chapter 1- taking

I wasn't really ready for that.

I think he wasn't really ready eaither.. and now I only see him with that girl. I think he does know how much it hurts me. And even if he doesn't, he will still pay for it.

i remeber walking over to his. i remeber the route. He will understand my pain when I amfinished with him. well, i hope it gets past his thick skull. he is probably too ignorant to realise that people have feelings, and make mistakes. he will, but by then, it would have been to late. too late...

he doesn't want me to talk to him in public. That hurts the most out of everything. I wanted him to love me forever.

I was so fucking dumb. I can't believe I thought that.

anyway.. I am actually thinking, now I am here... how am I supposed to get in his house?..

I haven't really thought this through.. i only thought about what I would do after I took him. well, hope fully this will be easier.. His dad installed an alarm. i remeber that..

does he like someone else? i'll question him into telling me.

well, somehow I managed to get on his roof.. He is so beautifull when he sleeps..

so i'm know in his room.. he left his window open. t's almost like he asked me to do this too him.

i've got all my equipment here, chloroform and a rag. it may hurt him, but this was the only reliabel way i could think of..

i saw his eye lids flutter.. oh shit... he's going to wake up..

he looks straight up at me his eyes adjusting. surprisingly,he didn't make a sound.

'Harriet?... what are you doing here?.. it's..so early..' he said it like i was his mother 'shh.. shh connor. i'm here.. lets just enjoy this together.. okay?' I smiled at him. it was like old times.. well, if he played along, which he seemed to be. he was smiling too.

I decided to play around with him for a little bit. if he complied.

He sat up and scooted over so i could sit next to him. 'what are doing here anyway?..' he asked 'just wanted to see you?' I sat down beside him. i was wearing my little blue dress, and my fluffy socks, i kicked off my shoes ( and my orange bag with my equipment.. and other essentials)my dad is going staight to london in the morning.. we can sepnd all morning together.. ill just say to him im not feeling up for it.. ive missed you sweetie.. so much... i'm sorry i ignored you.. i was just upset..' the tears started to from in my eyes ive missed you too...'we lied down togeter, and he wrapped his arms around my waist, and stroked my hair. 'you know.. i think about you everyday. i cried alot about you.. and im really really sorry.' connor mumbled into my hair. ' tears started to form in my eyes 'Me too...' connor hugged me tighter. 'I'm sorry too' i felt somthing poking me in the butt. my eyes widended 'I want you so badly...' I smiled.. this is all going perfectly.. well, i'm actually surpriesed i got this far 'can I.. touch it?' i asked inocently. 'fuck yes..please..'

i couldnt tell if he was tierd or horny. probably both. but still... this was great.