It was three in the morning and the boys of Big Time Rush were asleep well two out of the four were. Logan was out with Camille and Carlos was waiting up for him, why you may ask? It was simple…well kind of simple you see Logan and Carlos had been in a relationship for the better part of a year and the only ones who knew about it was Kendall and James to everyone else they were just best friends and band mates so there weren't any questions asked when Logan and Camille started dating. Logan had always explained it to Carlos as Camille being his public arm candy meaning there weren't any true romantic feelings involved, at first Carlos was reluctant to agree with the circus that was going to be his relationship but agreed only because he was madly in love with Logan. As the months went by Logan did a great job at managing both of the relationships but after a while it was like Logan forgot about Carlos the only time they would see each other would be when they were at rehearsals or the rare times at the apartment and when they would see each other it was only for a quick fuck with no love or emotion shown from Logan. Carlos knew it was only going to be a matter of time before Logan left him he could feel it he could feel Logan slipping away from him their love leaving the relationship…if you could call what they had a relationship. Logan had been staying out late with Camille sometimes he would come home around three or four and there were times that he didn't come home at all, and that's what worried Carlos how could he work on their crumbling relationship if Logan wasn't there? Carlos sighed as he looked at the clock he figured Logan probably wasn't coming home so he decided to try to get some sleep well that was until his stomach decided to turn which made Carlos run for the toilet as soon as Carlos turned the light on and made it to the toilet he expelled all of his stomach content. After about ten minutes of vomiting Carlos laid on the bathroom floor the cool tile felt good on his overheated skin and soon darkness took over Carlos' vision but he welcomed the sleep, but not long after Carlos was awoke by someone picking him up Carlos cracked his eyes open to see Logan carrying him back to their room.
"Logie?" Carlos asked
"Hey 'Litos I didn't mean to wake you up" Logan said as he laid Carlos down on his bed
"Where have you been?" Carlos asked as he held on to Logan's neck
"I was out with Camille" Logan said as he removed Carlos' arms
"You've been out with her every night this week" Carlos said sadly
"I know and I'm sorry" Logan said as he changed into his night clothes he looked over at Carlos and frowned when he saw Carlos wiping his eyes as he rolled on to his side Logan sighed and crawled into bed with Carlos
"What are you doing?" Carlos asked as he tried to steady his voice
"I'm holding my boyfriend" Logan said as he pulled Carlos close to him "Is that ok?"
"Y-Yeah" Carlos whimpered
"What's wrong?" Logan asked
"I-It's nothing Logie let's just go to sleep" Carlos said
"No you just whimpered something's wrong now tell me what it is" Logan said as he sat up and looked at the back of Carlos' head he heard him sigh and followed him with his eyes as he also sat up
"It's j-just you haven't called me your boyfriend in almost six months" Carlos said as he played with his fingers
"I didn't think I would have to remind you that you're my boyfriend Carlos" Logan said in a somewhat snippy voice
"Well sometimes it's nice to be reminded Logan! I mean do you remember the last time we spent some time together?" Carlos asked with a heated voice
"Right now!" Logan shot back
"Right now doesn't count Logan!" Carlos countered
"Why are you being so hard to get along with?" Logan asked as he got out of the bed
"I'm not being hard to get along with" Carlos said
"Yes you are…I knew I should have just stayed with Camille tonight" Logan said as he started walking towards his bed
"Might as well you practically live with her" Carlos said
"What was that?" Logan asked as he spun around on his heels and looked at Carlos
"I said you might as well you practically live with her!" Carlos said as he looked Logan dead in the eye
"Oh so that's the reason why your having a your little temper tantrum is because of Camille" Logan said
"No Logan this isn't a temper tantrum this is me being pissed off and hurt!" Carlos said as he got out of bed
"Pissed off I can understand but hurt? Why are you hurt?" Logan asked
"Because I'm losing MY fucking boyfriend! I'm losing the person that I love the most and there's nothing I can do about it!" Carlos said as tears streamed down his face which unfazed Logan
"Carlos your being overdramacted your not losing me" Logan said
"Yes I am and you can't see it…you can't see that we're drifting apart because you have Camille you can't see the pain that I'm going through because you're not here! Y-You don't see the stress I'm going through trying to wrack my brain for ways to fix us to fix our relationship before we lose it completely" Carlos said as more tears rolled down his face
"Carlos your making it sound worse than it really is" Logan said
"No I'm not Logan you can't see it because you have Camille but I can I can see the way you look at her…i-it's the way you use to look at me" Carlos said
"Carlos I still look at you like that" Logan said
"No you don't…do you realize this is the longest you've looked me in the eyes in the last six months?" Carlos asked
"Really?" Logan asked almost chuckling at the thought of it
"Yeah really…I'm losing you Logie and it scares me to the point of where I'm physically sick…that's why you found me in the bathroom" Carlos said as he looked at Logan
"Carlos I don't know what to tell you" Logan said
"You never know what to tell me anymore" Carlos said
"Well what do you want me to do Carlos?" Logan asked
"Make changes" Carlos whimpered
"Make changes? What kind of changes?" Logan asked
"Oh I don't know how about having only one relationship…that might work" Carlos said as he placed his hand on his stomach hoping it would calm down
"Carlos you act like it's so easy for me to break up with one of you but-"Logan said until Carlos cut in
"Break up with one of us? No Logan there is no breaking up with one of us it's you breaking up with her! I was your boyfriend first!" Carlos said as he walked closer to Logan
"Carlos you don't understand things have changed…feelings have changed" Logan said as he looked at Carlos who was now beet red in the face
"Of course fucking things have changed! Before I had my fucking boyfriend to myself not sharing him with someone else!" Carlos said almost to the point of screaming
"Carlos stop being so selfish!" Logan said well that was until Carlos punched him in the mouth
"SELFISH?! YOU THINK I'M BEING FUCKING SELFISH? FUCK YOU LOGAN YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT I GO THROUGH EVERY FUCKING DAY WHEN YOU LEAVE TO GO BE WITH HER! I'M THE ONE YOU'VE BEEN SEEING FOR ALMOST A YEAR AND I'M THE ONE BEING SELFISH? FUCK YOU LOGAN IF YOU WANT TO BE WITH HER SO FUCKING BAD THEN GO WE'RE DONE!" Carlos screamed to the top of his lungs with tears rolling down his face
"You just hit me" Logan said stunned he couldn't believe it Carlos had really hit him
"Get the fuck out" Carlos said through gritted teeth
"Carlos-"Logan tried
"I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!" Carlos screamed as he began to shake he couldn't tell if it was from the rage he had built up inside himself or if it was the fact of him getting ready to vomit. Logan looked at Carlos but decided to leave as he opened the door he was met with Kendall and James coming out of their room with wide eyes he huffed past them and went out of the apartment. As James walked into Carlos' room he saw him standing in the middle of the room with a blank stare.
"'Litos you ok?" James asked as he stood in front of Carlos
"I-I hit him" Carlos said as he looked at James
"You hit Logan?" Kendall asked as he walked further into the room
"H-he said I was being selfish and-and I just lost it" Carlos said as he looked down at his hand
"What were you guys fighting about?" Kendall asked
"What we always fight about" Carlos said as he sat down on his bed
"Camille?" James asked
"Yeah…I told him I wanted him to break up with her and he-he said that things had changed I was like yeah I know and then he said I was being selfish because I wanted him to break up with her" Carlos said as he held his head in his hands
"I'm sorry 'Litos maybe you guys just need a break from each other" Kendall said as he sat down beside Carlos
"A break? Kendall he practically left me without breaking up with me! There is no break I've lost my boyfriend" Carlos said
"You broke up with him" James said
"What?" Carlos asked
"Before we came out of our room we heard you in here screaming and you broke up with him" James said
"It doesn't matter I just saved him the time" Carlos said as he rubbed his temples
"Are you getting a headache?" Kendall asked him, Carlos simply nodded
"I'll get you some Advil" James said as he walked out of the bedroom, Kendall looked over at Carlos who had yet to remove his face from his hands
"I know this is a bad time but are you still getting sick?" Kendall asked and received his answer when he saw Carlos' shoulders tense up
"Y-Yeah" Carlos whimpered he knew what was getting ready to happen…you see Logan may have not been paying attention to his boyfriend but Kendall and James had they had noticed how much weight Carlos had dropped within a couple of weeks and how much he had been throwing up, needless to say they were both worried.
"Tomorrow you're going to the doctor" Kendall said
"Kendall it's just my nerves" Carlos said as he glanced up at Kendall
"No it's not and we both know that" Kendall said
"We both know what?" James asked as he walked back in with a bottle of water in his hand
"That Carlos is sick and it isn't just his nerves" Kendall said
"Guys I'm telling you what it is" Carlos said a little too loudly he winced at the loudness of his voice which in turn made James hand him the Advil and water he took it with quickness
"Carlos we know you don't want to go to the doctor but we want to make sure nothing is wrong" James said as he sat on the other side of Carlos
"I know nothing is wrong with me" Carlos said
"You don't know that for sure but if you are right and it's just nerves then you can rub it in our faces" Kendall said with a smile
"I do like it when I'm right" Carlos said with a small smile
"So you'll go?" James asked
"Yes I'll go" Carlos said he shed a few tears when James hugged him it had been so long since he felt contact like that he was just overwhelmed. When he pulled back from the hug James noticed the tears
"Hey what's wrong?" James asked as he wiped the tears away
"I-It's been so long since I've been hugged…I-I don't know tonight has just been very emotional" Carlos said as he wiped away some tears that had fell
"Well why don't we go to bed and we'll talk about it in the morning" Kendall said
"Ok" Carlos said trying to hide the sadness in his voice
"Well come on lets go to bed" James said as he grabbed Carlos' hand he looked up at James with confusion
"You're sleeping with us tonight" Kendall said as he stood up and popped his back
"I-I am?" Carlos asked
"We'll explain everything tomorrow ok? For now let's go to sleep" James said as he pulled Carlos up by his hand and pulled him into his and Kendall's room he looked at queen sized bed and wondered
"Where am I sleeping?" Carlos asked
"In the bed with us" James said
"Can I be in the middle?" Carlos asked
"Sure you can" Kendall said with a smile…after everyone was settled in bed James turned off the bed side lamp
"Night 'Litos night Kenny" James said
"Night Jamie night 'Litos" Kendall said
"Night Jay night Kenny" Carlos said he laid there for a few minutes before he spoke again "Thanks for being here for me guys…it really means a lot"
"You don't have to thank us Carlos we love you and your there for the people that you love" Kendall said as he scooted closer to Carlos
"Yeah I agree with what Kendall said…plus we had to find a way to get you into bed" James said with a giggle
"Oh shut up Jay" Carlos said laughing god it felt so good to laugh again he was smiling again and it felt so good
"Ok guys but seriously we need to sleep" Kendall said
"Ok Kenny" James and Carlos said together
Carlos had a million things running through his mind like what was he going to do about the Logan situation? Why did Kendall and James want him to sleep with them in their bed? What did they have to explain to him in the morning? Carlos sighed quietly and closed his eyes he would deal with it all in the morning.
Ok so I've had this idea in my head for a really long time but just didn't know how to write it the way I wanted too, so I hoped you liked it I'm thinking about maybe turning it into a chapter story so please give me some reviews and input :) Thanks!