Author's Note: Woo, my second story is making it's way up! You should know that yes, this is a multi-chapter story, and that I don't know how quickly I will get all the chapters up...I've only written two so far, but I might be able to get the others all written today, as well...who knows...

Disclaimer: In my head I own Sherlock, but as that isn't legal ownership, the characters still belong to the BBC...damn. Song is "Don't Speak" by No Doubt.

WARNING: Does contain some swear words...not bad ones, but some people are sensitive.

Chapter One

You and Me

When the cab pulled up outside 221B Baker Street, the cabbie was more than happy to be getting rid of his two passengers who had been sniping at each other the whole ride. The short, angry blonde man jumped out of the cab and stomped towards the door, shouting that the tall dark-haired one could pay the fare, though his exact words were "you pay for once, you cheap bastard!". The man that remained in the cab sighed, but got out of the cab, tugging his wallet out of an inner pocket of his long, dramatic coat and pulling fifty quid, which was three times the fare, out of it, handing it to the cabbie before striding off, calling for him to "keep the change". Not ready to look a gift horse in the mouth, the cabbie quickly took off, all the while wondering about the strange duo, and thanking whoever was looking out for him that they were out of his cab.

The duo in question, Dr John 'short, blonde angry man' Watson and Consulting Detective Sherlock 'tall dark-haired one' Holmes, were still arguing when they opened the door to the living room of their flat, having ignored their landlady, Mrs Hudson, when they walked past her on the way in.

"I am just so sick of the shit you put me through, Sherlock!" John yelled at his flatmate, colleague, friend, "why can you never think of the effect your actions and words will have on me?!"

Sherlock watched the doctor passing in front of him with a slight frown marring the otherwise smooth surface of his brow.

"I still don't understand why you are so upset, John," he said, the calm, condescending tone he had been using to speak to his friend the whole time, which seemed to make John angrier and angrier the more they spoke, not that Sherlock noticed, "All I did was point out that if her mother didn't lose weight she was going to die in the next three years. I thought she would have been more grateful for the information, she has time to reverse it now, after all"

John stared at Sherlock for a second in complete disbelief before completely descending into a red haze.

"Sherlock, you complete and utter ARSE!" He raged, "I have had enough of you and your absolutely stupid behaviour! Harry and I have just started to get along again, and then you go and insult her new girlfriend! I was actually really hoping to get along with this one, then maybe Harry and I could…. and you had to go and ruin it for me, do you ever think of anyone but yourself? Do you even care that you are ruining my life?!"

Sherlock frowned in confusion.

"If it makes you less angry, John, I am sorry," He said slowly and monotonously, as if trying to calm a rabid animal, which he sort of was, but it wasn't really working. In fact, it seemed to make it worse, "of course I care if you are upset, and as for ruining your life, that woman had a history of adultery, I was doing Harry a favour by getting ri—"

The rest of Sherlock's words were cut off by the introduction of John's fist to his jaw. His head snapped back and he felt his vertebrae pop and crack a little at the abrupt motion. While John managed to stay on his feet, even when his momentum carried him a little too far forward, Sherlock, who had never expected to be punched in the face by his blogger, fell completely backwards and banged his head on the doorframe.

He sat dazed for a moment then gingerly sat up before lifting his arm and sifting the long elegant fingers of his right hand through the thick curls at the back of his head, near the crown. He found the impact site and immediately felt a gash in the skin. He couldn't tell how deep it was, but felt that it would more than likely need stitches. His left hand was cradled to his chest, as he had landed on it in his fall and it was throbbing, but because of the blow to is head, he couldn't tell whether it was just a severe sprain, or a fracture. The Consulting Detective knew he had probably had a concussion, which would explain his fuzzy thoughts and tiredness. Pulling his fingers away from the cut, knowing that the prodding was only making it worse, Sherlock tried to catalogue his injuries. Bleeding bump on the back of his head, check, split lip from encountering John's fist, check, sprained or broken wrist from encountering the floor, check. 'Anything else?' he thought to himself, but quickly decided that he would leave the diagnosis to his doctor…once said doctor had forgiven him for whatever it was he had done wrong…

John had noticed Sherlock's head connect with the doorframe, but through the rage he didn't hear the sickening duet of the cracking sounds his head and wrist made. He didn't notice Sherlock's fingers come away from his hair red, and while he noticed him cradling his other hand to his chest, the idea that it was seriously injured didn't cross his mind. All he really saw was the pain in his flatmate's eyes, and his split lip. John felt a kind of grim satisfaction that he was the one to have put them there. Usually his rage would die off after one of his fists had flown, but this time it just kept building.

And he just couldn't bring himself to care.

In John's mind, Sherlock deserved this, no matter how much logic argued against that, he felt sure that the man sitting slumped on the ground before him was the reason is whole life was a mess, and that made him mad.

John stood towering over Sherlock's long-limbed form on the ground, and glared down at the man he had once protected, and who now seemed to need protection from him. Not that the Consulting Detective was going to get it.

Sherlock backed off a little at the pure malice that burned in his friend's eyes. He truly did not understand what had made John so angry with him. He had never seen the doctor as enraged as he was at that moment. And Sherlock was nervous. Not that he would ever admit it, of course, but his friend was terrifying when he got rubbed the wrong way. Sherlock didn't know what to do, and he hated not knowing.

John stared down at Sherlock for a long moment, noting with a feeling of satisfaction mixed with a tiny bit of guilt that there was a gleam of fear in Sherlock's eyes. He was sick of the man in front of him. He was tired of giving and never receiving. He was sick and tired of never getting acknowledged by him that he helped a lot on their cases. John watched as Sherlock shuffled backwards, going until his back hit the doorframe, and ignored the little voice in the back of his head that was telling him that Sherlock was his best friend and that he was just mad because Harry had gotten drunk and broken up with her girlfriend, and then blamed it on John because he had been the one to bring "the tall freak". John knew that, but he also knew that Sherlock would forgive him getting mad and yelling at him, and John really needed to blow off some steam. Sherlock was the logical choice, because very few things truly insulted him, and of those things, none of them bothered him for very long.

"You are the most offensive person I have ever had the misfortune of keeping company with." John spat at Sherlock, looking him straight in the eye, but not noticing that Sherlock's were going wide in hurt, and that they were glazing over with tears. In John's mind, they were solid and uncaring, they were robot's eyes, because that is what John needed them to be, just this once. "You are inhuman, cruel, narcissistic, selfish, egotistical," John continued to spout off insults and with each one Sherlock's heart broke a little bit more.

They had been living together for a few years now, and over that time they had always been together. There had barely been a day that they hadn't been in each other's company, and Sherlock had grown to love his blogger, first as a colleague, then as a friend, then best friend, and now he knew what he should have figured out long ago. He was in love with John Watson. But Sherlock was also realising that he had blown any chance to be with this man, his best friend. Through an offensive action that Sherlock was unable to comprehend the circumstances of, he was losing his best friend.

Sherlock couldn't believe that after everything they had gone through this would be the end of them. That John would let go of their friendship just like that. That John would let go of him. He had been sure that John had at least seen him as a friend, and that they would always be friends.

And then John said the words that not only broke Sherlock's once frozen heart that had thawed just for the short army doctor, but shattered it, along with his soul.

"Anderson and Donavon were right; you are a psychopath, a complete and utter…." Sherlock was begging with his eyes and his mind 'please, John, not you, don't say that word, I can recover from everything else, just don't. Say. That. Word.' "….freak" And that is when Sherlock Holmes broke.

John saw that moment, and froze. He had gone too far, he knew he had. His vision of cold, calculating robot eyes drifted away, as did his anger, as he realised just what he had said to his best friend. Now John saw everything, and he hated it.

John saw the possibly broken wrist, he saw the blood on Sherlock's fingers that came from the back of his head, and he saw the signs of a concussion.

John saw his best friend, cowering in fear. Cowering in fear because of him.

Sherlock looked up at John and felt everything in his mind shatter. He could no longer tell what was happening elsewhere. All he saw was the terrifying vision of John Watson, the man that he loved, looking at him with anger and disgust. Sherlock felt tears fall down his cheeks just as he made the decision to block out this moment. If this was what his reality was like, he didn't want to know.

John had never seen Sherlock frightened before, nor had he ever seen him cry.

Sherlock was crying. John had made Sherlock cry.

John looked at his best friends eyes and wondered to himself 'how the hell are you going to fix this one, Watson?'.

Could Sherlock even be fixed?

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

A.N...

Well, that's the first chapter of "Don't Speak"...how did you like it?

Yet again, praise and constructive criticism are both welcome ;)

You may have noticed by now that I seem to enjoy torturing the boys...that is true, and while I am sorry, you are reading it, so you are just as bad as I am :P

See you next chapter!

'Till next we meet,

Nala