Disclaimer: I don't own JAG or the characters, (really if I did Harm & Mac would have been together after Full Engagement) all I own are the DVD's, JAG trading card set, and autographed cast pics and ones from David and Catherine..
A/N: This picks up after Mac & Bugme leave their engagement party, Mac thinks about everything that Harm told her on the porch and she makes a decision.
*In Mic's Car on their way back to Mac's apartment*
Mac sat in the passenger's seat of Mic's car staring out the window, Harms words floating through her head. "You have someone that will always love you." than he kissed her, not just a normal kiss, but one that was full of love, passion, hope, longing, desire all wrapped up in one kiss. God she could still fill his arms around her, the way he pulled her to him, the way his hands felt so perfect on her back, she could fill his soft moist lips on hers, she wanted more. She wanted his touch, his arms around her, his lips on hers. But mostly she found that she wanted Harm, but what did that mean for Mic? Does she love him? She needed to think to clear her head, sort out her feelings; everything had been all jumbled up tonight.
Mic brought her out of her haze when he lend over and kissed her shoulder.
"Sarah luv, where're home." Mac realized they were back at her apartment.
"Thank you for the ride home Mic." Mac started to open the car door, but Mic's hand stopped her, she turned to look at him.
"I thought I would come in with you, after all this is the night of our engagement party Sarah."
"Not tonight Mic, I'm sorry I'm just tired I had a long day at work and then the party tonight. All I really want to do is go inside and, take a hot bath and, go to sleep. I hope you understand."
Mic Syed, "Ok, Luv; No worries, you rest up and I'll call you later. I love you Sarah."
"Me too; Mic." Mac opened the car door and headed up to her apartment. She felt bad that she couldn't stay the words back to him. But she needed to clear her head.
She opened the door to her apartment and walked in, closing the door behind her. She lends back against it and wrapped her arms around herself. She felt bad about lying to Mic, but right now she just wanted to keep Harm with her as long as she could. She didn't want to lose the feeling of his arms around her, his lips on hers. She walked across the room, and turned on her stereo, hoping some soft music would help her clear her mind. She started into her bedroom, when she stopped to lesion to the song that was playing.
It was Whitney Houston's One Moment in Time. Mac stopped and sat down letting the words to the song take over her mind, images filled her memory of herself and Harm, their past everything they had been through together, then she saw her future, her husband and her children. As the song ended, she stood up turned off the stereo grabbed her keys and headed out the door. Her mind was clear, and she knew what she wanted.
2330 Zulu
Harm's apartment
North Of Union Station
Harm had entered his apartment a few minutes earlier, his mind replaying the events of the night. He had told Mac that she would always have someone that loves her; she had told him almost word for word the same thing. Just standing there looking at her, he couldn't help himself; he wanted her so he pulled her to him. She came to him so willingly, she didn't make any movement to stop him, in fact she had responded to his kiss, like she was begging for more. It felt so right to have her in his arms, to have her lips on his. But then reality came back to him, she was not his, she belonged to another man. She was going to marry Mic Brumby.
Harm headed up the stairs to his room, taking off his jacket, he started to lay it down. When a soft sent hit him, he lifted the jacket up to his nose. It smelled like Mac, her sent filled his nostrils. He had to stop thinking of her like this, she is getting married he lost his chance. Harm Syed, laying his jacket back on his bed. He loosened his neck tie and placed it next to the jacket, then he un tucked his shirt and started to un button it, when he heard a knock on his front door.
He wondered who would be at his door at this hour, surely not Renee. God he hoped not, she was the last person he wanted to see tonight. He walked down the stairs and made his way to the door, looking out the peep hole. At first he thought his eyes were playing tricks on him, then he opened the door to see Sarah Mackenzie on the other side.
"Mac come on in." Harm stepped aside to let he walk in.
"I know it's late, I hope I'm not intruding?" She said as she walked in.
"No not at all, what brings you by?"
Mac's mind was racing, she knew it was now or never, she had to get this in the open.
"Harm we need to talk about tonight, and what happen between us. But before you say anything, I want you to just hear me out." Mac started to pace the room ringing her hands, than she stopped in front of where Harm had taken a seat at the bar, she stood in front of him, looking deep into his eyes.
"I finally realized tonight what you were trying to tell me in Sydney, just for some time and I didn't give it to you, and for that I'm sorry. But I also realized that you told not only with your, words but with your eyes, that you are the one that will always love me. Harm I want to take a chance on us, I want to be with you for eternity," She took his hand and placed it on her heart, "It has always been yours and always will be, you will always be my flyboy." Mac smiled as tears ran down from her eyes.
Harm took his free hand and wiped away her tears ,she looked at him.
"Harm please say something, anything."
"I wasn't sure if you were done yet!" (Mac laughed)
"Sarah you just said everything that I've not had the courage to say, but let me add something to that. I love you Sarah, I love everything that makes you who you are, I never want to be without you in my life." He took her hand and placed it over his heart. "They beat as one."
Harm took Mac into his arms and pulled her to him, he kissed her and she didn't waste any time responding to his kiss, wrapping her arms around his neck pulling him to her. When they broke apart Harm looked deep into her brown eyes.
"What do see when you look at me like that Harm?"
"I see my future, I see our life together, and our baby we promised each other."
That was all it took she crashed her lips back on his this time more passionate then before, she wanted him to know how much she wants him. She started to unbutton the rest of the buttons on his shirt. Then she felt his hand stop her.
"Mac we can't do this tonight, as much as I want to we need slow down."
"I know your right, I just couldn't stop. Everything just hit at once, but before we go to that level. We both need to be free of other people."
"Yes your right, but it's late after all and we could both use some sleep. Why don't you stay the night?"
"That sounds good to me; I'm past the point of tired." Mac laughed
Harm took her by the hand and lead her up the stairs to his bedroom, he told her to have a seat while he got her some cloths to change into. He went into his chester drawer and pulled out a Fly Navy tshirt and a pair of boxers and handed them to Mac. She took them and headed into the bathroom to change. Harm sat down on the bed and waited for Mac to come back out, she came out a few minutes later carrying her dress in her hand.
"I thought you might need this." He said as handed Mac a hanger for her dress. She smiled and took the hanger from him. "I'm going to change, be right back."
Mac hung her dress on the hanger Harm had handed her, she walked over to his closet to hang it in there, when she turned back around she noticed he had not closed his drawer on the chester unit. So she walked over to close it for him, she glanced inside and noticed a cherry wood box. She ran her hand over the top of the box, the wood was soft and it looked old.
Harm walked back out of the bathroom and saw Mac looking in the drawer, he walked over to her. He noticed that she was looking at the box inside. He put his hand on top of hers.
"Oh I didn't hear you walk back out, I noticed that you left the drawer open, and I thought I would close it for you."
"Thank you, Mac why don't you sit down on the bed."
She did as he asked and took a seat on the bed; he took the box out of the drawer, and walked over to the bed. He sat down next to Mac and placed the box in her hands.
"Go on and open it."
Mac opened the box and inside was 3 rings one looked like an engagement ring and the, other two look to be a wedding set.
"Harm what is the story behind these, they are beautiful." Mac asked as she ran her hand over the rings.
"The diamond ring belonged to my grandma Sarah, it was her engagement ring, when my dad proposed to my mom it was passed to her and became her ring. The other 2 rings are my mom and dad's wedding set. My dad left his ring with mom before his last deployment, she told me he said he left it, so a small part of him would be with her. Mom told me to hold on to the rings, and I would know when and who to give them too. So that's the story Sarah."
Mac looked at the rings in the box then she looked up at Harm, she closed the box and handed it back to him. He took the box from and took it back to drawer and placed it inside. He went back and sat back down next to Mac on the bed. Taking her hand in his, only then he noticed she had removed her engagement ring.
"When the time is right, I want you to wear that ring, but only if you want to. If you want a new one I will get that for you."
Before Harm could finish, Mac put her fingers on his lips.
"I want to wear it; I would be honored to wear that ring, only when you feel ready to give it to me. But right now I say let's sleep."
"Sleep does sound good, it's been a long day, why don't you take the bed and I'll take the sofa."
"Or we could share the bed."
"We could do that, I just didn't want to assume, that's why I said I would take the sofa."
"Harm I'm not going to, kick you out of your own bed, besides I know how cold this place gets. And I need body heat to stay warm."
Harm laughed, and took Mac by the hand and they both climbed into bed, Harm laid on his back and Mac found her way over to his chest resting her head on his heart, her free arm across his middle. They both found sleep in each other's arms.