Title: Looking Out My Window Through the Pain
Author: Amanda M. Daugherty
E-mail: Country_girl_2003@Yahoo.com
Rating: G
Classification: (Harm/Mac)
Spoilers: Family Secrets
Summary: You think I'm going to give the story away?
Disclaimers: I don't own JAG or the song Looking Out
My Window Through the Pain that's written by John
Schweers and performed by George 'The Man' Strait.
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Sarah Mackenzie's Apartment
Georgetown
No matter how much Sarah Mackenzie tried to get the
noise out of her head she couldn't. Coming to full
awareness, she realized that the noise in her head
was that of the telephone.
"Hello?" A sleepy Mac addressed the caller.
"Mac listen I need your help. I can't talk long, but
I need you to go to my apartment and bring me a bag
of clothes at the airfield where I keep Sarah. Can
you do it?" Mac's former partner Harmon Rabb Jr.
asked in a hurried voice.
"If you tell me what this is about."
"At the airfield. Meet me there in an hour." Was
thelast thing that Mac heard before the click as
Harm hung up the phone.
"Who was that love?" Mic Brumby Mac's fiancée asked
as he rolled over and draped his large hairy arm
over her.
"Harm. Look Mic I need to go over to his place for a
minute. He needs my help with something." Mac said
as she removed the sheets and went to the bathroom
to shower.
"At three in the morning." Mic yelled.
"Look Harm needs my help and I'm not going to
abandon him when he needs me." Mac yelled back then
she stepped into the shower wondering why Harm
needed her.
"He's not your partner anymore." An angry Mic Brumby
told Mac when she stepped out of the bathroom ready
to go to Harm's. "He transferred to the Hill."
"He's still my friend. Look I'm not going to get
into this with you. I'll call you later."
Mac walked out the door, hailed a cab and left on
her way to Harm's apartment.
Airfield
Leesburg, VA
After stopping at Harm's and getting him an over
night bag. Mac had the cab take her to the airfield.
"Where are you running off to little lady?" The old
cab driver asked Mac.
"I'm not running off anywhere. I just have to meet a
friend."
"Your fiancée?" The cab driver asked as he pulled
off onto the road that led to the airfield.
"No. Just a friend. Pull up beside that yellow
steermen." Mac pointed to Sarah where she saw Harm
leaning up against it, his arms folded across his
chest waiting for her.
"That your friend?"
"Yes." Mac said grabbing the bag and starting to
open the door. "Wait here for me. I'll only be a few
minutes."
"Sure thang little lady." The cab driver's southern
accent came through.
Mac grabbed the gym bag containing Harm's clothes
and jogged over to him.
"Hey Mac thanks for doing this." Harm reached out
for the bag, but Mac kept it away.
"Do you want to tell me what this is all about?"
"No."
"Harm come on. You call me and wake me up from a
dead sleep at 3:00 in the morning and tell me that
it's nothing. I don't think so. Tell me what this is
all about."
"My grandmother died Mac and I'm the only one who
can take care of her things right now." Harm started
to tear up.
"Oh Harm, I'm so sorry."
"Yeah me too."
"Is there anything I can do."
"Only one thing and I know you wouldn't do it." Harm
grabbed the bag and threw it in the back of Sarah.
"You name it Harm and I'll do it."
"Come with me." Harm stated looking deep into her
dark brown eyes.
"What?" Mac said barely above a whisper.
"See told you that you wouldn't do it." Harm turned
around and started to climb up into his plane.
"Harm wait. I didn't mean it like that. It's just
that I have a life here that waiting for me. I have
Jingo and Mic at home. The Admiral's counting on me
to be a JAG since we're so backed up. Believe me
Harm if I could I would."
"It's alright Mac. My cousin Jeff and his family are
supposed to fly down next week so I'll have my hands
too full to even notice anything. Bye." Harm started
up his plane and started to taxi it out to the
runway.
Mac walked back to the cab with the words Harm just
said to her on her mind.
Belleville, PA
Mac watched as the countryside passed by her as she
drove toward Harm's grandmother's house. After going
back to her apartment last night after meeting Harm
at the airfield she couldn't go back to sleep so
against her better judgement she back a bag and
drove up to Harm's Grandmother's.
When Mac got to Harm's Grandmother's she expected to
see Harm's rental car and maybe his Grandmother's
things but when she got there the driveway was
filled with car and trucks. She parked her car and
got out as a group of kids came running up to her.
Mac stepped out of the car much to the kids'
disappointment.
"Can we help you?" The older of the kids asked. She
was tall, with long blond hair that reached her
waist.
"Yeah I'm looking for the Rabb farm, but I think I
have the wrong place." Mac said looking around. She
was clearly on a farm. From where she was standing
she could see three barns, a tractor, and several
animals.
"No you have the right place. It belonged to my
great grandmother Sarah. What do you want from
here?" The defensive girl asked.
"I'm looking for Harmon Rabb. He's a friend of
mine."
"Harmon Rabb Jr. is in the house cooking. Harmon
Rabb died along time ago."
"I know I'm looking for..." Mac was interrupted by
someone shouting.
"Kids dinner's ready." Mac looked up to see her
friend and one time her partner standing on the wrap
around porch drying his hand's on a dish towel. Just
then he looked up and saw Mac. "Mac!" Harm yelled
and ran down from the porch trying not to run into
any kids.
Mac started running toward him and when they met
Harm wrapped Mac up in a big hug holding on to her
with all that he had.
"What are you doing here? I thought you said you had
a life back in DC that needed you." Harm pulled away
from her.
"I do, but someone really important needed me and I
wasn't about to let them down."
"Thanks Mac I really appreciate it."
"No Problem. Now if you could tell me where the
closest hotel is I'll go get checked in."
"Well it about 45 minutes from here. So I suggest if
you want you stay here. You may have to share a
room. It seems the entire family showed up at once
two weeks a head of time. Now come on let's go get
you something to eat. If I know you and I do you're
starving."
"You bet." Mac said just as her stomach growled
causing them both to laugh.
When Harm and Mac entered the house the living room
was filled with people.
"Harm who are all these people?" Mac asked as Harm
held her hand and pulled her into the kitchen.
"Well I'll introduce you to them since you'll be
staying with them." Harm pulled Mac back into the
living room and started to introduce Mac to his
family. "This is my cousin Jason and his wife
Jackie." Harm pointed to a tall blond-headed man
with Harm's eyes and a short brunette. Harm
introduced Mac to all his family that was there and
led her into the kitchen to talk.
McMurphy's Bar
Georgetown
"What can I get you?" The bartender asked the poor
soul that was seated at the bar.
"Just a beer mate." The man told him.
"Woman problems?"
"How'd you guess?"
"I've been there myself. My woman left me for
another man, an old friend of hers."
"Really?"
"Yep and you know what I did?"
"No what?"
"I took that moment and wrote a song about it. Made
me lots of money got a big singer to record it and
bought this bar."
"Wow."
"Yep. You want to hear the song? I got it on the
jukebox over there." The man pointed to an old
jukebox in the back of the bar.
"Sure why not. Maybe it'll give me an idea on how to
handle this situation."
"Be back in a minute." The bartender left and a few
seconds later a song began to play.
"I watched from my window as she slipped from the
house
Once again she's leaving, but lord she's not to
blame
This morning a memory phoned her and he's a habit
she can't break
So 'til she returns I'll wait for her
Looking out my window through the pain."
"The devil drove the taxi that carried her away
And it hurts to know she's hung up on some guy from
yesterday
Once again she's chasing memories and I'm losing
everything
But I love her so I'll wait for her
Looking out my window through the pain"
"I'll pick up the pieces when he lets her down again
With love and understanding I'll give her reasons
this time to stay
And I'll close my eyes pretending maybe someday she
will change
And I won't be left lonely
Looking out my window through the pain"
"Yes, the devil drove the taxi that carried her away
And it hurts to know she's still hung up on some guy
from yesterday
Once again she's chasing memories and I'm losing
everything
But Lord I love her so I'll wait for her
Looking out my window through the pain"
"So how do you like it?" The bartender asked when
the song was finished.
"Man that was great and this really happened to
you?"
"Yep except I didn't sit around and wait for my
woman. I let her go and the next month I ran into
this cute little blond at the supermarket and will
be married five years in March."
"So you let this one woman go and because of that
you found your wife?"
"Yeah so really I have to thank this old friend of
hers because if he hadn't have came around I would
have never found the love of my life. Think about
it?" The bartender said and walked away to serve
another customer.
Mic Brumby laid a ten on the counter and walked out
the doors of the bar and to his and Sarah's
apartment to pack his things and move on with his
life.
Rabb Farm
Belleville, Pa.
Harm and Mac spent a good hour in the kitchen
talking while Harm finished cleaning up. They were
starting to talk about how Harriet and Bud were when
a tall, blond woman with Harm's eyes walked in.
"There you are HarmON." The woman said emphasizing
Harmon.
"Hey squirt." Harm smiled. "Mac this is Jenny, my
cousin. Jenny this is..."
"Harm's Mac. Hi." Jenny stuck her hand out and
looked at Harm giving him an innocent smile.
"She's not my Mac, Jennifer." Harm told his cousin.
"Anyway what do you want now?"
"Just came in here to grab a coke." Jenny went to
the refrigerator and grabbed a coke and left.
"Harm I wish you would have called me sooner and I
would have been down here with you when your
grandmother died." Mac took Harm's hands in hers.
"It's alright Mac. I've been surrounded by family
this entire time so I would have noticed you."
"What happens now, Harm?"
"Well Grams left the farm to me and I'm definitely
not selling it so I'll probably move out here and
fix everything up."
"What about your job in Washington?"
"They asked me two weeks ago if I wanted to take
command of the USS Harry S. Truman and I think I'm
going to take it Mac. It's a good opportunity. I'll
sell my place in Washington and move out here, fix
the place up whenever I'm home."
"Will you be happy?"
"I think I will Mac. I practically grew up here,
I'll be commanding a ship and I've dreamed of that.
All my dreams are coming true."
"I'm happy for you Harm."
"Thanks Mac. I really think you mean that."
"I do. Now if you don't mind can you show me where
I'll be sleeping? I really could use some rest after
traveling like that."
"Up the stairs third door on the left. Do you need
me to show you where it is?"
"No I'll be fine." And with that she walked up the
stairs thinking that once again her flyboy was
leaving her for the wild blue sea.
THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Author: Amanda M. Daugherty
E-mail: Country_girl_2003@Yahoo.com
Rating: G
Classification: (Harm/Mac)
Spoilers: Family Secrets
Summary: You think I'm going to give the story away?
Disclaimers: I don't own JAG or the song Looking Out
My Window Through the Pain that's written by John
Schweers and performed by George 'The Man' Strait.
*******************************************************
Sarah Mackenzie's Apartment
Georgetown
No matter how much Sarah Mackenzie tried to get the
noise out of her head she couldn't. Coming to full
awareness, she realized that the noise in her head
was that of the telephone.
"Hello?" A sleepy Mac addressed the caller.
"Mac listen I need your help. I can't talk long, but
I need you to go to my apartment and bring me a bag
of clothes at the airfield where I keep Sarah. Can
you do it?" Mac's former partner Harmon Rabb Jr.
asked in a hurried voice.
"If you tell me what this is about."
"At the airfield. Meet me there in an hour." Was
thelast thing that Mac heard before the click as
Harm hung up the phone.
"Who was that love?" Mic Brumby Mac's fiancée asked
as he rolled over and draped his large hairy arm
over her.
"Harm. Look Mic I need to go over to his place for a
minute. He needs my help with something." Mac said
as she removed the sheets and went to the bathroom
to shower.
"At three in the morning." Mic yelled.
"Look Harm needs my help and I'm not going to
abandon him when he needs me." Mac yelled back then
she stepped into the shower wondering why Harm
needed her.
"He's not your partner anymore." An angry Mic Brumby
told Mac when she stepped out of the bathroom ready
to go to Harm's. "He transferred to the Hill."
"He's still my friend. Look I'm not going to get
into this with you. I'll call you later."
Mac walked out the door, hailed a cab and left on
her way to Harm's apartment.
Airfield
Leesburg, VA
After stopping at Harm's and getting him an over
night bag. Mac had the cab take her to the airfield.
"Where are you running off to little lady?" The old
cab driver asked Mac.
"I'm not running off anywhere. I just have to meet a
friend."
"Your fiancée?" The cab driver asked as he pulled
off onto the road that led to the airfield.
"No. Just a friend. Pull up beside that yellow
steermen." Mac pointed to Sarah where she saw Harm
leaning up against it, his arms folded across his
chest waiting for her.
"That your friend?"
"Yes." Mac said grabbing the bag and starting to
open the door. "Wait here for me. I'll only be a few
minutes."
"Sure thang little lady." The cab driver's southern
accent came through.
Mac grabbed the gym bag containing Harm's clothes
and jogged over to him.
"Hey Mac thanks for doing this." Harm reached out
for the bag, but Mac kept it away.
"Do you want to tell me what this is all about?"
"No."
"Harm come on. You call me and wake me up from a
dead sleep at 3:00 in the morning and tell me that
it's nothing. I don't think so. Tell me what this is
all about."
"My grandmother died Mac and I'm the only one who
can take care of her things right now." Harm started
to tear up.
"Oh Harm, I'm so sorry."
"Yeah me too."
"Is there anything I can do."
"Only one thing and I know you wouldn't do it." Harm
grabbed the bag and threw it in the back of Sarah.
"You name it Harm and I'll do it."
"Come with me." Harm stated looking deep into her
dark brown eyes.
"What?" Mac said barely above a whisper.
"See told you that you wouldn't do it." Harm turned
around and started to climb up into his plane.
"Harm wait. I didn't mean it like that. It's just
that I have a life here that waiting for me. I have
Jingo and Mic at home. The Admiral's counting on me
to be a JAG since we're so backed up. Believe me
Harm if I could I would."
"It's alright Mac. My cousin Jeff and his family are
supposed to fly down next week so I'll have my hands
too full to even notice anything. Bye." Harm started
up his plane and started to taxi it out to the
runway.
Mac walked back to the cab with the words Harm just
said to her on her mind.
Belleville, PA
Mac watched as the countryside passed by her as she
drove toward Harm's grandmother's house. After going
back to her apartment last night after meeting Harm
at the airfield she couldn't go back to sleep so
against her better judgement she back a bag and
drove up to Harm's Grandmother's.
When Mac got to Harm's Grandmother's she expected to
see Harm's rental car and maybe his Grandmother's
things but when she got there the driveway was
filled with car and trucks. She parked her car and
got out as a group of kids came running up to her.
Mac stepped out of the car much to the kids'
disappointment.
"Can we help you?" The older of the kids asked. She
was tall, with long blond hair that reached her
waist.
"Yeah I'm looking for the Rabb farm, but I think I
have the wrong place." Mac said looking around. She
was clearly on a farm. From where she was standing
she could see three barns, a tractor, and several
animals.
"No you have the right place. It belonged to my
great grandmother Sarah. What do you want from
here?" The defensive girl asked.
"I'm looking for Harmon Rabb. He's a friend of
mine."
"Harmon Rabb Jr. is in the house cooking. Harmon
Rabb died along time ago."
"I know I'm looking for..." Mac was interrupted by
someone shouting.
"Kids dinner's ready." Mac looked up to see her
friend and one time her partner standing on the wrap
around porch drying his hand's on a dish towel. Just
then he looked up and saw Mac. "Mac!" Harm yelled
and ran down from the porch trying not to run into
any kids.
Mac started running toward him and when they met
Harm wrapped Mac up in a big hug holding on to her
with all that he had.
"What are you doing here? I thought you said you had
a life back in DC that needed you." Harm pulled away
from her.
"I do, but someone really important needed me and I
wasn't about to let them down."
"Thanks Mac I really appreciate it."
"No Problem. Now if you could tell me where the
closest hotel is I'll go get checked in."
"Well it about 45 minutes from here. So I suggest if
you want you stay here. You may have to share a
room. It seems the entire family showed up at once
two weeks a head of time. Now come on let's go get
you something to eat. If I know you and I do you're
starving."
"You bet." Mac said just as her stomach growled
causing them both to laugh.
When Harm and Mac entered the house the living room
was filled with people.
"Harm who are all these people?" Mac asked as Harm
held her hand and pulled her into the kitchen.
"Well I'll introduce you to them since you'll be
staying with them." Harm pulled Mac back into the
living room and started to introduce Mac to his
family. "This is my cousin Jason and his wife
Jackie." Harm pointed to a tall blond-headed man
with Harm's eyes and a short brunette. Harm
introduced Mac to all his family that was there and
led her into the kitchen to talk.
McMurphy's Bar
Georgetown
"What can I get you?" The bartender asked the poor
soul that was seated at the bar.
"Just a beer mate." The man told him.
"Woman problems?"
"How'd you guess?"
"I've been there myself. My woman left me for
another man, an old friend of hers."
"Really?"
"Yep and you know what I did?"
"No what?"
"I took that moment and wrote a song about it. Made
me lots of money got a big singer to record it and
bought this bar."
"Wow."
"Yep. You want to hear the song? I got it on the
jukebox over there." The man pointed to an old
jukebox in the back of the bar.
"Sure why not. Maybe it'll give me an idea on how to
handle this situation."
"Be back in a minute." The bartender left and a few
seconds later a song began to play.
"I watched from my window as she slipped from the
house
Once again she's leaving, but lord she's not to
blame
This morning a memory phoned her and he's a habit
she can't break
So 'til she returns I'll wait for her
Looking out my window through the pain."
"The devil drove the taxi that carried her away
And it hurts to know she's hung up on some guy from
yesterday
Once again she's chasing memories and I'm losing
everything
But I love her so I'll wait for her
Looking out my window through the pain"
"I'll pick up the pieces when he lets her down again
With love and understanding I'll give her reasons
this time to stay
And I'll close my eyes pretending maybe someday she
will change
And I won't be left lonely
Looking out my window through the pain"
"Yes, the devil drove the taxi that carried her away
And it hurts to know she's still hung up on some guy
from yesterday
Once again she's chasing memories and I'm losing
everything
But Lord I love her so I'll wait for her
Looking out my window through the pain"
"So how do you like it?" The bartender asked when
the song was finished.
"Man that was great and this really happened to
you?"
"Yep except I didn't sit around and wait for my
woman. I let her go and the next month I ran into
this cute little blond at the supermarket and will
be married five years in March."
"So you let this one woman go and because of that
you found your wife?"
"Yeah so really I have to thank this old friend of
hers because if he hadn't have came around I would
have never found the love of my life. Think about
it?" The bartender said and walked away to serve
another customer.
Mic Brumby laid a ten on the counter and walked out
the doors of the bar and to his and Sarah's
apartment to pack his things and move on with his
life.
Rabb Farm
Belleville, Pa.
Harm and Mac spent a good hour in the kitchen
talking while Harm finished cleaning up. They were
starting to talk about how Harriet and Bud were when
a tall, blond woman with Harm's eyes walked in.
"There you are HarmON." The woman said emphasizing
Harmon.
"Hey squirt." Harm smiled. "Mac this is Jenny, my
cousin. Jenny this is..."
"Harm's Mac. Hi." Jenny stuck her hand out and
looked at Harm giving him an innocent smile.
"She's not my Mac, Jennifer." Harm told his cousin.
"Anyway what do you want now?"
"Just came in here to grab a coke." Jenny went to
the refrigerator and grabbed a coke and left.
"Harm I wish you would have called me sooner and I
would have been down here with you when your
grandmother died." Mac took Harm's hands in hers.
"It's alright Mac. I've been surrounded by family
this entire time so I would have noticed you."
"What happens now, Harm?"
"Well Grams left the farm to me and I'm definitely
not selling it so I'll probably move out here and
fix everything up."
"What about your job in Washington?"
"They asked me two weeks ago if I wanted to take
command of the USS Harry S. Truman and I think I'm
going to take it Mac. It's a good opportunity. I'll
sell my place in Washington and move out here, fix
the place up whenever I'm home."
"Will you be happy?"
"I think I will Mac. I practically grew up here,
I'll be commanding a ship and I've dreamed of that.
All my dreams are coming true."
"I'm happy for you Harm."
"Thanks Mac. I really think you mean that."
"I do. Now if you don't mind can you show me where
I'll be sleeping? I really could use some rest after
traveling like that."
"Up the stairs third door on the left. Do you need
me to show you where it is?"
"No I'll be fine." And with that she walked up the
stairs thinking that once again her flyboy was
leaving her for the wild blue sea.
THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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