Schizophrenia
Chapter 1- Introduction
Summary: When I can't sleep I count the buckles on my straightjacket… When I'm alone I think of you. Do you ever think of me? I bet you don't remember me. I don't blame you. We haven't forgotten about you. NaruSasu
Warnings: Yaoi (BoyxBoy), beatings, schizophrenia, asylums, horrible writing, crazy people, scars, and blood. Ooh, blood. Oh, and, abuse. Just saying.
A/n: If you don't like creepy stories with people in asylums, can't stand reading about schizophrenic people, or don't want to read about Naruto getting beaten, then I don't suggest you read this story.
And for anyone who does…
…good luck.
When I can't sleep I count the buckles on my straightjacket….
When I feel alone I think of you.
Do you even think of me?
I bet you don't remember me.
I don't blame you.
We haven't forgotten about you.
They still don't like you….
…kill him… kill him…
Kill him.
"Naruto, I swear I will grab a chair and hit you if you don't wake up." Naruto shot up in his bed and shot his friend a scared look.
"Oh god, Kiba, it's just you." Naruto said, relief evident in his voice.
"Yeah, it is just me. And the afternoon sun. Come on, man, how can you sleep for that long?" Kiba asked, walking over to the window and pulling the curtains back.
"Well, Kiba, for your information, I don't like it when people threaten to hit me with chairs." Naruto said, squinting in the afternoon sunlight, shuddering slightly.
"Yeah, yeah. And you don't mind it when I threaten to slit your throat."
"Oh, I'm fine with that." Kiba gave him a weird look. "Just… not the chair. "
Silence fell between them, both of them staring at each other without a single word to say.
"…what is it with you and chairs, Naruto?" Kiba asked.
"I just… I don't like them…" Naruto said, "But never mind about that. What's up, Kiba?"
"Well, we are having a party today and everyone's here, you're just not up." Kiba said, crossing his arms over his chest.
"Well, fine. I'll get up. Could you just leave for a minute? I mean, it is my room and I have to change my shirt." Naruto said, getting up off of the bed and crossing to the dresser.
"Nuh-uh. I know that you're just going to lay back down and go to sleep again. Besides," Kiba said, walking over to Naruto and placing his right arm around the blond's shoulders, "we're both guys. There's nothing to worry about."
"No, Kiba. No. I'm not. Now get out of my room." Naruto said, pointing at the room door. "Out."
"Fine. Jeeze. I'll leave, then. But if I come in here and find you on your bed I am cutting your ear off."
"Fine by me." Naruto said, shrugging. Kiba left the room, closing the door with a soft 'thud'. Naruto sighed.
He wearily turned his eyes to the calendar on the wall.
July 23.
Oh. Joy. Naruto sighed, turned away from the calendar tears started streaming down his face, slowly but surely. "It's his birthday." Naruto said, looking back at the calendar longingly. "If only I could visit him…" Naruto sighed. He knew that it wasn't an option.
At least, not any more.
Naruto grabbed the bottom of his shirt and pulled it over his head. Looking at the full body mirror leaning against the wall Naruto examined the scar on his chest and winced.
"No worries, son. It won't scar."
Naruto gave an amused snort at the mirror. Yeah, right. He wondered what the doctor would've thought if he'd seen the wound now. Naruto placed his fingertips on the mirror lightly, tracing down where the scar was. How long had it been? Five years?
Naruto sighed. Now was not the time.
Naruto grabbed a shirt from his dresser when the door opened. Naruto met Kiba's eyes, both of them wide eyed.
"Oh my god… Naruto… when did you get that?" Kiba asked.
"Never. You know what, it's not even there." Naruto said, pulling his shirt over his head and tugging it over the scar. "I don't have it. He's not here anymore."
"…he? Naruto, you said he's not here anymore… are you feeling alright?" Kiba asked, walking over to Naruto and placing the back of his hand on his forehead.
"I'm fine!" Naruto yelled at him, swatting the hand away. Kiba looked at him funny.
"I… I'm sorry, Kiba. I really am. It's just… Not a good day." Naruto said, shaking his head and looking at the calendar.
"Uh… Naruto… does July 23rd mean anything? Because you're creeping me out, bud." Kiba asked, walking over to the calendar and flipping the page up to where it said 'August'.
Naruto sighed. "I'm fine." Naruto said, walking around the room, searching for something. Where had he put them?
"What you looking for?" Kiba asked.
"Nothing, I guess." Naruto sighed. "I think I used them all, anyway." He shrugged.
"…Naruto, in all of the four years we've been roommates, I've never heard you talk like this."
"I know, I know. I usually hide in a closet or something." Naruto said.
"Dude, what happened?" Kiba asked.
"Long story…" Naruto trailed off. "I don't want to talk about it."
"Well, fine. Come into the living room and join us!" Kiba said, trying to lighten the mood. The tension in the air was really suffocating him.
"Alright." Naruto said reluctantly, following Kiba out of the room.
Do you even remember my birthday? Of course you don't…
You're upsetting us…
Why don't you come to me again?
Naruto and his friends were playing truth or dare in the living room when there was a knock on the front door.
"I'll get it." said Kiba, standing up and walking to the door.
Everyone watched where Kiba had left, waiting for something to happen.
"Who do you think it is?" Sakura asked, leaning over towards Ino.
"I dunno, but I have a bad feeling about it. What if Kiba answers it and they kill him?" Ino asked excitedly.
"I doubt anything like that is going to happen." Naruto said, just as Kiba and a woman with blonde hair came walking in.
"Hey, Naruto, she says she knows you." Kiba said, shrugging.
"Tsunade? What are you doing here?" Naruto asked, standing up and rushing over to her, kicking Lee in the head along the way.
"Naruto, I've got some news that I think you'll want to hear." Tsunade said.
"What, is it about Sasuke?" Naruto asked excitedly.
"What?" Kiba asked, everyone's attention turned on Naruto and Tsunade.
Tsunade sighed. "Yes, it's about Sasuke."
"Please tell me it's good news." Naruto pleaded her.
"It depends. Do you really still love him?" Tsunade asked.
"Of course I do! Why wouldn't I?"
"He tried to kill you, Naruto." Everyone fell silent. No whispers were heard, only the hum of the air conditioner.
"I know, but-"
"With a chair." Tsunade said, crossing her arms over her chest.
"It doesn't matter-"
"Naruto, he almost killed you! Or do I have to remind you that he's coming out of an ASYLUM?" Tsunade yelled the last part at Naruto, which caused him to freeze.
Naruto was motionless.
"…when's he coming?" Naruto asked Tsunade quietly.
"He's being released tomorrow." Tsunade sighed, shaking her head and holding out her arm, a package in her hand. "I got you some more of your medication. I knew you'd be out."
"Thanks…" Naruto said, grabbing the bag. "Uh… thank you…"
"You can pick him up at the train station tomorrow." Tsunade said, turning to leave.
"Tsunade…" Naruto called to her, Tsunade turning towards him. "Thanks." Naruto repeated. "I really mean it."
Tsunade sighed and smiled.
"You're welcome." And she left.
The room was silent.
"…Naruto, you have got some explaining to do." Kiba said the same thing that everyone in the room wanted to say.
Naruto turned towards them, clutching the bag.
"Uh…. I don't really like talking about it." Naruto said nervously.
"So, this 'Sasuke' person, is he the one who gave you that scar?" Kiba asked.
"Uh… yeah…" Naruto said in a small voice.
"Is that the reason why you don't like chairs? Because this so-called 'Sasuke' beat you with one?" Kiba asked calmly.
"…" Naruto was speechless.
Everyone stared at him expectantly.
"Fine…" Naruto sighed, sitting down on the floor, rejoining the circle they had made.
And Naruto began, telling the story with every detail, as if it had only happened the day before…
"No, you're lying. He's better than that. No, he would never. I don't believe you…"
"Sasuke... baby? Are you hearing them again?" Naruto asked groggily, sitting up slowly in their bed.
Sasuke slowly turned toward Naruto, looking at him with a weird sort of look, as if he was observing Naruto like a lab rat.
"Oh… you do have a point… Yeah, that's true… No, no, no. Oh… maybe. Yeah, I see it now…" Sasuke said, his one-sided conversation continuing on.
"Baby, did you take your medication?" Naruto asked, scooting towards Sasuke. Sasuke got up and walked to the opposite side of the room.
"You think so? Oh, no. Oh, no." Sasuke gave Naruto a look, a look with pure malicious intent.
"Baby, stop it. You're kind of scaring me." Naruto said, shifting uncomfortably under the intense stare of his boyfriend. "You wanna talk about it?"
"We don't like you." Sasuke said.
"Sasuke, how many times have I told you, you're not them. You are separate, remember that." Naruto said.
"How can you tell? Why can't you hear them?" Sasuke asked, cocking his head to the side.
"We've been over this. They're all in your head. They don't exist. So stop it, Sasuke. Come back to bed." Naruto said sternly, patting the bed next to him.
Sasuke crossed over to the desk and grabbed the metal folding chair.
"No." Sasuke said. "You'll hurt me."
"No I won't, baby."
"Yes you will. They say you will."
"They're lying."
"I think you're lying." Sasuke slowly walked over towards the bed, dragging the chair along beside him.
"Baby, drop the chair."
"No."
"Sasuke, I'm serious. Drop the chair."
"No."
"Sasuke Uchiha, I am fucking serious, drop the fucking chair." Naruto said, sitting up straighter now.
"I said NO!" Sasuke yelled at him, slamming the chair against Naruto, successfully knocking him out of the bed and against the wall.
"God! Sasuke! Stop it!" Naruto yelled at him.
"I SAID NO!" Sasuke yelled at him, slamming him repetitively with the chair, causing Naruto to cough out blood.
"Sasuke! Baby, STOP IT!" Naruto screamed at him. Naruto was strong enough to stop him, but he was afraid of hurting his boyfriend.
"NO!" Sasuke screamed at him, hitting him and then dropped the chair, suddenly. "Oh my God, Naruto… what… what happened?" Sasuke asked, dropping down onto his knees next to the blond.
"Baby… please don't do that again…" Naruto said, finding difficulty in breathing.
"But... what?" Sasuke asked.
"Just…" Naruto trailed off as Sasuke stood up, grabbing the chair and slowly walking out of the room. Once he reached the door he slowly turned towards Naruto.
"We won't let you hurt us again." Sasuke said, his head cocked to the side and an evil grin adoring his mouth.
"Baby…" Naruto muttered, trying to reach out to Sasuke but his arm fell, just sitting limply on the floor as Sasuke walked down the stairs, out of the house.
Naruto waited for a while, just sitting on the floor before he got up, trying to make his way out the front door, trying to follow Sasuke. The front door was left open, and Naruto didn't close it as he walked out of it, walking out in search of Sasuke. It was easy to follow him, both were covered in blood and Sasuke as well as Naruto were both dripping wet from it.
Naruto followed the trail of blood into town, people looking at him startled, though not as much as you'd expect them to be.
They had probably already seen Sasuke.
Naruto found Sasuke, covered in blood, more so than he had been.
Ha he killed others?
"Sasuke, baby," Naruto said, grabbing Sasuke's shoulders and turning him around. "stop, please."
"They don't like you… let go of me…" Sasuke said, trying to shake free from Naruto's grip.
A car honked at them.
Naruto looked at it. That's funny; he didn't remember walking out into the middle of the road. Naruto looked back at Sasuke with pleading eyes.
"Please stop. Don't let them control you." Naruto said quietly, feeling light headed.
Sasuke looked at the car. HE walked over to it, climbing onto the hood. Naruto tried to get him down. Sasuke breathed onto the windshield, drawing a smiley face onto where his breath had left the water vapor. He smiled at it, observing it as it disappeared. The driver of the car looked at him funny, then started yelling.
"Get the fuck off of my car! You freak, get off!" He just kept on yelling.
"Sasuke, please, don't even think about it." Naruto pleaded him, still trying to get him off of the car. Sasuke turned towards him and smiled, he smiled a very wicked smile. Sasuke lifted the chair and smashed the windshield, hitting it until it cracked and shattered.
"WHAT THE FUCK?" The driver yelled, opening his door and jumping out.
"Baby, stop." Naruto yelled at him. Sasuke smacked Naruto with the chair, slamming him into the ground. At this point police officers made their way over to them. One tried to grab Sasuke but Sasuke slammed the chair into him.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" Sasuke screamed at them, crying now. He didn't look as insane as he did scared now.
"Sasuke…" Naruto called to him softly. The police officers, one on each arm, grabbed Sasuke and held him down, another taking the chair away from him. Naruto heard the distant whine of an ambulance, feeling people put him onto a stretcher. He groaned in pain. Looking back at Sasuke only to see him crying, screaming, looking severely confused, Naruto mouthed three words.
'I love you'.
Very distantly Naruto heard Sasuke scream "I love you too" to Naruto. Naruto smiled as he blacked out.
…
"Oh my god Naruto I had no idea…" Sakura breathed out, looking sorry for even wanting him to tell the story.
"I-it's f-fin-fine…" Naruto stuttered, shaking from his crying. When did he start crying?
"You want a tissue?" Ino asked, handing him a Kleenex box.
"T-than-anks…" Naruto sniffed, blowing his nose into a tissue.
"God, Naruto, why haven't you told me about that? I mean, I've known you for like four years and this is the first I've heard of it." Kiba said.
"I-I don't l-like t-to talk ab-about… it." Naruto said in between gasps for breath. Oh, how he despised crying.
"I can understand that." Shikamaru said.
"Y-yeah… I do m-miss him, th-though…" Naruto said softly.
"Why do you miss him?" Kiba yelled at Naruto. "He tried to fucking KILL you!"
"I-I love h-him…" Naruto said softly. "When h-he first started h-hearing the voices… he w-would start cry-ying… I'd ask h-him what was-was wrong and he'd t-tell me th-that he did-dn't know why I coul-ouldn't hear them. He'd say th-that they'd-d tell hi-im to hurt me…" Naruto took a deep breath. "I'd tell him that it was fine, he didn't have to listen to them. And we'd cuddle, me comforting him for hours on end…"
"Aww…" Sakura and Ino said in unison.
"That's so adorable." Sakura said.
"Am I the only one wondering about this? I mean, come on Naruto, since when have you been gay?" Choji asked.
"Since forever…" Naruto said, shrugging.
"We kinda guessed." Kiba said bluntly.
"So... yeah… today's his birthday." Naruto said.
"Oh. Was that why you were freaking out?" Kiba asked.
"Yeah…" Naruto said, looking off to the side.
"How long ago was it?" Lee asked curiously.
"About… five years now…" Naruto said softly.
"Wow." Kiba said. "Well then, are you going to pick him up when he's released?"
"Hell yeah. Why wouldn't I?" Naruto asked, looking up at Kiba.
"Now that's the Naruto I know."
I'm going to be released soon. At least that's what they tell me.
Will you come meet me?
Will you take me home?
Will you be happy to see me?
Will you still love me?
…You won't hurt me, will you?
They keep telling me you will…
A/N: Yeah... So, my birthday was like 2 days ago! Happy belateed birthday me!
What inspired this story was that I just watched Dream House and the first Paranormal Activity last night. I just had to start this fanfiction. And, yes, I will continue my others, my philosophy I go by is 'No Fanfictions get left behind'. I will write more, I'm just having writer's block with them. So... yeah...
Reviews?
~Sasuke Uzumaki 83