Hey, people! Here's my story. It's a songfic. The song's "Already Gone" by Kelly Clarkson. Hope you like it! And please review. If you are wondering where's the disclaimer, there's no point in putting it as obviously a fanfiction HAS to borrow stuff of its parentdom..or whatever you call the TV show/comic/manga/anime/movie/book/game/play/musical its based on. Oh yeah, from the second last bit of the song, the narration changes from 1st POV to 3rd POV!

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ALREADY GONE
KELLY CLARKSON

Broken Angels I

I was far too broken to reach that healthier place everyone else was in. Heck, even Hyuuga...no, Natsume was successful in his attempt to reach that. I watched as all my friends waltzed around the rented ballroom.

'One-step, two-step, tap tap-tap tap…' and so it went on. The ball gowns swished and the shoes stomped. I watched from the sidelines, having no date. Even so, how could I expect someone to tolerate me, the broken girl who was once so different? I guess soon there would be a day when my final goodbye would be said.

Remember all the things, we wanted
Now all our memories, They're haunted
We were always meant to say good-bye
Even without fist held high, yeah
Never we have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

Reminiscing about past memories or fantasies was not going to help me or him or anyone for that matter. Slowly, I lifted myself off the chair in the secluded corner and moved towards the entrance…

He was in my way. "Ruka, please I need to go."

"Stay, for a while at least."

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I studied his face for a while. Then, I turned to observe Natsume whose arm was carelessly slung across the brown haired girl's shoulders. Koko, too was happily dancing with Anna. Tobita was laughing at something Nonoko said. Mochu and Sumire were by Natsume's side. Then, I turned back to face Ruka. The look in his eyes burned me, for I knew I was the cause of it.

"I can't Ruka. I am too… changed by that night."

"Please, I… we will help you out. You never talk to us about that night"

"You can't. I will not destroy your lives any further…" 'For I love you and the rest,' was my unsaid thought.

Ruka just looked at me. As I brushed past him, I whispered to him, "For I am already gone…"

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I watched him that night. As he slept, I realized that finally all his burdens were lifted and that just maybe he would find another that would love him just as I did… but doing so without hurting him in the process. "I wish that you had not suffered me."

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

I guess in the end, we were not meant to be. My love for him had became a tainted thing, the only thing that kept me going after all the horrors I had seen.

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I slowly walked to my shelter. No one knew I was homeless since that incident. I cleverly hid it, saying to them that I lived on the outskirts with an aunt of mine. That was the next day right after that night. After that I rarely spoke to them again.

In reality, it was just a lie. I had no relatives. My late mum had been disowned for marrying my dad, an only child of factory workers. We were poor, yes, but it was a happy household. Because of my hard work, I earned a scholarship to study in Alice Academy. My mom was so proud. Then, my parents were murdered... I witnessed this when I was coming back from school. No one knew how traumatic it was. If only they had experienced what I had gone through, they would have known how it had broken me. How could I be the same? I snatched some money, their bankbooks and I ran away…god knows how I managed that. Somehow, I found myself by this sanctuary I call home now. It was actually an abandoned tree house. It was in good condition so I took it for my own.

I looked at the only picture of my friends and family that I managed to salvage from the aftermath the next day. "It doesn't matter, guys. I had to go… I would not have been able to hold myself together then," I addressed my picture friends.

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

I returned back to school as normal the following day. Ruka and the rest except Natsume tried to coax me out of my shell again. It was expected after all, they had been doing this since that incident. I kept silent; however, not trusting myself to not say anything should I open my mouth. I fell back into my world of fantasies, my books. They were now my only salvation. For I am already gone…

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Ooooo,
Oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Yeah

I watched as Natsume burned Sumire's hair (pyromaniac.). I watched Ruka coax Natsume to stop it. I watched Tobita try to tell Natsume off. I watched my best friend trying to pay attention to what Jinno was saying. I watched Sumire crying and begging Natsume, "Why do you love burning my hair?" I watched Koko fool around with Mochu and messed up Anna and Nonoko's work. It was just like the old times except for me. I wanted to return to the old me… to be with him. But it was not going to happen. We were never meant to be…

Remember all the things, we wanted
Now all our memories, They're haunted
We were always meant to say good-bye

I sat under a sakura tree and watched the activities of the academy's students and personnel. All of a sudden, the tree rustled and a boy landed beside me. Black hair, crimson eyes, it was Natsume…

"Natsume…"

"..."

"…"

We sat in silence for sometime and then, he broke the tension.

"Cry. It's not good to keep it all in. Ruka's worried sick about you. If you won't tell anyone, then tell me at least. Of all of them, I can keep my mouth shut."

I don't know what was it that made me tell him the story. But I did, just changing the homeless part to be in line with what I told them. Halfway through the story, I broke down. But I persisted. Finally, Natsume hugged me and said, "No one should have endured what you had faced." Saying that, he was gone.

"It doesn't matter. That fact would not change anything." The wind carried my words away.

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

The next day, Natsume, Ruka, Sumire, Tsubasa, Misaki and the rest watched as the brunette broke down. In her fists was a letter.

Dear Hotaru,

Don't worry. Everything will be alright. But I can't stay. You can't make it feel alright. I will not commit suicide or in any way throw away my life as it seems to be the only way to honour my parents' memories. I can't go on living here though. It hurts, Hotaru, hurts real bad. Even talking about it to Natsume did not make things better.
I am far too broken to be ever really healed. Things can never be the same again. I love you, Hotaru. That's why I am leaving. I can see that I am causing you great pain. The same for the others too… especially Natsume. I love you guys, but I can't bear inflicting anymore pain on you. I love you Natsume… Love you so much that it is killing me to watch you hurt over me. I can't take it. Thank you, Ruka-pyon, Permy, Iinchou, Tsubasa-senpai, Misaki-senpai, Anna, Nonoko, Narumi-sensei, Youichi-kun and the rest for being there when I needed you. You may never see me again though. Love you all… but I am already gone.

P.S: Natsume, you can tell them what I told you. Love someone else Natsume, for my sake. I know you might never love someone the way you did me. But I want you to be happy. You would be far happier with that person than you ever were with me. I love you Natsume!

Love,
Mikan

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone...

"Why? Why Mikan, why did you go? Why did this have to happen to her? Why?" Natsume whispered. He was sitting on their sakura tree watching all the others who were lamenting Mikan's departure.

Elsewhere, a plane touched down in England. A girl stepped out of the aircraft and looked around. Her cropped brown hair waved in the wind. She fingered the strands that once had been long and turned to face her new future. "Goodbye, Nihon. Hello, England."

Author's Note

Hope it was okay. Oh yeah, another thing in you review please tell me what was you first impression of who was narrating the story at first before the scene with Natsume onwards. So, who do you think it was? Actually, it was Mikan. All the same, please put it in you review. I tried to make it seem as if Hotaru was narrating. Natsume burning Sumire's hair is just him being a pyromaniac... all the characters of this universe are normal people like you and me. Thanks for reading and reviewing by the way. *hugs to all readers and reviewers* Do try reading my other stories.