It's been almost three weeks since Troy broke up with me and I still don't know why. To be honest I still haven't got my head around it, I look and feel terrible. Sharpay says I look like death warmed up (I know right, always the charmer…)

I hardly eat anymore, I weighed my self the other day and I had lost almost a stone from my nine and a half stone old body, which was quite a shock but I don't care. I mean when I'm at school I hold my head high and make it look like I don't care and that I'm getting on with my life but all my real friends know that it's eating away at me inside…

Obviously I see Troy around school but he tries not to make eye contact. The other day in Chemistry Taylor said she saw Troy staring at the back of my head. I said he was probably day dreaming or something like that, he used to do that a lot…

URG! I always do that. I always find myself finding things that remind me of him. I wish I didn't do it but I can't help it. I still love him so much and not knowing why he broke up with me is tearing me apart. I try to tell myself that I don't love him anymore because he's a jerk for not even giving me a reason but then I can just look at him and know I still want a need to be with him…

"Gabby!" Taylor almost shouted in my ear and bought me out of my day dream.

"Shhh! We're in class." I turned around to see if anyone was looking at us.

Then I met his gaze. Those gorgeous eyes… Yes Troy's eyes those beautiful crystal clear blue eyes, the ones I had looked into so many times, when he told me he loved me for the first time, the eyes that I looked into when we first made love. Now all those memories smashed to pieces.

I saw him quickly look away from me, yeah like Sharpay was right that he still looked me… Pft! She was either trying to make me feel better or just playing a sick joke on me.

"This is gonna be a long day." I mumbled to myself.

At lunch I walked up to our usual table accompanied by a scurrying Kelsey at my side who had just spent he free period in the music room. She sat down next to Jason as soon as her little feet would take her. That only left a seat next to Troy at the end of the table. Yes Troy was there at our table. Even though I joined East High two years ago, I consider myself as "one of the gang" that has every right to sit with everyone else. They're not just his friends. I'm standing my ground, I can be just as stubborn as he can! That's the problem with the both of us, we are both as stubborn as each other. That usually being the cause of our "rare" fights. But today I'll swallow my pride and just sit down.

Chad looked over at me and gave me a sympathetic smile, I guess being the youngest of the group has its advantages.

As I sat down, I saw his tense up completely and his whole body stiffen. Jeez you don't have to be so obvious about it, I know you don't like me but you don't need to show it that badly do you? Then I saw him start pushing his food around the plate. Great so I disgust him that much I put him off his food?

"So we're going to look at colleges for next year this summer. What do you think?" Tay asked trying to lighten the mood. She must have felt the tension too.

"Well my parents have invited Zekey and his parents to out villa in Barbados for the summer, so that's what we'll be doing." Sharpay said with a gleaming smile.

"Yeah, Kelsey and I are going down to my parents Cabin down by the lakes for a couple of days then I'm going to Florida to see my Grandparents." Said Jason smiling, he loved his grandparents, mainly because he got away with murder with them.

"And I have to go to my cousins christening in Canada… Yawn." Added Kelsey with a unimpressed look on her face. For the shy Kelsey we first knew, she's really come out of her shell.

"Gabs, Troy?" Taylor said. Did she have to?

"I've got nothing planned." Is said with evident disappointment and sadness in my voice.

You see Troy and I had planned to spend the whole summer together. And we had been planning every day carefully since April.

"Me neither." Troy answered. I secretly hoped he was feeling down about it just as I was, but I doubted it.

"Well why don't we all go on a road trip?" Chad suggested.

Yeah! We could go in Troy's truck, me, you Gabby and Troy." Taylor said beaming to Chad.

"What that heap of crap? It wouldn't get us five miles without breaking down!" Gosh Gabby where did that come from? Bitter much?

I knew I shouldn't of said it. That truck is like a baby to Troy and deep down I could see he knew I didn't mean it. After all when we were together I used to love going in Troy's truck. Don't ask me why, I just did and he knew that all too well.

"Well if so, we can get you to just look at it and it would crap itself and run as far away from you as possible!" Troy said bitterly, like I had just insulted his family or something.

"Stupid! For one, that made no sense and two, cars don't run idiot!" I snarled back.

"Well then brainiac, do you say a car "runs" on fuel or "drives" on fuel?" Troy snapped back quickly.

"Ugh!" I almost screamed in his face he was pissing me off so much.

"Hahaha, frustrated 'coz you know I'm right? Not so smart now huh nerd."

Ok he had really touched a nerve there and I could tell he regretted saying it as soon as the words came out of his mouth, he knew how much things like that bothered me after all the years I got bullied about it. Everyone at the table was silent waiting for my reaction, I even see a glimmer in Shar's eye, I could tell she was waiting for me to slap him.

"Asshole." I said in almost a whisper. Not that I was afraid to say it out loud to his face. It's just if I said it any louder I knew I wouldn't of been able to hide the lump that had formed in my throat. And everyone knew it was for that reason. Even Troy, hence the reason he didn't say anything back.

"Ok then, so you two coming?" Said Chad, happily as ever. I wasn't sure if he was oblivious to the fact of the matter or just trying to lighten to mood again.

"I'm going" I said. It sounded fun and I wasn't going to let Troy ruin a summer that I could make great, with or without him.

"Me too" It almost seemed like a competition when he answered with such force as if to say "Well if she's going then I am too, just to show she cant out do me." Pathetic really.

But as soon as he said that I didn't want to go as much. But like I said I'm not letting him ruin my summer. And boy was it going to be a summer to remember.