Yes, it's kind of short, but it's a one-shot based on how I was feeling at the time. Not very good lol

Still not at my best but whatever, here it is :) Oh and btw I'm sort of talking from Sasuke's point of view :P

Enjoy!

I wonder if you feel like I do when you don't see me.

Like you're whole fucking world has crumbled. I know you're home. I've seen you go inside.

I feel like such a stalker, but...what can I say? I love you.

It's mostly anger that I'm feeling. Anger for the way you walk by my house, or find time to hang out withother friends. Not me.

It gets me so frustrated. You always have to go somewhere! Why? Am I not important anymore? You embarrassed to be with me or something?

What the fuck did I do?

Why are you doing this to me? Don't you know how fucking hard it is for me to last this long without even a smile? Maybe you do. Or maybe you're so preoccupied with the rest of your life that you don't even think about me that much anymore.

But when you finally see me, "I have to go somewhere in fifteen minutes so I just came to say hello." That doesn't make things better! That makes it even worse! But I can't blame you for that I suppose. You just wanted to say hello. Just.

Sometimes it's easier. When I'm distracted. But there's always that little thought in the back of my head screaming and crying out for you.

But theres nothing there to ease the longing. No. I don't want it...I don't want to have this feeling ever again. Maybe I should dump you; make you feel how I did.

Would you be happy then, huh? But no, I couldn't...could I?

Could I really throw away everything because of this stupid feeling of lonliness? I...no, I suppose I wouldnt have enough strength for that.

You know, I used to. I used to be the boss of my feelings, I didn't let a boy mess with them and screw with my heart.

You were the only exception to that rule, the only one to claw right inside there and take hold of it, squeezing and tearing at it until it became a bloody mess on your hands. Ugh I just can't take it!

Why do you do this to me, huh? You're making me repeat myself! You know all this shit already! I give the fuck up!

...I still love you though you bastard. I hate myself for it, but it's the truth.

What's your truth...huh? I want some excuse!

"I was busy."

"Doing what?"

"You know...stuff"

"Yes, stuff. Right"

"But I'm here now."

How do I respond to that? 'I love you and I'm sorry'? It's so difficult to say that when you're talking bullshit.

Am I too clingy? Is that why you distanced yourself from me? I'm sorry! I wont do it again. Please, forgive me.

And there we are again.

"It's fine, I missed you too." You missed me. Is that an emptiness in your eyes? Are you lying? "What's wrong? Why are you crying?."

Are you lying to me? I just don't know. And that's what hurts the most. The fact that no matter what you do to me, how much you make me fucking hurt so bad inside. You always make me forgive you.

"It's nothing", I'll say and hug you like nothing ever happened, kiss you like what you did didn't hurt me.

No. This whole thing is unfair. It's unfair to blame not seeing you on only you. Unfair and I'm a horrible person. I'm sorry for doing this, I'm so stupid.

"So how are you?," you'll ask me.

"Great, I had alot to do! I didn't notice you were gone." Bullshit. That's the only thing I noticed and It hurt so much and you are so clueless.

"That's good. I really did miss you."

"Oh."

"What?."

"Nothing at all. Let's talk about something else."

"Okay."

I'm barely listening. Is this really okay?

It'll have to be. For now.

Thanks for reading.