It wasn't a dream , or a nightmare Dean knew that it's over now , and there's no way to see his baby brother again, that was it .
And it wasn't a peacefull farewell, like it seemed, seeing his little brother throwing himself right to the hell even if his brother seemed.. he really doesn't know how can he express that..!,because Sammy opened his arms like he was ready to fly or something he wasn't afraid at all,even he knew that he was going to hell,Dean didn't know if that makes Sammy brave or suicider when he controlled his own body again , and that which make it harder for Dean because he knew then, that one was his Sammy who throw himself to hell not anyone else… Dean couldn't believe it that Sam 's now in hell and he knew what the hell it 's , Sam chose hell just to save the world he sacrificed himself without thinking, and he knew that he was going right to the hell , but didn't escaped or even scared his eyes seemed different that look the last look and his last words was carved in Dean's heart and mind for this, Dean was broken ,but proud
It has been few Days since he went to lisa's place and he had to look for a job.
Of course he worked in a workshop near to lisa's place .
Yeah , that's what he likes to do or liked,and what he really good at…
It was a Tuesday , Dean woke up early because of another dream.
Weird one as usual , he saw a beautiful garden , and there were many children playing, but there was only one sitting alone and crying, Dean knew him and walked to me .
But he didn't know why he didn't call his name loud..?
He came closer to the boy and said:
What's wrong with you little boy..!
Sam looked at him sadly and said :
I can't find my big bro
and started to cry :
i want my bro , he's all i got
Dean was speechless for a minute. He couldn't say a word , but in his mind he said "yeah boy , you are what i got too "
Dean gasped and tried to smile : it's okay , he 'll come for you soon , I know that .
Little Sam sobbing : are you sure..?
Dean with a sad smile :yeah little guy , I'm sure
Little Sam : why do you look sad ..?
Are you lost like me…?
Dean : yeah , I'm lost without him too
Little Sam : who is he ?
Dean said sadly with a broken voice : my bro
Little Sam smiling with his teary eyes: Don't be sad , he 'll come for you.
Dean with a depressed voice: I'm not so sure about it .
Little Sam : I love my big bro I really do but I just wanted to catch that rabbit.
Dean : a rabbit , do you like rabbits..?
Little Sam : yeah, it's just I can't find anything to give to my big bro in his birthday , i don't know now i lost him and the rabbit too,
may be i'll give him my red car , he really likes Cars.
Dean : but that's your favourite ..!
Little Sam with a big smile : I know , but he's my favourite too .. but how did you know that it's my favourite..!
Dean gasped : can I hug you shortstuff..?
Little Sam smiled and said :yeah , I think you can
Dean hugged little Sammy and held him for a long time , and Sammy seemed comfortable with it…
Dean couldn't help it , he couldn't stop his tears when they ran away from his sad eyes .. he whispered : I miss you Sammy I really do .
But then he heard a shot , and then he felt that little Sam got heavier than after his hands were tied around Dean's neck, they fell heavily down , he found his little boy falling down in his arms, but he held him and tried to wake him up but he knew that he was so late he's gone now, Dean screaming : Sam.. Don't do this to me again…No Sammy no …don't Do this to me...please …Sam ..oh my little bro .
Then he was up , looking around him where 's the garden and his baby bro, just to find lisa beside him on the bed.
Then knew that was just another dream or nightmare but he wouldn't call it a nightmare , as it's where he always sees his baby again ,and that was the only way he could, just in his memories or weird dreams