The deep aqua water filled my ill lungs
I didn't fight
It was natural
It was what I wanted
To die peacefully
Drowning is the most peaceful way to go
It was for the best
The plan was held through all along
It was my little secret
Listened to no one
It was all going my way

'To Pembrookshire!' I declared
With my best friends, nothing could go wrong
We had our laughs
We had our fights
We joked
We fought
But we're friends to the end
Despite everything
Best friends till death separates us

My death…
I don't want it separating anyone
Friends
Family
Staying together
Help my family get through this
It will be hard
I am sorry

I'm sorry about this
I'm sorry to cause you suffering
I'm sorry to cause you pain
I'm sorry to cause you sadness
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
It was for the best
Please forgive me
I did it out of love
I did it to escape the pain
I did it to escape the suffering
It was unbearable
It was easy
It was quick
And I am sorry

Don't forget me
Don't forget who I was|
The man I was before all of this

And to that
A toast of morphine to you all
I loved you all
It was for the best

If you need me
I'll be the third star to the right
I'll be there
Looking down at you all
I'll be there
I'll be there
I'll never leave you
And someday
We will all be reunited again
I will wait till that day comes again
I love you all with all my cancer filled heart

I'll be there
I'll never leave
I'll be at the third star to the right