Author note: hello everyone! I hope you have all liked the stories that I have posted. I seem to have a bit of a problem uploading them [instead of one story I upload 4 of the same! SORRY! ^^] I will try and correct it!. I wrote this story after hearing Iris from the goo goo dolls … and watching the movie again [love meg and nicolas cage's acting!] and also hearing Hearts' what about love: gotta love the 80's! Hope you like it!
This story is not based on the book nor in the war. Both characters are based to be 2-3 years apart and the dominated one is the older one… guess who ^^
I never thought myself as a beauty, nor do I think I would become the next Mr. Wizard of the month. Through a curse that was thrown at me in my seventh year, my nose has never been the same and my hair has forever been overly oily, that I have resigned myself to be the unpleasant, rude, uncaring man that I am today: though the rude and uncaring is a mask that I crafted over time to have people leave me alone. The dreams that I have had when young till now have not changed. I still wish to have found a man who would love me for me and not my looks [if this statement has come a shock to you then … yes, I'm gay. It is not uncommon in the wizarding world], have a beautiful traditional wedding with my few closes friends [manly Albus and Minerva aka Minnie], have a small cottage with a garden that I may grow my ingredients and work from home where I will await my husband when he arrives from work, have two maybe four children [yes, wizard may bear children, we ARE magical people] run around who I will be showering them with love and show them love that I have never had in my youth, see them grow up to be well caring people that the community will respect, all my dreams are far fetch but what I would really like is to know what LOVE is. I have never felt that… I envy those who did … shit, I am getting depress now. I must stop this train of thought before I get more depress then I am.
I am 28 years old and have been teaching here at Hogwarts for 8 years now, I have never stepped a foot outside these walls if only to buy the ingredients that I need, other then that I owl everything. I am to embarrass to state this in the open but I have never had a relationship in both aspect of that statement. Right now, it is pass one o'clock on June 26 that I am in my chamber with a bottle of fire whiskey celebrating my 29 birthday, alone. Watching the minutes go by I have had enough that is it, I have to change my life. If I want my dream to come true I have to do something. ….
What the hell was I thinking?
Now I believe that I have had too much whiskey to be able to think straight but right now at this very moment I am standing outside of this bar… in town. … what the hell, it wont hurt. Not caring how I look right now [I must input that no I am not wearing my robes, I have a polo black shirt and baggy black pants thank you very much, I do know how to dress a bit] I enter the bar and what a scene.
It was not so packed, of course, look at the time! Its around 2 in the morning where people well be heading home to sleep or are sleeping. Not caring if they are closing or not, I pick a seat at the bar and ask for a bottle of fire whiskey.
Your new here, have not seen you before.
And you are talking to me when I have not asked.
Ouch. Touché. The names harry and you.
Does this man not take the hint I do no..t … shit, his hot!
Cat got your tongue?
My mind has frozen. This man, when the light hit him I got a … BEAUTIFUL ahem look at him. A skin-tight tank top black [my favourite colour if you wish to know] what little glimpse that I got from his waist down, ripped jeans low riders… mm… a men's wet dream.
Umm.. Se.. cough.. Severus. This, my name…
What am I, an idiot to give that kind of answer.!
My name is Severus Snape; it is a pleasure meeting you.
And what a PLEASURE it is.
Laugh. Is it your first time coming into a bar. I haven't seen you around town neither where your from?
What are you an old maiden who loves to know what goes on and who is doing who. If you must know I am a professor at Hogwarts and do not have time to, how you say, flaunt myself for everyone to see.
Okay. Okay, I get it. Sorry for asking. So, are you waiting for someone or… okay okay! You do not have to give me that look! I wont ask, its just… can't I struck up a conversation with you.
Why do you want to talk with me?
I don't know um, my shift is about to end want to go sit at one of the tables. I wont ask you anything you don't want to be ask.
I don't know why this man… Harry is his name, wants to chat with me. But I believe I may have drank to much that I have agreed. We sat down in a corner booth were we decided each of us will ask a question.
You know my full name what is yours?
Harry Potter. How old are you?
29, today is my birthday, you?
Well happy birthday, I am 32. Single, committed, married?
Thank you and yes, no, no, you?
This went on for could be like hours that a bartender came and told us they were closing shop.
Wow. It is 4. Seems like minutes have past but in actual hours have. Severus, would you like to take a walk and talk some more?
Wow. We sat for so long. I, I feel okay with him. Umm I wonder what he thinks of me.
Sure.
Getting up and accepting after a short argument of the payment: Harry decided as it is my birthday he pays the bill that after leaving we started walking in the direction of Hogwarts. We talked about our childhood, I try to steer away from some question but other then that I found out he went to an all boys wizard school in America and came back here to his home land when he finished his schooling 5 years ago. He has an older brother who works for the ministry and has a child that he named after him. Loves to fly on his broom on his days off and he loves to read.
Well here we are.
What?
I wasn't paying attention to where we were walking but after looking forward I see the school gates there, and I don't want to leave. What can I do? Shit, I feel like a teen! What is wrong with me, that's it no more drink.
Oh. Um, thank you for tonight, umm; frankly I am not good with this talking thing. I am mostly a solitude guy and love to create potion in my free time, I umm… I never had someone to talk to other than the headmaster and the deputy headmistress but other than that I am mostly in my lab, I really don't know why I am babbling like this, laugh I believe I might be nervous at this point, I don't now why I am doing this, I should go..o.. Oh. My. Gosh
At this very moment, I: Severus Snape, have experience my very first kiss. And what a kiss it IS!
Laugh. It seems that I have found a way to stop your babble Severus. Why don't we sit were the pond is and talk some more.
Moving towards the lake, he takes a leaf and converts it to a blanket for us to sit on. I ask him how he went to work at the bar and he asks how it is to teach. We talk of nonsense but I am quite happy for it feels like a date! I feel so giddy that I am actually smiling! Which, I do not do in front of no one, not even Albus and he is like a father to me.
Do you dance Sev? May I call you that?
Sev. If I was a girl I would be squealing of pure happiness but the only thing I think I am doing is blushing madly! Thank goodness that it is night and he cannot see me that well.
Umm, no, well, my mother did teach me when I was small but that was a long time ago.
Standing up, Harry extends his arm and asks may I have this dance.
To what music are we going to dance to?
Taking my hand and helping me up he whispers into my ear, which makes me, feel this shiver run down my spine, in a good way. Trust me
Taking out his wand from his leg holster, he makes a hand movement with a musica encate [authors note: sorry I suck at making spell names] and this song starts playing, which shocks me cause the words are what I can say describe me.
I've been lonely
I've been waiting for you
I'm pretending and that's all I can do
The love I'm sending
Harry turns me around in circle and when I return he places both arms around my waist
Ain't making it through to your heart
You've been hiding, never letting it show
Always trying to keep it under control
You got it down and you're well
Its true I have been hiding from the world, from love. What am I feeling for this man that I just met for a night. I cannot stop looking into his eyes, the deepest green that I have ever seen and that speak so much without uttering a single word.
On your way to the top
But there's something that you forgot
What about love
Don't you want someone to care about you
What about love
Don't let it slip away
What about love
I only want to share it with you
You might need it someday
Looking at him and having his arms around me I feel so many emotions that I have not felt in my lifetime that it scares me but interest me at the same time.
I can't tell you what you're feeling inside
And I can't sell you what you don't want to buy
Something's missing you got to
Look back on your life
You know something here just ain't right
At this point we stop and we are just stare at each other. I am scared but at the same time wishing something to happen.
I cannot believe I am saying this but I am scared. I have never felt this and don't know what to do. What are you doing to me?
Shh, its okay Severus.
His face is getting closure. Is he… he is! At this very moment I have gotten my second kiss! In the background you can still hear the words of the song and I must say that the decision that I took to go into town was the best thing I have done in my life.
What about love
Don't you want someone to care about you
What about love
Don't let it slip away
What about love
I only want to share it with you
What about love [song: what about love artist: hearts]
Wow.
Laughs. Yes Sev, wow. I believe it is my time to go, the night is leaving and the day is starting to peak through the hills. I would love it if we met again Severus, how would you feel if next Friday night, I take you to dinner?
OH MY GOSH! He is asking me out! On a date! Y… yes! Um, I mean, yes, I would be honour. Does 6 soound good? My last class is at 5.
Friday at 6 then it is. Kiss. See you then Sev, can't wait.
Seeing his back, walking down the road till I couldn't see him no more, I recall the night and cannot believe myself. On my birthday, I met a guy who is the most gorgeous man I have ever seen, talk to me, and walk with me, KISS ME and ASK ME ON A DATE. I believe I will faint in a second or two. I cannot wait till Friday. My week is looking brighter then ever.
I just got back to my apartment that I recall this day and laugh. Today was the anniversary of me coming back to Britain that when I see a shadow approach the counter at the bar I work I take a double look at the guy who took a seat. I have never seen him in here nor around town so I stuck up a conversation and find out he is not a talking person. Intrigued at this man I move closer and find out that he is not a bad looking person. Yes, his nose is a bit too large for his face but the whiteness of his skin looks delicate and I am itching to touch. So I try to convince him to sit and talk with me and do we talk! Hours have passed and then we were told by my fellow tender that the shop is closing, that I didn't want the night … er, day to end. So I have told him: he told me his name is Severus, that if he would like to talk a walk. I was informed that he teaches at Hogwarts, so I decided to walk in that direction. When we reached the gates, I had to hold in my laughter. He was so nervous, like he didn't want to go and neither did I want him to leave that I decided that I like him, so, I kissed him. it was beautiful, he seems a bit new to this, I wonder if I am his first, which right now I am quite happy for that. After that and walking to my home I am ecstatic at this event and cannot wait for Friday. I wonder if he likes curry? I believe that our next encounter maybe beautiful and worthwhile.
Friday
He said he will be here at 6. I hope nothing happened. Through the whole week I was on pins and needle that I had to digest more calming potion than I ever had to keep myself in check. Albus even thought something was wrong with me; even if I said that I was okay he bugged me till I was forced to tell him. and what happiness he shown: I was hugged like if I were a little kid. But back to the present, here I am, awaiting my date and it is 6 o'clock and I am terrified. Did he forget? Did something happen? Did he change his mind? I am right now losing hope so fast that I do not let 3 seconds to past that I turn my back and head back to the school. Back to my empty rooms I am pathetic. I shouldn't have hoped.
Severus! Forgive me for being late!
He came! I turn so fast to see him that I lose my balance and was about to fall but he placed his arms around me to steady me that; ladies and gentleman, I Severus Snape, have blushed the most deepest red in my ENTIRE LIFE! And OH MY GOSH did he see this side of me.
Laugh. Red dose suit you Sev. Kiss. Shall we go? I was running late for I was waiting for the carriage that I rented. Taking hold of my hand he turns to me. Our carriage awaits us.
I am a loser. I should of asked for access to do a fire call to Sev, to inform him that I will be running a bit late. I hope he is still there. I don't want to mess this up. Here I am, in a carriage that I have rented ordering the driver to go as fast as he can to the gates of Hogwarts that when we were getting closure, there was a figure walking back up the dirt road to the school that I leap out of the carriage with out it fully stopping and ran up to that person that was no other then Sev himself. I explain my lateness, and it seems that he has forgiving me. I was so nervous during the ride to our destination that, without thinking I took hold of his hand and found out it was shaking as badly as mind.
Laughing.It seems that we are both nervous. I do hope you like curry. My brother's wife family owns this curry restaurant and they are the number one in the wizarding world.
Omg, I LOVE CURRY! I LOVE CURRY! Oops, I believe I said that a bit to loud. Sorry if I screamed, um, I do love curry.
It seems that harry is as nervous as me. We started talking about curry to pass the time we had tell arriving that it surprised me that it was a small restaurant, but when entering it was beautiful. A earthy colour wall and dim light room, with dark wood tables. A beauty I tell you. Harry took the lead of informing the host his name and directed us to our table, that it was one quite far from the others and in a dim light corner. Our own little getaway.
Laugh
What is it Sev?
Oh, um, nothing. I was just thinking of this like our own little getaway. Omg, did I just say that. Shit, can I get anymore embarrass then I am!
Laugh yes Sev, our own little getaway from the world. Just the two of us.
The night was a magical one. We ordered our favourite dishes and talked about our week and such that it felt natural to be together. I never been on a date before but I think I am most happy to have waited this long to meet this beautiful man. Harry, you do not know what you have done to me and I am falling heads over heels fast in love with you.
Sev, may I ask you something? It is now or never.
What is it.
Umm, I am quite nervous so I will just blurt it out, would you like to go out again and… and… consider me as a… boyfriend. I know that it is early to consider ourselves as a couple but I would really like for you to be my boyfriend.
Do you think someone can die of pure happiness. If so, then I would be the first one! I real boyfriend! I have never had one and had dreamed of the day.i am shocked right now that I only stare at him. SAY SOMETHING SEVERUS! SAY YES!
Y…YE…YES! YES I WOULD LOVE THAT! I was scared that you just wanted to have only this dinner and nothing more. I was like thinking the worse case scenario of what could happen and never thought about this. This is the first time that I have this and I don't know what to say, I mean I did say yes and that I am ecstatic and such but am I really who you want to have as a boyfriend? I know that I am not a looker, I was told that for so l..o..mmmm
I believed that my mouth had run away from me again that Harry had kissed me to stop my babbling.
I believe that I have found a way to stop the tick you have when you get nervous and am quite happy about it. Other then that, Sev to me you are the most beautiful man I have ever met and wouldn't change it for the world. I wish to continue this relationship that we have got going and further get to know you more. Would you like to talk a stroll around the village in the carriage?
Blush Yes, that would be wonderful.
Can I say that this night has been the most beautiful night that I have ever had? I am on a date, and actual DATE with a guy who likes me! We went around the village two times that we stopped infornt of the pond of Hogwarts like in our first walk we had. The carriage left us and there we were. Looking over the pond, holding each others hand and just enjoying the calm silence that had fallen onto us, that I was catch a bit off guard when Harry took the hand he held and spun me around while casting a spell to bring music to the silence of the night. And what a beautiful music it is.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Looking into his beautiful green eyes, I kept on repeating I don't want this night to end.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Even if it is our second date, through the whole week I couldn't stop thinking about Sev, how it feels so calm to be around him and how he makes me feel. I think that I am falling deeply in love with this man and I don't want this feeling to go.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
He spins me around two to three times more that when I return back he holds me closure. I can feel his breath on my neck and it sends this feeling of pure bliss down my back. I have never felt this and I don't want to lose it. If feels like a dream and that I would soon wake up alone in my chamber. Without thinking, I tighten my arms that are around Harry's neck when I think that he might be a imagination that I have made.
Sensing something in Sev's movement, I feel him tighten his hold on me that I do the same thing. It seems without words we are thinking the same, which it seems like a dream for both of us. This night was made for both of us and I don't want it to end. I don't want to leave.
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Even though the future is unexpected and is scary to step forward, I have made a choice and I only wish that Severus will follow it with me.
I know that we have not gone on many dates and we have just begun to be official, I don't want to lose you Severus. I know that the future is a mystery but I would be the happiest man alive if you would go forth to it with me. To the future together, over come any obstacle thrown our way but together. What I am trying to say is, would you do me the honour of accepting a courtship from me: Harry James Potter.
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I feel tears streaming down my face. Yes it is true that we have not known each other for a long time, but the time spent together is more then what I expected. Looking into his eyes when he finished what he had to say I see pure love, trust and fear at what my responds would be. I take both his arms and I close my eyes, trusting my heart to speak what my desire is, when I opened my mouth only one word came out
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Yes.
Author's note: I hope you guys like this story. It was fun writing it, I started to write and couldn't stop XP if there are a lot of request to continue it I will, if not then this is the end.