Lyon France 1992
a young girl age of thirteen named anastasia linux comes from a wealthy family she was a true beauty one day she met a man named albert sykes a man around his mid thirties fair decent looking man tall big man one night he met this young girl and started having sexual relations with this young girl september 29th
1993 i was born a day i wished so deeply never happened my mother was fourteen when she had me of course she told the man who was my father his words to her was "give the child my name i will have no dealings with the child however i will make arrangements for him when he reaches the age of eighteen" as a
child growing up with the only mother i knew and had was not what i wanted and needed so desperately i often wondered if i had some type of disorder as to why mommy would ignore me pay no attention to me neglecting me mommy was always self centered one good thing mommy was a pro at was blaming me for
everything that happened we lived in a small apartment my step father has always threaten to throw me out of course i never paid any attention because i was only the age of five one night mommy has come home late i stayed up waiting for her to prepare dinner for us she walked in half dressed i knew she had been out with
men for only six i was smart enough to know right from wrong she looked as she had been badly beaten however that didn't stop her from yelling at me my heart suddenly started to race i walked over to the living room to watch television to try and relax abit mommy came into the living room glaring at me a deep dark
look in her eyes as pretty as she was she looked as she was to strike me my voice cracking trying to find the right words to speak "mommy? what's the matter?" mommy came and sat next to me stroking my hair "raphael i must speak with you" i bit on my lower lip and forced a smile "yes mommy what is it?" she walked
to the television set and turned it off i knew then she was serious about something "raphael mommy has start doing something with her life and i cannot do anything with you around" i swore my heart stopped i suddenly felt hot tears steaming down my cheek "mommy is going to leave you somewhere for a little bit
okay honey?" "but mommy.." "now raphael don't make this any harder then it has to be " "but mommy what did i do? i promise i will do anything you want please don't send me away" i cried "raphael i'm not the mother you want me to be i never was and i will never be it must be this way i hated you for holding me back on
opportunities that would have made me famous get over it" from that point on i hated my mother i felt my knees turned to stone my heart was at my throat this couldn't be happening i shut my eyes as tight as i could hoping that when i open them it would all be a dream but i had forgotten that i can only see one dream.