I had always hated waking up for school, mostly for the reason that I never actually wanted to be here. I should have listened to Brittany after first year, instead here I am beginning the second semester of my third year waking up at 6 am sharp. Ha, I bet if anyone from Lima could see me now they'd laugh. Even though I've left Lima, I still feel like a fucking Lima loser. Probably because of the I'm the only one from New Directions not actually doing what I want to do for the rest of my life. No more singing for me, no performing just cheerleading and school work. But no one from Lima even talks to me anymore, its probably for the best though. Everyone's probably mad at me because during first year I went home and broke up with Brittany, she just wasn't happy anymore she said so herself. It was for the best. At least that's what I keep telling myself. Everything has changed, just for the best now.. well hopefully.

"Satan get your ass out of bed before I send Dakota in there to drag your ass out!" Aubrey yells while banging on my door. I guess some nicknames just stick. But she was one of the first girls I met here in Louisville. Aubrey had reminded me a lot of Quinn and I think that's why I took such a liking to her, she never put up with Snixx and after a few times she figured out when to hold me back.

"Hey hey, its too early to be dragging me into some Snixx attack!" Dakota yells from her room across the small apartment She's our other roommate. She's more of a female version of Puck even down to the short hair, and she usually held me back when Snixx came out. I swear the two would make the greatest couple, but Aubrey is straight. But either way, I'm glad we all get along.

"Its alright Dakota I'm up!" I yelled back as I pushed my feet over the side of my bed. I hated waking up so early, the floors were so cold and I never could remember to buy a carpet or something. Looking around my room I spot a sweater and throw it on as I head out towards the kitchen.
As soon as I open the door I realize its probably going to be a decent day. Aubrey knows me well enough to have a cup of coffee out on the counter for me, and Dakota is completely out of my way while she lays upside down on the couch watching cartoons. I smile at the two, although we were the weirdest bunch, we know each other inside out and if any of us were to be doing something different right now, today just wouldn't be right.

This was the first year we had moved into an apartment together. None of us really could handle another year living on campus. Dakota was tired of dragging me back to our room when I ended up being a crying mess in the corner because some blonde girl looked like Brittany. While Aubrey got tired of handling me crying and venting to her all night. It was mostly a routine by now. But now we just got drunk and they shoved me in my room instead of carrying me across campus. I hadn't gone back to Lima since I heard Trouty mouth had swooped in on Britt. It was just too hard to go back and see her happy with someone else while I was miserable still and after 3 years? I'm thinking I always will be.

"You're going to have to go back eventually you know Santana..." Dakota says leaning over the back of the couch.

"Go where?" I say trying to avoid the subject, but I knew I was caught they knew me better than that.

"You had that look on your face again. You were thinking about her." Dakota spoke softly from behind the couch, and I knew I couldn't get out of this. I couldn't make eye contact just stared down while i stirred my coffee, but I knew Aubrey had thrown something at her because I heard something smash and Dakota squeaked.

"I know guys, I just don't think anyone will be that willing to let me back in. I've avoided them for so long, they didn't make an effort why should I?" I sigh looking up and switching my gaze between the two of them and run my fingers through my hair.

"This year you're going back Satan, no ifs, ands, or buts." Aubrey pipes in pulling her gaze away from her mug of coffee.

"Don't worry, if you really need it, we'll go back and help you through it. We pretty much have known everything since you first moved in with us. Can't really avoid a picture of a beautiful blonde on the fridge and some fake ass ghetto accent." Dakota says laughing while she turns back around and puts her attention to the t.v.

FLASHBACK

I had stormed into the dorm room making the door slam against the wall behind it catching the two girls attention. They watched me as I stomped into the kitchen and put 2 pictures on the fridge. One picture had Britt in her Cheerios uniform, the other had Britt and I sitting in the Choir room leaning against one another.

"Listen here, this here be my girlfriend. Her namez is Brittany, she ever comes around you two better find a new place to sleep. Don't wanna be around when we get our sweet lady kisses on. Oh and if you EVER see her looking around lost, you best bring her straight to me."

I watched as the looks on their faces went from shocked to confused and then they both started laughing and nodding their heads. I was shocked as to why they weren't intimidated by Snixx but I smiled and then we all introduced ourselves and spent the afternoon getting to know each other. I figured from then on I had found myself a few people to keep around.

FLASHBACK END

I laughed out loud at the memory, I was never good at first impressions. But I knew from then on that I had found myself some pretty good room mates, and here we are 2 years later and they're still trying to push me to go back home and face my demons.

"Dakota's right you know Santana. We've had to drag you home from parties and sneak from room to room when you went into full blown Snixx mode for weeks." Aubrey said from the table reading her class structures for the day. " I'm sure we can handle going back to your old high school if you want the two of us to go with you for moral support. Plus it is seriously something you should do, you owe everyone. You've ignored the messages you've gotten on facebook. They've messaged us asking if you died."

"I just can't bring myself to answer them and risk them finding out how miserable I am. They'll make fun of me I know it, but seriously thanks guys, I'd be glad if you came but I'll let you know when I plan on going back. " I say while I place my cup in the sink and head back to my room.

I sighed when I closed the door. Looking around my room I can't help but start to tear up from all the little memories I have scattering the place. I should probably clean up but I can bring myself to move any of it or put it away. My Cheerios jacket is hanging on the wall beside a picture of the entire team when we won nationals. My McKinley yearbook with pictures of the Glee club, and of course one single picture of Brittany on my bedside table. I sigh and shake my head trying to clear my head from these thoughts before I end up as a sobbing mess on the floor.

After I decide that I'm going to wear my black skinny jeans and a white v-neck I rush to the bathroom, hoping to avoid eye contact or any contact with Aubrey or Dakota, I don't need them to see me and worry about me crying. After I strip down I get into the shower and just let the hot water caress my body and the tears stream down my face. Today was going to be a lot harder to get through then I had thought.

I come out of the bathroom all ready to go to class and realize the other two girls were waiting for me. Dakota sitting on the counter with her book bag sitting at her feet with her guitar case. Although she was studying a bunch of Sciences she still managed to make room to play her music. Aubrey on the other hand was studying Law and we had alot of classes together. Once they noticed me and realized we were ready to head out we all headed out and went towards the campus. Little did I know I would have the biggest surprise of what or who would be waiting for me once I foot step onto campus.