Author's Note: Yay! I'm actually posting a fanfiction! Feels like it's been years! I thought I'd give Axel/Roxas a shot. Let me know how I do. Constructive criticism is much appreciated. Haters are not. I enjoy hearing things you liked and things I could improve on!

WARNING! THIS IS A RATED M FANFICTION FOR A REASON! I'm nor sure exactly what will come up since I'm writing this a chapter at time but I plan on their being sexual content. Between two boys. Because if you haven't noticed this is an Axel/Roxas story meaning that there will be male/male boylove yaoi going on. So be prepared! Enjoy and please review!

Time Has Brought Your Heart To Me

Chapter 1: The Pieces of My Heart Are Missing You

Red is always the first thing I see.

It's too bright to be compared to blood. The burning red is more like leaping flames. Strands of it slip like silk through my grasping fingers as my attention is drawn down to the brilliant green eyes.

The green is wild. It blazes with the sad lost desire... no need to feel something. Anything. Love. I know that need. I understand it. I experience it too.

My fingertips slide past the struggling green eyes to the tattoos beneath them. They're the tears he will never cry. The pain he will never truly feel. Upside down teardrops.

Smooth lips curl into a wicked smile. They touch my lips and jaw and throat. My eyes flutter shut. His mouth presses a hot kiss to my ear and he exhales my name like a whispered prayer. 'Roxas'.

A smile touches my lips and I shift against him. My pale, bare skin slides erotically against his. His breath stutters and he mimics my movement repeatedly until our naked hips are grinding together.

I arch against him. He nips at my neck before pressing his mouth to mine. When he pulls back he draws his name from my lips as a soft cry of pleasure. 'Axel'.

I want him. I need him. Neither of us can truly feel any emotion but if we did have hearts I know what we'd feel for each other. Love.

I wanted so badly to love Axel.

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My eyes fluttered open and I reached out to smack my alarm clock into silence. With a sleepy groan I rolled out of bed. Red and green were imprinted on my eyelids. I saw flashes of the bright colors every time I blinked.

I'd had another dream about Axel last night.

I stumbled into my bathroom. The tile floor was cold beneath my feet as I glanced at myself in the mirror. Bright blue eyes looked back at me. My blond hair was a messy disarray. My cheeks were slightly flushed, a lingering effect of my dream.

I started up the shower, slipped out of the black boxers I'd been sleeping in, and stepped under the stream of hot water. The warmth woke me up fully right away. My thoughts turned back to my dream. Axel.

For as long as I can remember I've always known that I lived a life before this one. The memories were confusing when I was younger but they became clearer as I grew older. By the time I was a teenager most of the memories made sense.

I was sixteen now and not a day passed that I didn't think about my former life. I had a heart now. I could love Axel fully and completely. I did love Axel, so much that it constantly tortured me, because Axel wasn't here. I had yet to meet Axel in this life. I missed him so much that it hurt and I was always on the lookout for him.

I've met other people that had been in my last life. Sora was my twin brother here. Namine was my little sister. Demyx was my best friend. Zexion was Demyx's sort-of-boyfriend. Riku was Sora's best friend. Marluxia, Larxene, and Luxford were a group of seniors who'd formed a band with Demyx. A rather fail band that lacked a main singer. Hayner, Pense, and Olette were a trio of best friends that I hung out with from time to time. Xenmas was my principle. Vexen was my chemistry teacher. Seifer was the school bully. But no Axel.

Out of all these people that I knew only four of us were both burdened and gifted with knowledge of our past life. Me, Demyx, Namine, and Riku. The four of us understood each other. We understood each others suffering.

Riku and I hurt the most I think. I don't know which is worse. Not knowing where the guy you loved was, or if he even existed in this world, or having him right in front of you and completely uninterested. I personally thought I had the worst end of the deal. Then again, I hadn't experienced what Riku was so I couldn't be sure. I hoped Sora would come around eventually. Riku was his soul mate in the last life we lived and still was in this life. Sora just hadn't realized it yet. The poor guy still acted like he was totally straight.

"ROXAS!" I jumped several inches when my twin brother burst into the bathroom, interrupting my thoughts. "What's taking so long? I need to peeeee!"

I sighed and switched off the water. "Sorry, you know how I love my long showers."

"But it's almost time for school and I really gotta pee!" Sora whined childishly. "And I mom said to kick you out of the shower anyways. We're going to be late. She already left to take Namine to school."

Namine went to the same high school as us. She was a Freshman, two grades behind Sora and I. I usually drove her to school but on the days that it looked like we were going to be late my mom would take her.

I rolled my eyes and wrapped a fluffy towel around my waist. "There you go. The bathroom is all yours."

"Thanks." He beamed cheerfully. I headed out of the bathroom. Sora wasn't lying, he had to go pretty bad because he had his pants unzipped and his junk out before I'd even closed the door behind me. I chuckled to myself. Oh Sora. My lovable dorky twin.

It only took me a matter of minutes to get dressed and ready for school. I was used to running late. It seemed like either Sora or me always ended up doing something that kept us from being on time. Today my extra long shower had been a setback followed by Sora's inability to find his other shoe. When Sora finally climbed into the passenger seat of my little red Mitsubishi Eclipse I took off before he'd even fully closed the door.

Thanks to my reckless driving we arrived at school with a minute to spare and sprinted for our shared first period class, chemistry, with Vexen as our crazy teacher. I slid into my seat next to Demyx right as the bell rang.

"Hey Roxas!" he greeted me with a bright smile. "Cutting it close today."

My best friend was a bit of an oddball. He had an interesting part mullet, part fohawk hair cut and his clothes were usually a mismatch of several clashing styles. Add his dorky personality to the mix and he certainly stood out.

I shrugged. "Don't I always?"

He laughed. "Very true." His voice dropped to a hushed tone as Vexen began the days potentially disastrous demonstration. "Are you coming to watch the band practice today?"

I shrugged. "Have you found a singer yet?"

Demyx pouted. "No..."

I rolled my eyes. "Have you even come up with a permanent band name?"

His shoulders slumped a little. "The guys didn't like any of mine. I wanted to be the Radical Turnips but they wouldn't go for it. So we're currently Fading Blue but Larxene doesn't like it much and we all know that if she isn't in agreement it's not going to stick."

I nodded sympathetically. Larxene was pretty cool but sometimes she could be a viscous bitch. Nobody dared defy her when she was in one of her 'moods' so she almost always got her way. I had to admit, she could be scary.

I noticed Demyx eying me nervously and biting his lip. It was a look I was familiar with. It meant Demyx thought he'd heard something that could lead us to finding Axel. He was always nervous to talk to me about it though because so far every single time had turned out to be a crushing disappointment. "Enough with distracting me. I can tell when something is up. What's the rumor this time?"

"There's a new kid that started today. Crazy spiked red hair and unnaturally green eyes. They say..." he hesitated and gave me a nervous half hopeful look. "They say he has tattoos on his face. I haven't heard of anyone that knows his name yet but you have to admit that it sounds exactly like Axel."

I tried to swallow down the surge of hope that burned through my throat in a hopeful whisper. "Maybe it's him?"

Demyx watched me sadly. "I hope so Roxas. I hate seeing you so lonely."

"I'm sorry," I said softly. "It's just... now that I have a heart I can't help but love him. And it kills me that he's not here for me to love. I miss him Dem. I miss him so much it tears me apart."

"I know. I can see it in your eyes every day."