seen Damon for years, I wouldn't even know if he was alive or not. Not that he cared if I was ok anyway. The brother who never got mad, Sometimes I thought about him, how we used to play as humans and he would go to battle, leaving me with father to be pushed and shoved into everything i didnt want. I remember my human life better than other events, something that i can relate back to. That was who I was. Everything I could have been, Regected from my body.

I found my years of journals, stacked up neatly in a box, some with little amounts and some with more. The small portrait sticking out one of the pages struck me and I opened it quickly,

september 25th, 1864

They say love can conquer all. But can it conquer father's belief that katherine and those like her are demons- devils? i do not exaggerate when i say katherine is an angel. she saved my life- and anna's. Father must know the truth. Once he does, he will be unable to deny katherine's goodness. it is my duty as a salvatore to stay tru to my convictions and to the ones I love. Now it is my time for action, no doubt. Confidence courses through my veins. I will make Father understand the truth- that we are all the same. And with that truth will come love. Father will call off the sieghe. This I swear on my name and my life.

I stared blankly at the page, I remember writing this. The way I had felt so certain my father would give up. Only to be tricked into wounding Katherine anyway. The picture showed Katherine, stood tall and beutiful with her chocolate ringlets down her back. Her face, a look of amusement as she smiles at the camera.

It was days like this I would just sit and remember my loss, the family I could have had, the love I had devoted to Katherine, but she had used me, betrayed our love using compultion and she was nothing to me now. And she was gone, Damon sat and watched her burn that night...

I attemted to focus my trail of thoughts onto something else. I shuffled through an old pile of things and found something that made me smile, It was a photo of my closesnt friend Lexi and I, we were sat laughing, taken only a few years ago at a Bon Jovi concert. I loved this picture. It remined me of how I finally became pure, Lexi had tought me everything.

My birthday was soon and I was much looking forward to seeing my oldest friend. She always knew me so well, understood everything I did without questioning.

As a vampire, she understood what I went through all those years ago and helped me change into the person I am today.

I threw everything back into the box, tired of the aimless shuffling and moved to sit back in the chair.

Here I sat, resting my head back in the ancient armchair and sighed. What to do with myself today. I knew I needed to hunt (my strict, animal-only diet) and yet, the feeling I needed to be somewhere dawned on me.

Zach walked into the room, a glass in his hand as he handed it to me.

"Thank you Zach, please don't feel the need to bring me drinks. You're not my servant." I laughed a little; I needed something to lighten my mood.

"Uncle Stefan, you are going to hunt tonight aren't you?" he asked me nervously. Seeing how my eyes tightened as out hand touched for a second as he passed me the glass.

"Of course, Zach. I just feel there is something that needs to be done." I pondered, looking out the darkened window.

"Uncle Stefan, if you are planning on staying here, you must enrol in school at the start of this year." He sighed and a little agitated I stared him square in the eye.

"You're not my parent Zach, I can do as I like."

"For all intense purposes Stefan, I am. Well to everyone around I am. Your underage, remember." I sighed, knowing he was right and stood up.

"Your right, I should go hunt." I stood up and ran from the house, thankful to be away from Zach's incessant nagging. I heard a sudden crash come from wikery bridge down the road and within the next second a high, familiar scream. Who would I know around here? Suddenly I smelled the scent of human blood. I knew it well and from my years of restraint, I knew I should be able to cope for a few seconds to see if the person was ok.

Running at full speed, I saw a car, fully submerged in water, sinking rapidly to the ground. I could see there were people inside and without hesitation, dived down after it.

I swam directly to where a man was sat, I could hear his voice easily though the glass but his voice sounded sharp with the lack of air. I instinctively attempted to drag him from the car but he touched my hand to stop me. Then pointed behind at the girl in the back, then to his wife. I looked back quickly to where I was pointing and felt my heart leap when I saw Katherine in the back seat. What was Katherine doing here, but the girl sounded breathless and dying. It couldn't be Katherine. Damon had seen her die. But I knew nobody could look that similar. I wanted to think it was her but I knew deep down it couldn't be…

I smashed the window and hauled the girl from the car; she seemed unconscious in a pretty dress as if she had just come from a party. I knew she didn't have long left and dragged her to the top where I lay her down, gave her another quick glance then dived back down. Once down, I paid attention to the woman in the passenger seat, but as much as I tried, there was no heart beat. I checked with my fingers quickly but I then noticed where I had smelt the blood.

She had a gash in her forehead, something I had missed the first time, I looked over to the man but I knew at a glance. He was dead too. I had seen many dead bodies in my life.

I suddenly remembered the girl I had left on the bank and rushed to the edge where she was still unconscious.

I stared a little more and noticed she was identical to Katherine, nothing different. But I could hear that she wasn't a vampire, her heart to ragged and slowing rapidly. I needed to get her to a hospital and fast.

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