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Okay, since I do not remember where I was going with my Bumblebee fanfic…I've recently started this one. This one is relatively personal and a lot of stuff is based on actual events that have happened in my life recently and I just wanted to write a fanfic with Optimus Prime! And since I've recently watched Revenge of the Fallen, I've had this obsession with giving these Transformers a human side…since that one girl is a Decepticon in Revenge of the Fallen. I thought hey, if they do it in the movie…then I'm giving Optimus a human side, hehe! :) And oh, just because the main girl's name is Carly…does not mean that it's the character Carly Spenser from Dark of the Moon. She's my personal character and I like the way Optimus and Carly sound together.
Okay, after watching Revenge of the Fallen and Dark of the Moon recently…I've been thinking of ways to combine them. Well, maybe not actually combining them…but using different events from both movies to help make my own fanfic.
Well, here it is…hope you enjoy it. All reviews are welcome!
Enjoy!
XOXOX
It was the beginning of Winter, well close to anyway. It was a couple of weeks before Christmas when Carly sat up on her balcony alone as she looked over and out past the horizon of the ocean. And even though it was Christmas, supposedly one of the happiest times of the year…for some reason, Carly felt everything but happiness.
For weeks now, or through out the course of the summer and now fall, she had been hanging out with this guy she met over the summer at a local car show. They seemed to have hit it off real well, however he still had one semester left of school and the only way they could communicate was by phone or Facebook. And actually to Carly's surprise, they were texting back and forth for what seemed like almost every night since Carly doubtfully gave him her number. Like always, she had her doubts…but there was just that little piece of her that maybe, just maybe thought that it might work out.
Well, during one night last week…Carly thought to just text him like she usually does. Although through out the course of the conversation she learned that there was a "lady friend,' coming down to school for a couple weeks. So, in Carly's mind…this automatically meant girlfriend. And going back and forth in their conversation that night, she learned that nothing has happened between him and this one girl and that he didn't have a girlfriend. So, taking this chance…this one and only chance that she has ever seen to tell him how she felt about him…she decided to take it, even though she knew deep down that it would probably never go anywhere.
And like she thought, it didn't.
However, they still communicated…but they were always dry conversations and not like they were before Carly told Sam how she felt about him. And of course now, Carly thought that at that split second, she wanted to tell him how she felt. And after asking several different people, and after all of them telling her to go for it…she listened to them and with what her gut and heart were telling her to do…and now…she seemed like she was paying for it. Even though she went with her gut instinct, with what her gut was telling her to do…like usual…she paid for it. Of course he never saw her like that…none of them do. She couldn't help but to think as she continued to stare out past the horizon.
And all the while she gazed out passed the horizon, she was forced to stare out over passing couples as they enjoyed this beautiful winter evening together off of the coast. However, as this one couple walked by…she couldn't help but to be affected by them. They looked so happy as they held each other's hands close, and walked side by closely. They had smiles on their faces and were just enjoying one another as the sun set beyond the horizon. And it was then that Carly felt a heaviness that no one could understand. As she looked down at the couple that passed by as they held each other's hand…she couldn't help but to look down at her own. It was empty, and just looking at it after looking at the couple walking by…it even felt heavy. Heavy to the point where she just knew deep down in her heart that she would never know what it would be like to hold someone else's hand…someone who's your other half.
And knowing that, Carly couldn't help but to clench her fist tightly as she dug her nails into the palm of her hand at the knowledge that she just knew it would never lovingly be in the hand of another. This upset her, it really did as she just couldn't help but to think how there seemed to be no one out there for her. Well, if it wasn't Sam…she hated to and practically stopped herself from thinking about Optimus. There was always Optimus, which was crazy…maybe even insane, she knew. But damn it…if people only knew, if people only knew how he treated her…how he had a human form that he could get down to Carly's level…then they would understand. Optimus was the only one in the universe that knew she was alive and that knew and understood her perfectly to where no one else did. He was the only one, and if it wasn't in the most perfect timing…she heard the sound of a semi engine running outside the front of her house. However, she didn't go out to see if it was Optimus because she knew it was. And yet, she didn't run out there to greet him. In fact…she didn't feel like moving at all and she knew that Optimus knew that if she didn't go out front to greet him…she knew that he knew something would be wrong and would come looking for her in return. And like clockwork, she heard the sound of giant metal footsteps making its way towards the backyard where she saw Optimus out of the corner of her eye.
And yet, she didn't look over at him…because she didn't want to…because she knew it would never happen. It was even crazy to think like that. But she kind of had no choice when he started to speak to her.
"Carly…you alright? You seem distant. You didn't even come out front when I was parked for over twenty minutes." Optimus replied as he saw the far off distant and blank look Carly had on her face. Carly let out a small snicker as she just quickly looked up at Optimus, then quickly looked back down to the stone floor of her balcony.
"I'm fine Optimus…I'm always fine." Carly replied as she tried ever so hard to fight back the tears.
"No you're not…you're less then fine. Meet me out front, we're going for a drive." He replied as he started to walk away when he noticed that Carly never budged.
He stood there as he watched her for a moment just to make sure she was coming. Then, after a few seconds later, he started to make his way out towards the street as he saw that she got up and started to make her way into the house. And while he sat out there waiting for her, he watched all the lights turn off inside the house and then he finally saw Carly walking towards him. And as she walked around towards the driver side, he swung the door open so that Carly could step in. And once he heard the sound of the seatbelt clicking…he began to drive off and to where…Carly didn't know. The only thing she knew was, was that she was glad to be out of the house for just a little.
That was until they stopped at a near by truck stop so that Carly could get something to drink. She was extremely thirsty and at the time of night when Optimus picked her up, the truck stop was the only thing open. But it was when Optimus pulled over into a designated parking area just for semi's, it was then that Carly realized how hurt and alone she really felt.
It had to have been the night of a winter dance or something for high school because there were quite a few teenagers that hung around the truck stop. Carly noticed as she walked through the front door. But as she got herself a cup of coffee, a couple walked over that was dressed formally for their winter dance. They looked so happy, like they looked like they just came back from having a great time. Smiles were plastered on their faces as they laughed and giggled and just simply hung out with each other. And as Carly poured some sugar into her coffee, she just couldn't help but to look over at them across the island where all the coffee stuff was. It was like, she just blankly looked across at them as she just imagined what that felt like…what that felt like to be happy and to just simply have a good time. Carly would have no idea what that felt like because here she was, she was 26 years old and gazing after high school couples in envy. And with that thought, she pried herself away because she couldn't take looking at them anymore. She was 26 years old and yet, there were times she just felt like she was 80. And after gazing over at those couples…and that whole thing with Sam…all Carly wanted was to be happy and to just plain feel like she was 26 years old. Carly thought to herself as she took a sip of her coffee, which was rather good as she walked back out through the front door where for whatever reason she caught a glimpse of Optimus through the corner of her eye.
And then, there was him. There was Optimus Prime. She thought to herself as she looked after the semi with a smile on her face as she made her way over to Optimus. She had something that no one else, no other female had…she had Optimus. He was part of an alien race that only a very few select people got to be with…and she was one of them. And she felt honored knowing that, now knowing that Optimus was her guardian…and always will be. However, even though she liked Optimus…she just knew deep down that he could never truly be what exactly she wanted and needed. She thought to herself for whatever reason as she stepped back into the semi cab, which brought the sadness right back as Optimus began to drive away. And as he drove away, he drove past a car load of teenagers that she couldn't help but to gaze after again. It was just that, seeing them brought back every emotion that she had before she walked back to Optimus. And she just couldn't help it. She was weak she knew, but at the same time…she almost just couldn't help it. Carly thought to herself as Optimus drove past the car load of teenagers as she heavy heartedly laid her head against the door and brought her hand under her chin so that she had something to rest her chin on as she longingly gazed out the window…wishing, wanting, hoping…wondering when one day that would ever be her. And Optimus could feel her presence as she gazed out the window.
"Carly…" Optimus began as he broke the silence that just seemed to fill the inside of the cab.
"What." Carly snapped as she still continued to look out the window at the passing stars up in the sky as they began to drive down the highway as they left the truck stop.
"What's bothering you? Something is…and I want to know what." Optimus replied.
"Yeah…I'm sure you would…"
"Carly!" Was all Optimus said rather angrily as he was getting frustrated with her…because all he was doing was trying to help her, to comfort her…and yet…she wouldn't let him in and he knew there was a reason why. And he was going to find out.
"WHAT!" Carly snapped while raising her voice. She didn't mean to, that was the last thing she wanted to do was to raise her voice at Optimus. But it was almost as if she couldn't help it. She was in emotional pain right now and the last thing she wanted to do right now was to explain to Optimus why.
"I'm sorry Optimus…I'm just not myself. I didn't mean to yell." Carly said softly as she wiped away the tears that ran down her face.
"I understand…I just want to know what's bothering you. I've never seen you so upset." Optimus replied as they continued to drive down the open highway.
Carly sniffled as she wiped away more tears that seemed to escaped from her eyes and she looked like she was about ready to say something, but she never did. And Optimus knew something was really bothering her, which was why he didn't pressure her into saying anything more at the moment. He knew in time she would start talking when she was ready. And after sitting there in complete silence for what seemed like forever, Carly couldn't take it anymore as she just started to talk.
"I'm sorry Optimus…its just been a couple of shitty days recently…"
"I know what happened to your mom, you mean to tell me there's more?" Optimus asked as he almost couldn't believe that there could have been. But for as long as he's known Carly…bad things just sort of seemed to happen to her, even though she never did or ever asked for anything like that to ever happened to her. Things just always seemed to happen, and in a way, Optimus was sort of glad he was her guardian. He knew at least if he was with Carly, he could somewhat bring protection to her and to give her someone to at least go to.
"You know that I've been friends with Sam…right?..."
"Yeah?..." Optimus replied in a questioning voice.
"Yeah well, like a stupid girl…I told him that I liked him and was kinda hinting towards the fact of possibly going out with him…"
"Why did you tell him that?" Optimus questioned wondering why she would just tell Sam that.
"Because of my girlish insecurities…because of my wants…because of my, "never having's," that's why. We were going back and forth like normal when I learned about this girl who's somewhat in his life. Supposedly they're not dating…yet…but I guess she is coming down to school to spend some time with him. I guess they've wondered why nothing has happened between them or whatever…I don't know. Point is, I got scared…jealous and pissed off all at the same time that I just let it come out! I was like come on…really! Things had been going extremely well between Sam and I…almost to the point where I thought something might happen…"
"And something might happen Carly, you don't know for sure that anything won't." Optimus replied.
"Really Optimus…really? You must not know me at all because if there's one thing I lack…is experience and the chance of ever being with a guy any shape or form. I mean, Sam has been the only guy friend I've ever had…which shows because I don't even know how to talk to him half the time…because I'm so concerned with liking him…that that's kinda all I think about. It sucks because I damn well know he likes me back! After everything that's happened…and it's not just me who's seen it either…its everyone else who's seen it as well. I just don't understand why he just wants to be just friend! I don't get it Optimus…what's wrong with me! I don't want there to be another girl…I want to be the girl…no one else! Where's my chance? I just don't get it…and yet…I still like him…I'm such a stupid female!"
"You're not stupid Carly…"
"Yeah…then why do I keep going back? Why do I still text him, talk to him on Facebook every chance I get? Why do I still get excited when he texts me? Because I'm hopeful…because I just hope that maybe things will work out between us…because I just want them to? I know we will probably never date…hell I doubt we will ever hang out when he comes home…and yet I still hold on to the possibly of things not working out between him and that other girl…for the possibly of one day to be his…It's ridiculous!" Carly couldn't help but to cry out as a tear escaped from her eye.
Optimus didn't quite know what to say. Sure he's been on Earth for quite some time now…he's even adapted to the human life…but if there was one thing that he didn't understand was the whole relationship/dating thing. And to be honest…does anyone understand it? But from being from another world…Optimus knew he did not, which was why this was hard on him. He cared about human kind…and yet…he couldn't figure out anything to say to comfort Carly…which was why the rest of the drive was in an awkward silence. And when they finally got back to Carly's house, she hated to admit it…but she couldn't wait to open the front door. It was just that, after she practically spilled her guts out to Optimus…it was quiet…almost too quiet…which was weird to her because there has never been a time where she had been with Optimus where it was quiet like that. She thought to herself as she started to walk towards the front door with Optimus walking behind her.
"I should probably get back to NEST…I haven't really been there for a couple of days." Optimus replied as they stood there facing each other.
"Yeah, and its late…I should probably get to bed…"not like I'm going to do anything else…" Carly added under her breath in which Optimus heard…and that Carly was shocked that he did.
"Carly…" Optimus started as he brushed the palm of his hand against the skin of her cheek, as she couldn't help but to flinch a little bit at the sense of his touch.
"It's okay Optimus, really…its like this every day…I'll be fine…." She lied as she tried to hold back the tears.
"Alright…just take it easy. Don't hesitate to contact me if you need me…" Optimus replied as he started to walk back down to the street when something came over Carly that she didn't quite know what it was.
"Optimus, wait!" She called out to him before he would transform.
"Please don't go…I don't want you to go! I don't want to be by myself…I'm always by myself and I'm sick of it! For one night…I just want to fall asleep with someone other than me in the house! I'm tired of being alone Optimus…I don't want you to go!" She cried as water practically flowed from her eyes. As she cried even more, she had left a puddle on Optimus's shirt as he lifted her chin up from his chest. He felt so bad for her…she hadn't had it easy at all in the dating scene and it showed. And yet, since the day Optimus met her…he fell for her almost instantly. And somehow…he almost couldn't help but to think that there was a reason why he fell for her so quickly…but it was clear to him now that this was why he did…
To him, she was so beautiful and often wondered why no one has ever given her a chance. But that was all about to change he thought as he just couldn't help but longingly gaze into her green eyes as he caressed his hand to her cheek. Her hair fell loosely around her face as Optimus moved his thumb over her skin and she knew what was about to happen. Could she take it? Was she even ready to kiss anyone without even knowing how to kiss? Well, she was about to find out as she noticed Optimus started to lean in closer to her…it was almost as if they were being drawn together by some mystical force. Carly couldn't help but to think as she felt Optimus's lips brush against her's as her first kiss began. And yet, she was scared and nervous enough to pull away…quickly.
"Optimus, I…" She began as she felt her fingers clutch onto Optimus's shirt while she nervously looked into his blue eyes.
"I know…I've had my eye on you for a while now Carly, ever since we met…"
"But Optimus, that was over like…three years ago…"
"I know…I've been such an idiot to let you be here by yourself..." Optimus replied as he couldn't help but to hold her face in the palm of his hand. In a loss for words, Carly just endearingly looked at Optimus. She didn't know what to say, she really didn't. However, she knew Optimus was genuine with what he said…he almost always was with whatever he said. In fact, he was genuine with just about everything he did…rather he was an extraterrestrial or not there was this human side to him that made the other side almost disappear. He was about the honest to goodness kindest being that she's every met. And she knew he meant everything that he did…everything. She couldn't help but think as they leaned in when their lips brushed against each other and finally met.
And to Carly, everything around her just seemed to disappear. She knew it was crazy, but the only thing she concentrated on was Optimus…and their kiss, her first kiss. Even though she physically knew that she was kissing him, she felt like she had no idea what she was doing…technically she didn't, but she couldn't help but to have that run through her mind. Yet, little by little that seem to fade away as she just let herself go and fully concentrated on Optimus…which she still couldn't believe that she was actually kissing somebody…that this was for real. She couldn't help but to think to herself as she felt Optimus's hand slide down to the small of her back where he pulled her close to him…close enough to where he could feel her heart beat against his chest.
And little by little, they got into each other more and more where it almost felt impossible to stop kissing. She felt his hand slide back up to where her cheek bone and her neck is and felt Optimus hold her there as he gently pried her lips opened as he slipped his tongue onto her's. At first, it freaked Carly out just a bit as she wasn't expecting that, but she couldn't have said that she wanted him to stop. She couldn't help but to think as slowly, but eventually their kiss seemed to stop naturally as they slowly pulled away from each other.
Carly's cheeks were red, she could feel it as she couldn't help but to smile while she pulled some hair back behind her ears as she looked at Optimus. So, this is what true love felt like? Something so unexplainable, she couldn't explain it herself. So this was the miracle she had been dreaming of? 26 years it took to finally find the right one…and he wasn't even human, only part of him was. But to Carly, she didn't care. She just knew she was in love with Optimus, and to her…never being with anyone…never even being friends with a guy…was now worth the wait. Carly couldn't help but to think as she still found herself smiling at Optimus.
"I'm sorry I'm smiling like a giddy school girl…" Carly couldn't help but to say while giggling as she looked into Optimus's blue eyes.
"It's okay Carly, I know what you've gone through. You don't have to apologize to me for anything." Optimus replied as he embraced her in his arms as the smile never left Carly's face.
"Do you really have to go back to NEST?" Carly asked as she laid her head comfortably on Optimus's shoulder while she ran her hand down his arm, holding him as she never wanted to let him go.
"I'm sorry, but…I do." He told her while gently pulling her away from him so that he could see her.
"I know…I understand." She told him as he brushed his thumb against the skin of her cheek in which Carly practically melted at the sense of his touch.
And as he pulled away from her, Carly folded her arms as she watched him make his way down to the street. Upset that he had to go, she watched him walk down to the street as she damn well knew that he had to get back to the Autobots. But she didn't want him to go, not after that…not after their kiss. Carly couldn't help but to think about as she watched Optimus transform back into vehicle mode. And yet, even though she was saddened that Optimus had to get back to NEST, there was just something about watching him transform back into vehicle mode that was the coolest thing. She couldn't help but to smile as Optimus sat there in vehicle mode on the side of the road before he actually left. And that, that right there no other human had the capability of doing and she almost felt proud having Optimus Prime as her boyfriend. There was this extraterrestrial, exoticness about the whole thing with Optimus that Carly loved…and yet, she also knew she was protected whenever she was with him…which made Carly feel at ease. There was no other human in the world who could have even come close to Optimus…not even close. And after waiting this long, wondering, hoping, dreaming of if she would ever find him didn't even matter as she was now with Optimus Prime.
And knowing that he can't ever return life to Cybertron, fate has yielded its rewards…his new world to call home, a new love to call his own. She knew he lived among everyone now. But to Carly, she knew better, she knew their race…there was the Decepticons…the Autobots, in which he was leader of. With them always hiding in plain sight, she knew he was always watching over her, waiting, protecting. And even though they were worlds apart, between them…there was more then met the eye.
And with that, Carly couldn't help but to smile as she watched Optimus drive away while she walked back inside. Once inside, behind the closed front door…Carly couldn't help but to lean against it as she thought back to what just happened. And after looking back at the driveway where they stood, where they kissed…Carly smiled to herself as she just couldn't help it. Satisfied, satisfied after finally, finally feeling happy for once in her life…Carly smiled as she headed upstairs to get ready for bed. And for once, for once in her life she knew she was going to get a good nights sleep…and she couldn't help but to smile at that either.