Kanda
I met you, I scowled.
I was not ready for your smile,
Not ready for your charm.
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I am cold to you because if my heart,
Feeling unnecessary things about you,
You hopeless martyr.
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Instead of swelling with love,
I recoil at your presence.
Not because of hate, but fear of what you do to me.
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This betrayer if mine,
This wretched heart will never free me of you,
I will always think of you.
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I sit alone as I have for years,
Quietly hiding in my own shell
No one has ever found me, yet you show up and. .
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And I fell in love with you,
You freaking object of aspiration,
How dare you disrupt my life.
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How dare you waltz into my life,
Dangle yourself in front of me,
Then go off with her!
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Why make me love you,
Then rip my feelings to pieces,
Feelings I had just come to terms with.
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Why do you not notice,
Notice my love for you,
Sappy nature and all.
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I can never be who I was,
Never again will a day go by that I don't think of you.
You're always with me.
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I will not be wayward,
My love holds strong.
Even as you hold her close.
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I wonder of you could possibly learn to love me,
But you have her,
No room for me.
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I know by now my thoughts will not reach you,
At least give me time to accept your feelings for her,
Before you talk to me again.
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Do you know how much I irritate myself over you?
How much I hate rejecting your smile,
Yet I have to or I'll confess to you.
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Maybe that's a good idea,
What would you say?
Scorn, hate, love me?
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Could you love me?
Possibly, maybe feel a little something,
However small, would be enough.
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I have resolved to do the unthinkable.
I, the one who always fights you,
Will say three unforgettable words to you.
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Hello there! Thank you for reading!
Happy Birthday Kanda!
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