Prelude
I thought it would all go away. The pain; the longing. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't forget Elena. Even after Klaus compelled me to turn off my human emotions and forget her, I still feel the presence of my love for her. It is that faint, flickering moments of those cherished memories of us together that continues to haunt me. The supernatural power of my lust for Elena remains strong; hidden under layers of regret and emotion, but strong. How can my love for her remain? I've turned into a complete monster, the opposite of everything I've tried to hide her from. My past has now become a part of who I am. I am no longer the tortured bunny eater. Its me, Stefan...Full-blown ripper.
Chapter 1
It was morning. I could tell from the faint glow of the sun on my closed eyelids, shimmering in from the window. Something was different; I was different. There was that emptiness inside me, more than usual. When I tried to think of her it was hard, and the faint memories became chopped up into smaller slivers, not even giving me the pleasure of a full thought of her. I had to see her. I had to have a memory of her, to remain with me through eternity.
I sat up, my toes swaying over the edge of the bed, softly touching the cold hardwood floor. I was in an apartment. Obviously it cost me nothing, just my dashing good looks and some vampire mind compulsion. The landlord, Mrs. Brandy was a charming old lady, with a lack in the vervain department; which helped my case.
A Shower. That's what I needed. The hot water greeted my sore body with open arms. The water running down my chest and under my thighs. I ran my hands through my hair, washing it with shampoo, then rubbing soap all over my body, cleaning out the dried blood and sweat. I grabbed a towel and dried myself, looking in the foggy mirror. I didn't just feel different, I looked different too. The human blood had helped bring some life back to my face. My eyes, no longer a bright brown, but now a dark chocolate. I grabbed some jeans, a clean pressed polo shirt, my keys, and headed out the door.
Mrs. Brandy had been very kind in letting me borrow her husbands mustang. Being that mine was still at my old house, where Damon and Elena now took up residence. Damon; my brother. That thought brought back memories of us in 1864, The Salvatore Brothers, Best of Friends. I laughed to myself, that was never going to be the same.
I drove into town, scanning the people walking in the streets for Elena, a single glance of her would be enough to last me a while, holding on to that mental picture of her. I ended up driving to the high school, it was a weekend, so there were few people there. I got out of the car and walked up to the bleachers, sitting and staring blankly at the field. There were more people here, setting up for some sort of race. Tents were being put up, lemonade and energy drinks being poured into little plastic cups, people living their lives, not aware of the monster that sat on the bleachers. That was weird, there was usually never a school activity without-
"Stefan?" Someone called out. Speaking of the devil. Caroline Forbes strode up to me, her blonde hair bouncing. "Stefan? Is that you?" She called, holding her hand over her eyes.
I sighed, "Yes, Caroline, it's me."
She zoomed up to me in a blur, hugging me tight. "Where have you been? We've been looking for you," She paused, scanning my face for a glimpse of emotion, "Ever since last night, Elena's never been so much more determined to find you, and help you."
I figured that, "We can't be together, Elena and I, it would never be the same again," I lied, looking away from her hard stare.
"Never be the same again? Stefan, you and Elena may of had your ups and downs, but every relationship has there fights. You and Elena just need to end yours." She said, never tearing her gaze.
"Elena would never forgive me, and with Klaus and Rebekah running from some higher force now, no one would be safe." I looked at her, then stood up and tried to walk away.
Caroline grabbed me, and with vampire strength, sat me back down forcefully, looking in my eyes. "I wasn't finished talking."
"What do you want me to do Care? Walk right up to her door, and plant one on her?" I snapped.
She sighed, grabbing my face, "You have to do something. Or else, Its Damon that's gonna be planting one on her."